House of the Deaf
ALSO BY LAMAR HERRIN
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House of the Deaf
Lamar Herrin
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Unbridled Books
Denver, Colorado
Copyright © 2005 Lamar Herrin
All rights reserved. This book, or parts thereof, may not be reproduced in any form without permission.
Originally published as an Unbridled Books hardcover First paperback edition, 2006.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Herrin, Lamar.
House of the Deaf / Lamar Herrin.
p. cm.
Hardcover edition ISBN 1-932961-11-9
Paperback edition ISBN 10: 1-932961-28-3
ISBN 13: 978-1-932961-28-7
1. Terrorism victims’ families—Fiction. 2. Fathers and daughters—Fiction.
3. Americans—Spain—Fiction. 4. Basques—Fiction. 5. Spain—Fiction. I. Title
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This book is dedicated with love to my
son, Rafael, and my daughter, Delia, who
have exceeded all my hopes.
But no one dies in the right place
Or in the right hour
And everyone dies sooner than his time
And before he reaches home
—Reza Baraheni
House of the Deaf
I
When Ben sensed they were getting close, he signaled the taxi driver to let him off. Calle Isaac Peral, a strange name for a street in Madrid, but for some reason names were important to him, and he wanted to get them right. He paid the driver and tipped him fifty pesetas. Deliberately, as though stepping off terrain, he continued on foot, passing a travel agency, a photocopy center, a cafeteria with pastries in the window, a fitness center and a book store. Across a narrow side street was a large gray hospital, Hospital Militar Generalisimo Franco, that occupied much of the next block. Then a pharmacy, a bar advertising comidas caseras, and a marble-faced apartment building.
If he’d been back in Lexington, Kentucky, where he lived, he would not have been able to identify the neighborhood he was in by the foot traffic he saw along the street. He saw plenty of student-aged people, some of whom might have been Americans. But this was a mainly middle-class street, filled with office workers or technicians of some sort, midrange businessmen and civil servants. Older women rolled shopping bags behind them, on their way to or from a market he neither saw, heard nor smelled.
He came to Plaza de Cristo Rey, where two other streets intersected. The first he crossed without incident. The second was broader, and he stood with the crowd, waiting for the light. The streets were full of small flashing cars, driven bumper to bumper. Threading their way among them were kids on unmuffled motorbikes, which made a drilling din. He smelled the motor exhaust, and he smelled again and again the same soap or cologne scent— some combination of lavender and lemon, with a chemical edge.
He was on the outskirts of the city, before it gave way to the university. Beyond lay the sierra, the mountain range that bounded the table land; the sky was a bright, scoured blue.
The light changed.
On Paseo San Francisco de Sales Ben saw a boutique, Miss Jota’s, and a children’s clothing store with an English name, Neck and Neck. Beyond them he could make out a string of banks. But peering up the street he must have veered to the side, for he jostled a passerby, a young man, perhaps thirty, whose eyes, in the instant he fixed on them, were of a brown so light they appeared golden. There was no anger in them, no irritation, just an aged and alien luster. Every other time in his life Ben might have apologized—lo siento, the Spanish said—but he felt no need.
He allowed the young man to step around him. By the time he got where he was going he had made contact with two others, brushes, really, but solid enough to feel flesh on flesh. He was not sorry. The Spanish sounded like a chorus of well-trained, shrill and heckling jungle birds. When an American boy and girl passed they sounded like puppy dogs in comparison, yapping with a sunny fair boding. It was all in the voices.
He was not here to make fanciful comparisons.
Before he entered the building—brick and concrete and relatively nondescript for a country not averse to making a display of itself—he stood facing the street and allowed his weight—and the weight of his emotions—to settle over his knees. He was forty-eight. He was blond and balding and too fair-complexioned for this sun. His traveling had taken him as far west as Hawaii and as far east as London, where he’d spent a week. He’d felt at home in both places, where all foreignness was kept behind glass.
He had inherited wealth. People had died so that he might be standing here without a financial care in the world.
Inside the door of the building was an iron gate, and in order to be buzzed through he was asked to identify himself. The voice—a woman’s—spoke to him first in Spanish and then in an accented but carefully enunciated English. He hesitated, surprisingly reluctant to reveal his name. He identified himself as the father of a student.
There was a doubtful pause, followed by a brief buzz, just enough to let him enter. Two students, both girls, passed him on the stairs. One was heavyset and blond, and the other had frizzy black curls. The curly-haired one looked East Coast; her companion Midwest and corn-fed. They had book bags, and he assumed they were going to class. The first said to the second, “I’m like, ‘Tell me you’re a torero and I’ll scream.’” The second, trailing heavily along, said, “That’s so Spanish!”
He came to a door with a bronze plaque. Centro de Estudios Norteamericanos.
In the director’s office he discovered the woman who had buzzed him through. “Buenos dias,” she greeted him with what he could hear was operational cheer. He was struck by her beauty, above all by the warmth in her eyes, which seemed so at odds with the falsity in her voice that he went on guard. The warmth was such that he might have stepped into a greenhouse that housed this single extraordinary bloom. He reminded himself: she was a functionary, assistant to the person he had come to see.
Yes, the director was in. Did he have an appointment?
She knew he didn’t. Amazing—she could speak these rehearsed phrases and look at him that way.
From almost three years earlier he remembered a director’s name. He said, “Is Madeline Pratt still the director of the center?”
If Madeline Pratt was the director, he knew her as an American in permanent residence here, hired by a consortium of choice American universities. He had had no contact with her.
“Si,