that parents only bring happiness to the children, they still somewhat responsible for misfortunes. I will not go into details this difficult relationship between children and their parents, I will just tell the main thing. We are offsprings, we always want what our parents offer us, and they want what we will never accept. Of course happens and vice versa.
Larisa told.
– I assure you, I never laid down with Roman if do not love him.
The hope was indignant.
– And you dare to speak to me about love still? You? Who destroys marriage?
Larisa told.
– That's it that marriage.
– What do you mean?
– The person married. – Larisa began to explain. – I consider that he created a marriage cell. Marriage of society. This cell cannot be strong as it is marriage. If they we tell got married as all normal people, that is entered the matrimonial relations, then here it is possible to tell that they have a strong family.
The hope asked.
– Means you consider that marriage is a marriage society, and the marriage does not?
– Yes. I so consider.
On this subject still it is possible to argue much, and none of us will tell that marriage – it is good. It's not true. Marriage or matrimonial has to pronounce the relation, here what words at a wedding, not marriage.
– But it is nonsense!
Larisa objected.
– No, this nonsense.
The hope agreed with Larisa.
– Let there will be this nonsense at what here you?
These words which were heard from Nadezhda were told resolutely and firmly.
Larisa also firmly answered.
– I want that Roman was happy.
– Then you have to understand that Roman is happy also without you. – She made a pause. Heaved a deep sigh. – There is an idiot! – she cried out these words so that Larisa from surprise shuddered. – And I brought up it. – she abused herself. – And it the first skirt was given. – in the face of Nadezhda drops of tears were shown. She got up from a chair, and left the room. There passed five minutes, and it having again entered the room suggested Larisa to have supper with it. Larisa agreed.
Here we approach the final of this history. Stories the caused heart attack, and Nadezhda's paralysis. So, how it was?
Nadezhda and Larisa sat in the living room, they had supper. Stood on a table borsch, on the second a fried chicken.
Now, едя after borsch of a fried chicken, Nadezhda was not so aggressive is ready for Larisa any more, she tried to understand her, to understand why Roman chose it? It, and nobody else? This question haunted it. She looked at Larisa, and compared it to Vera. The same. Woman as woman. The truth unlike Vera in it there was something tempting, something attractive that even Nadezhda did not understand. Imperceptible Lines of Larisa attracted Nadezhda. She tried, what is it? But how many she did not try, for Nadezhda Larisa remained a riddle.
Having eaten up chicken, Larisa took an interest.
– In so looked at me?
The hope asked.
– How did look?
– You as if wanted me. – Larisa told and added. – Did not you notice it?
The hope answered.
– Just I tried to understand that my son found in you it that is not present at Vera.
Larisa with understanding treated Larisa's words. And from clean women's curiosity though tell and without anything pleasure as any of women will want that she was compared to somebody, asked.
– And what, found?
The hope answered.
– No. – of course, she lay. She saw in her something that attracted men, but that she knew it or preferred not to speak about it. – Did not find. – Then she accidentally added. – And that you are surprised, you ordinary.
Larisa was indignant.
– I am uncommon. – She steamed, and added. – If I was ordinary, then Roman did not get acquainted with me!
All this became clear to Nadezhda. Yes, this her son, but not it tempted her. But there was the one and only question who the father of the child of Larisa? She did not know it. As well as did not know that Roman already came back home. She expected that Roman still will be late, but it did not occur. Roman came back home.
What occurred after Nadezhda learned that Roman the first approached Larisa, and she him? Business is quite clear. The hope began to blame itself for the event. If she tells earlier that her son could not have children, but not Vera. It did not occur. Perhaps Roman would not begin to seek something elsewhere? Perhaps he was treated, and recovered. But he can recovered? Can it this woman sitting before it cured? It, and more nobody cured her son? Perhaps. Roman wanted children, but so it turned out that from Vera so to him and did not give rise. Perhaps she wanted to give rise, but something disturbed her. Any force did not allow it to conceive this child, and this was not deprived of common sense. Who read the first book "my CITY: The TRAGEDY of ONE FAMILY", that is aware that I mean. Perhaps it also prevented Vera to become pregnant. And matter that she married Roman, without having allowed to marry it Nina. Business was in the child. In the little girl, Wicky. Which was Nina's daughter. It as well as Nadezhda, destroyed them with Nina life. At this moment they had a serious illness. Everyone in own way. And it was promoted by only one woman. Imperious terransha, Nadezhda. Now fitting opposite to Larisa, she well understood it. But could not make anything. It is impossible to return the past, and she knew it as well as possible.
Nadezhda had to tell Larisa that Roman cannot have children, he was infertile. Of course, a serious illness for all mankind. What can be worse than infertility. When nobody is capable to continue a sort. We reconcile that on us a sort to break, and we live as if in some room without windows without doors. In some sphere in which there is no air. We suffer from the disease, and we wither. Well if you virgin. You do not know what is SEX, and never learn. You can only two things in life connected with sex, masturbation and catch a moth to prove to yourself that you something can. But it does not occur. We understand that our attempts to bring children will not lead to anything. We become nervous, we are treated, but all uselessly. There are no results. Then, the disease, impotence develops even more terribly. And we are here ready to do anything that our little friend earned in former force. But all attempts are vain. We go to catch every time moths, and every time they to laugh at us. Let do not show, but this so. To what all this situation leads, to violence and prison.
Hope having thought of all this was horrified. She could not believe that her son is capable of similar. Happiness that this woman moth. She understood it for a long time. But what occurs now? Larisa is pregnant, claims that the father, he and how it is possible? Obviously Roman was not sick, he just waited when his feeling blaze again. He did not love Vera, lived with her because he just knew it much better, than some other woman. No speech about love business also went. He understood it only after married it. And he married it because his mother told. – sonny, it to you couple, that this, as it there Nina. Threw my son and put everything. – Yes, she threw it, but I on the second time will not write about it. All this history is written in the previous book "My CITY".
Larisa, that if he really loves her? It in general is possible? Love at first sight? I do not know. Sympathy, but dislike.
The hope thought.
"– My God! Yes what is it? This woman is pregnant, it is possible all my works are let to nothing. Roman and Vera's life will not be such joyful as it was. Let they quarreled and who not to quarrel today? But what in their life to do to this woman? Now she will give rise, then will demand a divorce and that he married it and when it refuses, she will submit the petition, for alimony. It is quite possible. – She made a pause in the reflections, and having looked at Larisa with the estimating