Praise for the novels of
New York Times bestselling author
RACHEL VINCENT
“Twilight fans will love it.” —Kirkus Reviewson My Soul to Take
“A high-octane plot with characters you can really care
about. Vincent is a welcome addition to this genre!”
Kelley Armstrong on Stray
“I liked the character and loved the action. I look
forward to reading the next book in the series.”
Charlaine Harris on Stray
“Fans of those vampires will enjoy this new
crop of otherworldly beings.”
—Booklist
“My Soul to Take grabs you from the very beginning.” —Sci-Fi Guy
“Wonderfully written characters … A fast-paced,
engrossing read that you won’t want to put down.
A story that I wouldn’t mind sharing with my
pre-teen … A book like this is one of the reasons that
I add authors to my auto-buy list.
This is definitely a keeper.”
—TeensReadToo.com
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Soul Screamers MY SOUL TO TAKE MY SOUL TO SAVE MY SOUL TO KEEP MY SOUL TO STEAL IF I DIE
Coming soon …
BEFORE I WAKE
If I Die
Rachel Vincent
This one is for everyone who wrote to ask
what happens next.
Here you go.
Now ask me again.
Acknowledgments
Thanks, as always, to my critique partner Rinda Elliot, who listens (and believes me) every time I swear that this one is the BEST ONE YET!!!
Thanks to my editor, Mary-Theresa Hussey, for unwavering enthusiasm for the Soul Screamers series, and for never even flinching at what I’ve put Kaylee and her friends through.
Thanks to Natashya Wilson, for input and encouragement.
Thanks to everyone behind the scenes at Harlequin Teen. You’ve made this possible. Kaylee and I thank you.
And, of course, thanks to #1, who puts up with me and with the multitude of fictional characters who take up most of my time and attention. Someday, more of both will be yours. I swear.
1
I used to think death was the worst thing that could happen to a person. I also used to think it was the last thing that could happen. But if I’ve learned anything from surrounding myself with reapers, and living nightmares, and my fellow bean sidhes, it’s this: I was wrong on both counts….
“What are you doing here before the warning bell?” I asked, sliding into my seat in first period algebra II with four minutes to spare. “Isn’t that one of the signs of an impending apocalypse?”
“If so, this is how I want to go out.” Emma Marshall sighed, digging the textbook from the bag on her lap. “Enjoying the view.”
I followed my best friend’s gaze to the front of the class, where Mr. Beck—hired in the wake of Mr. Wesner’s untimely demise—was writing math problems on the white board with green ink. His numbers were blockish and completely vertical; he had the best handwriting of any teacher at Eastlake. But Emma’s focus was several feet below his numbers, where the jeans encouraged by the new “Spirit Fridays” policy proved that Mr. Beck was much more dedicated to physical fitness than the average high school faculty member.
“And I suppose your sudden interest in math is purely academic, right?”
Her grin widened as she set the book on her desk, and it fell open to the place marked with a fat, purple-print emery board. “I don’t know if ‘pure’ is totally accurate, but I haven’t figured out how to entirely avoid academia in the school setting. I think the most we can hope for is something pretty to look at, to distract us from the inherent pain of the educational process.”
I laughed. “Spoken like a true underachiever.”
Emma could have been a straight-A student, but she was satisfied coasting by on effortless Bs, except in French and math, the only subjects that didn’t seem to come naturally for her. And the hot new math teacher had done nothing to improve her grades. Thanks to the aesthetic distraction, she was less inclined than ever to pay attention to what was written on the board and in the book.
Not that I could blame her. Mr. Beck was undeniably yummy, from his dark, tousled hair to his bright green eyes and the scuffed sneakers he always wore, even with slacks.
“He’s only twenty-two,” Em said, when she caught me looking. “Less than a year out of college. I bet this is his first teaching job.”
“How do you know that?” I asked, as Mr. Beck set his marker down and dug through his desk drawer for something.
“Heard it from Danica Sussman. He’s been tutoring her after school, to keep her eligible for softball.”
“Where is Danica?” I asked, on the tail end of the late bell. She’d been out sick for a couple of days, but she’d never missed on a game day before—Danica was supposed to pitch that afternoon.
“Still sick, I guess,” Em whispered, as Mr. Beck started taking roll. She unfolded a half-blank sheet of notebook paper. “Did you do the homework?”
I rolled my eyes and pulled out my own work. “What happened to your new interest in math?”
“It doesn’t extend to homework.”
“Kaylee Cavanaugh?” Mr. Beck called from the front of the room, and I glanced up, startled, certain we’d been caught cheating. But Beck was just standing there with his roll book in hand, waiting for my answer.
“Oh. Here,” I said, and he’d called three more names when the door opened and Danica Sussman stepped into the classroom. She was pale, except for dark patches beneath her eyes, which she hadn’t even tried to cover.
“Danica, are you okay?” Beck asked, as she crossed toward the front of the room, a blue late slip in hand.
“I’m fine.” She handed him the slip, but he balled it up in one fist and dropped it into the trash can next to his desk.
“I haven’t called your name yet, so you’re not really late,” he said, frowning, like he wasn’t convinced by her answer.
“Thanks, Mr. B.” But when she headed toward her desk, Danica had one hand pressed to her stomach, her face scrunched up in obvious pain.
Halfway through class, as Emma scrambled to finish her homework without ever taking her focus from Mr. Beck’s face, a familiar, sharp pain began to scratch at the back of my throat.
No! My heart beat so hard I practically shook in my chair. It couldn’t