Cairn-Space
Poems, Prayers, and Mindful Amblings about the Places We Set Aside for Meaning, Prayer, and the Sacramental Life in the New Monasticism
N. Thomas Johnson-Medland, CSJ, OSL
Cairn-Space
Poems, Prayers, and Mindful Amblings about the Places We Set Aside for Meaning, Prayer, and the Sacramental Life in the New Monasticism
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This book is dedicated to Zoe; the one who took my heart, filled it,
and gave it back to me. I await you, in glory, with joy.
“A brother in Scetis went to ask for a word from Abba Moses and the old man said to him, ‘Go and sit in your cell and your cell will teach you everything.’”
—The Sayings of the Desert Fathers
Abba Anthony said: “The time is coming when people will be seized by manias and will behave like madmen. And if they see anyone acting reasonably, they will rise up against him saying: ‘You are insane.’ And they will have accurately said this to him, for he will not be like them.”
—The Sayings of the Desert Fathers
“Opposed to the idea that the world of perception is the bottom of reality, the mystics plunge into what is beneath the perceptible. What they attain in their quest is more than a vague impression or spotty knowledge of the imperceptible. ‘Penetrating to the real essence of wisdom . . . they are resplendent with the radiance of supernal wisdom (Zohar II).’ Their eyes perceive things of this world, while their hearts reverberate to the throbbing of the hidden.”
—Rabbi Abraham Joshua Heschel
The Mystical Element in Judaism
Introduction
Cairns have decorated the landscapes of cultures throughout time. Piles of stone—one stone placed on top of another—are set in place all over the earth to recall battles, identify burial sites, mark trails, and spur hearts and minds to remember sacred, noble, and critical events. They are landmarks. They are sacramental presences in space and time.
I first encountered cairns in my spiritual journey while staying at retreat houses on the East Coast. Most of the cairns were built in out of the way places along trails. Folks who had gone on retreat had constructed the rock piles where they had had spiritual experiences of “metanoia” or conversion of heart. Since that day I have seen them in countless locations, but mostly while hiking or on retreat. They are outward manifestations of peoples’ inner realities.
Part of the beauty of cairns is their impermanence. You need to restructure them periodically—to interact with them and share some sort of relationship—as they fall down or apart with the passage of time and the weather of our days on this earth-place. Rock slides off of rock and needs to be replaced. Rain erodes the supportive earth beneath cairns and more dirt needs to be added if the rocks are to stay above the ground. People automatically reach for the stones, to rebuild the piles, to shift the dirt when they see them dismantled or in disarray. Cairns help people work things out.
It is the same with our spiritual lives. We are constantly building our lives in God. We develop individual practices in our spiritual lives and we have beliefs, hopes, dreams, and memories. They are the cairns that dot the landscape of our lives: of our heart, and mind, and soul. Each practice is made up of many parts; as are the beliefs, hopes, dreams, and memories. These are the stones; piled on stones.
Scripture is a cairn. Prayer is a cairn. Worship is a cairn. Icons are cairns. Mind is a cairn. Emotion is a cairn. Community itself is a cairn.
All matter and manifest phenomenon are cairns of something. Everything stands sacramentally as an indicator of something else. Mind and matter reflect things beyond themselves and unfold panoplies of dimension with each encounter. One thing leads us to another, as the intrinsic holographic nature of reality is exposed—woven in and through everything that is.
Some days the cairns fall apart. Some days they are steady and true. Sometimes we can pass them by using them as grid-markers on our travels. Sometimes we must stop and take the time to re-establish what they stand to represent.
We are always about the process of building and rebuilding our lives and the cairns in them—whether they are solid markers on the outside of our lives or are ethereal markers on the inside of our lives. Things don’t always hold together. Memories are just as fragile as stone piles standing against the elements. Meaning falls apart—apparently. This speaks to our fragility and the frailty of life itself.
Cairns speak to the frailty of all matter and of the mind-stuff contained throughout that matter. Meaning often needs to be reinvested in things. Special signs and markers along the trail of life must often be rearranged so we can carry their presence into the future. Things get disturbed and out of place.
All of the things that are markers in our lives are opportunities to go inside ourselves, discover meaning; and in that meaning, uncover God. There are special dates in our lives: baptisms, confirmations, graduations, new jobs, marriages, and deaths. Each of these are cairns to us—calling out to us even though the day of their happening has passed. There are special people in our lives; special places, too. These are also cairns. These are outward manifestations of inward realities that change us, and shape us, and inform every molecule of our existence. These milestones of life are far from gone, they are woven into our consciousness in a way that often seems elusive, but they are present and often are the “hidden cause” of the direction and hope our journey assumes.
Cairns like all markers are meant to remind us of something. That remembrance is calling us to come, sit, review, and re-connect. They sign for us to go inside and link-up with an event, a process, a person, or an idea. They ask us to wrestle with things we may have tucked away—just out of memory. This wrestling is a form of relating to the things we are remembering. They are episodes in meaning. Things do matter; they tell us something. Everything has meaning.
Cairns reveal and engender a wrestling process in our lives. They show us how we assign meaning and power to what we have seen, tasted, heard, sensed, smelled, and handled with our own hands—with our own lives.
Because they straddle meaning, cairns are sacramental. They are outward manifestations of inward realities; that is, things on the outside that reveal what is important to us, and how things seem to work on the inside—behind the veil of the visible.
In the true mystic tradition, everything straddles meaning and is potentially available to reveal the inner life, God Himself, and all that Is. Everything around us and within us is a cairn toward the experience of the inner life, God Himself, and all that Is.
Everything is a sacramental cairn if we are watchful, attentive, and open to its presence and what it reveals. Phenomenon have meaning beyond themselves. Meaning unfolds when we intentionally create a place to watch it blossom.