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Grove Press
New York
Copyright © 2014 by Asa Akira
Jacket design and artwork © David Choe
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Published simultaneously in Canada
Printed in the United States of America
ISBN: 978-0-8021-2259-9
eBook ISBN: 978-0-8021-9259-2
Grove Press
an imprint of Grove/Atlantic, Inc.
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To my parents. But please don’t read it.
Contents
10 No Sex in the Champagne Room
Author’s Note
I started this book hoping to shed a different light on the industry I love so much. Not to say every day is sunshine and flowers, but I don’t feel a healthy, honest voice of someone currently looking from the inside out has been heard.
While writing, the book morphed into something more. I’ve always questioned why I am the way I am. I had a normal upbringing. My parents are loving, kind, and present. I have no mental disorders. Why am I so sexual? Why do I insist on publicizing my most intimate moments?
I can’t say that I’ve found an answer—but writing this book has oddly brought me to peace with myself. At the end of the day, I do feel my sexual cravings as a woman are normal, and should be accepted as such by society. It’s bullshit that a man who fucks a thousand women is considered a badass, while a woman doing the same thing is shunned. I’m not ashamed that I’ve worked at an S&M dungeon, stripped, escorted, or that I currently have sex for money every day. On the contrary, I’m proud of myself for having the guts to indulge in my desires.
The world has seen every fold of my most private body parts, and yet, I feel this book is my most exposing venture yet. I hope you enjoy.
P.S. Some (but not all) of the names I use in the book have been changed.
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The Perfect Scene
“Rolling