eventually the chemotherapy and radiation treatment took its toll, her red hair turned light and thin, and eventually began to disappear.
It was then that Miriam had been forced to admit to herself that life wasn’t going to be the same. The whole family had to. Eventually, she let Colette, her eldest, shave her head and handed over the responsibility for the house and business to a girl in her mid-twenties. It was a brave move for them both – until then Colette had spent most her life in books, and was suddenly forced out into the real world.
The adjustment had been uncomfortable and had taken quite a bit of time, but at least her father was there to help her through it.
Until that changed, too.
A few months after Miriam was diagnosed, Emmett began to falter. He spent more and more time away from home, unable to watch his wife deteriorate. Everyone could see it, but no one ever thought he’d just up and leave. Less than a year after his wife’s diagnosis and well into her treatment, he moved out.
And by the time another year had gone by, he’d initiated official separation proceedings.
Now, Miriam shooed her daughter away gently and smiled.
‘Didn’t you hear what the doctor said today?’ she insisted as she continued stirring the contents of the pot she was standing over.
‘Mum,’ Colette challenged, but her mother ignored her entirely.
‘Set your stuff down. How was your walk?’ she asked as she carried on about her business while Colette stood there, dumbfounded as always at her mother’s determination.
When Emmett left, Miriam had wished her former husband well and then refocused her energy on the rest of her family. Colette’s younger sister, Noelle, was about to leave for university and had almost deferred her entry, but Miriam wouldn’t hear of it.
By then, Colette had completed her own time at University of Essex. She missed her sister and she missed college life and her old friends.
Instead, she’d stepped into the kind of responsibility she’d never imagined, especially after her father relinquished his share in the bakery, leaving the running of the business entirely up to her.
Miriam had arranged someone to take over the bookkeeping and day-to-day administration, while Colette baked and worked on recipes with her mother’s guidance, keeping things going when her mother no longer had the strength to stay involved.
Yesterday Miriam wouldn’t have dared challenge her about housework, but today was different. Earlier, incredible news had been delivered by the oncologist. Her cancer was in remission.
Colette could hardly believe it. After four long years of relentless treatment, her mother had finally overcome the disease.
Even though they both could see Miriam looked much better than she had in years, Colette felt running the household was still her responsibility and one she took pride in.
But since today’s news, her mother was apparently ready to dive right back into her life, starting with making dinner.
She slipped out of her jacket and hung it on a hook by the door. ‘It was good,’ she answered with a smile as she inspected the ends of her hair. ‘I went to the beach.’
She twirled the large waves that had wound into curls at the end around her finger distractedly as she took a seat at the heavy wooden kitchen table. She couldn’t remember the last time she’d just sat there and did nothing. It was weird.
‘Why don’t you go get changed into your PJs?’ Miriam suggested as she glanced over her shoulder at her.
‘PJs? Mum, it’s only dinnertime,’ she answered incredulously.
‘Tonight you will do what I say,’ her mother insisted with a smile. ‘Go get changed, have a shower or a long bath, even, eat the lovely dinner I’ve prepared, then settle yourself on the couch to watch a movie and eat popcorn with me.’
Miriam was often tired and went to bed early, while Colette stayed up and read or sometimes wrote in her diary. This would be the first time in years that the pair of them would do something so mundane or simple together, and the idea appealed enormously.
The water heater was working again, allowing Colette to enjoy a warm bath for a change. It had taken her several weeks to get the money together to pay for its repair, but now it was fine.
She lay in the warm water, thinking about the latest turn in events.
Remission. It was a word with a lot of power.
For years her whole life had become a routine centred entirely around Miriam’s illness. Now it seemed that centre was no more, and while of course she was thrilled by her mother’s news, Colette couldn’t deny she felt a bit lost, too.
Tears started in her eyes as she released the emotions she’d withheld for so long. Worry about her mother’s illness, the pain of her father’s abandonment and her sister’s departure. Having no social life or companionship amid the pressure of running a business that was the sole means of her family’s survival.
She’d buried those feelings deep inside and now as she lay in the warm water, they were spilling out uncontrollably.
At that moment, she needed to cry, needed to release herself, so that for the first time in what felt like forever, she could just be Colette Turner, a young woman with no clue about anything and afraid of everything.
Still, a burning question loomed in her mind.
Now what?
When Colette emerged, she towelled the damp from her hair and dressed in her favourite pair of Snoopy pyjamas. She’d had them since she was a teenager and though old and tatty, they were still a comfort – a reminder of a much simpler life.
When she returned to the kitchen a plate of beef stew with boiled potatoes and broccoli was waiting for her. There was even garlic bread.
‘Mum, you outdid yourself,’ she exclaimed.
Oh, she couldn’t wait. While she was a competent enough cook, her efforts weren’t a patch on Miriam’s, and she’d so missed her mother’s cooking. Especially stew – her favourite. Her heart softened, knowing that her mother was going all out on purpose.
‘It’s long overdue, love,’ Miriam replied gently, taking a seat at the table across from her. ‘Besides, you deserve it. You’ve done so much for me over the last few years. This is just a small thing to start making it up to you.’
‘Oh, Mum, of course there’s nothing to make up,’ she answered. ‘I just did what any daughter would do.’
‘And I’m so grateful, Colette,’ her mother responded. ‘I truly am. I don’t know how I would have made it through this if it weren’t for you.’
She could feel her cheeks growing hot. She wasn’t used to being the centre of attention, and even a compliment from her mother made her feel bashful. Miriam must’ve sensed this as she then changed the subject.
As expected, the food was delicious and Colette enjoyed every last morsel as she and her mother chatted about everything and nothing. It was incredible to see her so strong and bright, and she was hopeful that it would continue. She’d really missed being the daughter and her mother being her mum. It was nice to see the order put right again.
‘Movie time, then?’ she asked as she went to clear the table, but again Miriam shushed her away, insisting she’d do it.
‘Movie time.’
That weekend, Noelle came home from uni to join in the celebrations, and there was a jovial feel in the house for the first time in years.
Again, Miriam fussed around the kitchen, this time insisting on baking fresh scones for her