No Ordinary Cowboy. Mary Sullivan

to the stove. “Hank, he keeps bringing the children here, and mostly they go home happy. You feel so good to help them. They laugh so much here.”

      Hannah spun around and handed Amy a bowl of oatmeal, then retrieved a carton of milk from the fridge. “Go into the dining room and eat.”

      Amy thanked her and left the kitchen. In the dining room, she fell into a chair to recover from the whirlwind that was Hannah. She sprinkled sugar on the glutinous gruel in her bowl and shrugged. Oatmeal was best served fresh. Her own fault for sleeping in.

      After breakfast, she headed for the office but found the door locked.

      She walked down the hall to search for Hank. Stepping onto the veranda, she saw no sign of him in the corrals or yard. Where was everyone? The heels of her sandals clicked on the gray wooden floor. She descended the steps.

      A light June breeze carried the faint sounds of children’s voices from the barn. It also held an elusive hint of fragrance from the garden. Funny that she hadn’t noticed all these flowers yesterday.

      She walked the length of the garden slowly, savoring the colors and scents.

      “I can’t do these up,” a child’s voice said from behind her.

      Amy spun around.

      The thin girl with the sallow skin stood behind her wearing a pair of overalls, but holding them up at the waist. Two straps trailed on the grass behind her.

      Amy bent and picked up the straps, trying not to touch the narrow shoulders while buckling the straps to the bib. The child stared into her face, her eyes enormous.

      “You’re not doing chores,” she accused.

      Amy squirmed under the girl’s steady gaze.

      “We all got to do chores,” the girl continued, her voice ripe with reproach.

      Amy fought the guilt flooding her. She was here to do her own job. Wasn’t that a chore?

      Amy’s braid fell over her shoulder and the child touched the end of it.

      “Pretty,” she murmured. “Can I get one of those when my hair grows back?”

      Amy inhaled sharply. “Yes.” The word whispered out of her.

      “When?”

      “Soon.” Amy choked on the lie. It would take a couple of years to grow her hair back as long as Amy’s, but staring into the child’s solemn blue eyes, she didn’t have the heart to tell her so.

      She stepped back from the girl. She couldn’t do this.

      Just as she turned away, the girl slipped her hand into Amy’s. Amy curled her fingers around the tiny hand, then stared at it lying in her fist with a trust that humbled her.

      Don’t, she wanted to plead. Don’t rely on me. I don’t know if I have anything to give you.

      But this was what she thought she’d wanted when she came here, wasn’t it? Time to get on with life, she’d thought. What better way than trial by fire among these children? What a naive fool she’d been. The reality of this girl and her problems at such an early age broke Amy’s heart.

      “How old are you?” she asked.

      The child turned her head on her scrawny neck to peer up at Amy.

      “Six. How old are you?”

      Old enough to be able to handle this, Amy thought, but she said aloud, “Thirty-one.”

      “What’s your name?” the child asked.

      “Amy.”

      “I’m Cheryl. That was Grandma’s name.”

      Amy fought a fierce battle—to stay and learn more about this child who might die someday soon, or to run for the hills to bury herself in a cave. Alone.

      Cheryl raised her arms to be picked up. Amy lifted the child, her actions unnatural, as though someone else held the strings that controlled her limbs. The girl was as light as a milkweed pod. Amy settled her onto her hip and tried to control the shaking in her knees.

      Cheryl pointed to something under one of the plants. “What’s that?”

      Amy squatted, setting Cheryl on the grass beside her. Someone had tucked a clay toad house toward the back of the flower bed in the moist shade.