—Eleanor K. Wade
Exhibit Four: Polling Data
July 3, 1986
Wade—58%
Durkee—31%
Undecided—11%
August 17, 1986
Wade—21%
Durkee—61%
Undecided—18%6
Landslide isn’t the word. You saw the numbers? Three to one, four to one—a career-ender. Poor guy couldn’t get elected assistant fucking dogcatcher on a Sioux reservation … Must’ve asked a trillion times if there was anything that could hurt us, scum or anything. Man never said one single word. Zero. Which isn’t how you run a campaign … Did I betray him? Fuck no. Other way around. Worked like a bastard to get his sorry ass elected.
—Anthony L. (Tony) Carbo
Exhibit Five: Photographs (2) of boathouse (exterior), Lake of the Woods
Exhibit Six: Photographs (3) of “Wade cottage” (exterior), Lake of the Woods
I’ll bet she’s on a Greyhound bus somewhere. Married to that creep, that’s where I’d be. She liked buses.
—Bethany Kee (Associate Admissions Director, University of Minnesota)
I can’t discuss this.7
—Patricia S. Hood (Sister of Kathleen Wade)
Engine trouble. That old beat-up Evinrude. Busted cord probably, or the plugs went bad. Give it time, she’ll walk right through that door over there. I bet she will.8
—Ruth Rasmussen
I was working down at the Mini-Mart and they come in and I served them both coffee at the counter and then after a while they started having this argument. It went on for a while. She was mad. That’s all I know.9
—Myra Shaw (Waitress)
A politician’s wife, so naturally you try extra hard. We did everything except empty out the goddamn lake. I’m not done yet. Every day goes by, I keep my eyes open. You never know.10
—Arthur J. Lux (Sheriff, Lake of the Woods County)
The guy offed her.11
—Vincent R. (Vinny) Pearson
That’s preposterous. They loved each other. John wouldn’t hurt a fly.
—Eleanor K. Wade
Fucking flies!
—Richard Thinbill
1. Interview, December 4, 1989, St. Paul, Minnesota.
2. Interview, July 12 and July 16, 1993, St. Paul, Minnesota.
3. Missing Persons File Declaration, DS Form 20, Office of the Sheriff, Lake of the Woods County, Baudette, Minnesota. Kathleen Wade was reported missing on the morning of September 20, 1986. The search lasted eighteen days, covered more than 800 square miles, and involved elements of the Minnesota State Highway Patrol, the Lake of the Woods County Sheriffs Department, the United States Border Patrol, the Royal Canadian Mounted Police (Lakes Division), and the Ontario Provincial Police.
4. Interview, September 21, 1991, Edina, Minnesota.
5. Interview, July 19, 1990, Fargo, North Dakota. Former PFC Thinbill, a Native American (Chippewa), served with John Wade as a member of the First Platoon, Company C, 1st Battalion, 20th Infantry, 11th Infantry Brigade, Task Force Barker, Americal Division, Republic of Vietnam.
6. Minneapolis Star-Tribune, The Minnesota Poll, July 3, 1986, and August 17, 1986, p. 1.
7. Interview, May 6, 1990, Minneapolis, Minnesota.
8. Interview, June 6, 1989, Angle Inlet, Minnesota.
9. Interview, June 10, 1993, Angle Inlet, Minnesota.
10. Interview, January 3, 1991, Baudette, Minnesota.
11. Interview, June 9, 1993, Angle Inlet, Minnesota.
When he was fourteen, John Wade lost his father. He was in the junior high gymnasium, shooting baskets, and after a time the teacher put his arm around John’s shoulder and said, “Take a shower now. Your mom’s here.”
What John felt that night, and for many nights afterward, was the desire to kill.
At the funeral he wanted to kill everybody who was crying and everybody who wasn’t. He wanted to take a hammer and crawl into the casket and kill his father for dying. But he was helpless. He didn’t know where to start.
In the weeks that followed, because he was young and full of grief, he tried to pretend that his father was not truly dead. He would talk to him in his imagination, carrying on whole conversations about baseball and school and girls. Late at night, in bed, he’d cradle his pillow and pretend it was his father, feeling the closeness. “Don’t be dead,” he’d say, and his father would wink and say, “Well, hey, keep talking,” and then for a long while they’d discuss the right way to hit a baseball, a good level swing, keeping your head steady and squaring up your shoulders and letting the bat do the job. It was pretending, but the pretending helped. And so when things got especially bad, John would sometimes invent elaborate stories about how he could’ve saved his father. He imagined all the things he could’ve done. He imagined putting his lips against his father’s mouth and blowing hard and making the heart come alive again; he imagined yelling in his father’s ear, begging him to please stop dying. Once or twice it almost worked. “Okay,” his father would say, “I’ll stop, I’ll stop,” but he never did.
In his heart, despite the daydreams, John could not fool himself. He knew the truth. At school, when the teachers told him how sorry they were that he had lost his father, he understood that lost was just another way of saying dead. But still the idea kept turning in his mind. He’d picture his father stumbling down a dark alley, lost, not dead at all. And then the pretending would start again. John would go back in his memory over all the places his father might be—under