Johanna Garton

Edge of the Map


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living next to line workers and truck drivers. Sunday mornings, Chris and her family attended Good Shepherd Lutheran Church.

      Chris was the youngest of four children, and the only girl. Her mom, Joyce, had given birth to Chris at age thirty-nine and watched her daughter battle for position in the weekend flag football games on their lawn. Joyce recalled: “Her brothers would get her out there playing with all the boys and Tommy would yell at her, ‘Just get in there and push those boys aside, Chrissy!’ She wasn’t big, but she’d run for a touchdown as she scrambled right around them. They made her tough.”

      NOW NINETY-TWO, JOYCE EXUDED THE energy of a best friend more than a grandmother. With a laugh that carried from one room to the other, conversation and stories came easily in her presence. Her build was somehow sturdy yet delicate, perhaps because of her height—no more than five feet. She joked: “I used to be five-two but then I shrank.” Taking herself too seriously would be tragic, draining the pleasure out of simple things left to enjoy, such as her great-grandchildren and the book club at her retirement home in Appleton.

      Reminiscing about her daughter, Joyce referenced a childhood friend of Chris’s. “Nadine is the one to talk to! She knew Chrissy well. Oh my, did those girls get into some antics when they were teenagers!” Waving her hand in front of her face, she broke into a huge grin, the stories of her teenage daughter trickling between the edges of her memory.

      NADINE GREW UP TO BECOME a landscape designer, but back in the day she was simply Chris’s best friend. Both girls came from families of boys, and they became thick as thieves in seventh grade when they met at Madison Junior High School. “We were total tomboys,” Nadine recalled. “We signed up for the basketball team and both of us sucked, so we sat on the bench together. We weren’t tall, and neither of us were good shooters, but we had fun.”

      Eventually the girls were so attached that they rode double on Nadine’s banana bike. Sunny weekends were filled with lying on blankets in the driveway, slathered with baby oil. When Chris’s brother Paul was out on dates, the two girls shut themselves in his room and listened to his records, playing Chris’s favorite album, Rush 2112.

      “Basically, we were just a couple of girls messing around and getting into trouble,” Nadine said. “We figured it would keep us from getting into trouble later. Whenever Chris got in hot water, I’d knock on her bedroom window and give her a Tab.”

      By the time they hit high school at Appleton East, the girls had expanded their list of activities. Chris joined the tennis and softball teams, took up playing flute in the marching band, and sported a classic eighties short haircut that was so uneven on the sides that she earned the nickname “Little Spike.” Hanging out with Nadine’s family gave Chris the chance to experience opportunities she wasn’t getting at home. Her family took the occasional trip up to remote northern Wisconsin, but many of Chris’s big adventures were with Nadine and her parents, who were still in their thirties.

      In the winter of 1983, the girls were at Nordic Mountain in central Wisconsin. “I can’t believe you’re in tenth grade and you’ve never been downhill skiing before,” Nadine said to Chris. She looked at her friend, who was gazing up at the mountain. Although it was a foothill compared to what Chris would be on in a decade, the mountain was the first to irresistibly entice her.

      “I don’t need the bunny hill,” Chris said. “I wanna go with you. I can handle it.”

      Nadine wasn’t so sure. “I’ve been on skis since I was four years old. That’s probably not the best place to start, way up there.” But she lost the argument and the pair took the lift up, scooching off at the top and inching closer to the mountain’s smooth, downhill slope.

      “Just give me a little push! I’ll be fine,” Chris said as she positioned her skis parallel as instructed.

      Watching Chris begin her first descent, Nadine’s tummy knotted. Wind blew against her neon down jacket as she took off behind her friend. Gaining speed, she picked the fastest line to catch up to Chris, who appeared to be disobeying Nadine’s five-minute lesson on how to slow down or stop. “I couldn’t catch her,” Nadine recalled. “She went straight down, and I found her at the bottom, just sitting on the snow, smiling.”

      Joyce and her husband, Robin, saw to it that their children went through confirmation and were properly educated. The loving parents told their kids repeatedly that they could pursue whatever they wanted. All four were sent off to college with strong Midwestern values and the drive to squeeze as much as they could out of life. Joyce pressed particularly hard for Chris to go to college “since Mama didn’t get to go.” The decision to stay home and raise four children had fit with the times, yet Joyce was adventurous by nature. In the 1950s, she trained to be a beautician and worked for a spell at a local department store, but ultimately she felt her calling was at home with her three sons and Chris.

      For a time, it looked like the University of Wisconsin–Oshkosh would become Chris’s home for the next four years. Robin had a fierce work ethic, which his daughter emulated, resulting in high school grades that would allow her the freedom to be selective with her education and career choices. A career in nursing sounded promising and would be a choice her parents could understand. But Chris changed her mind at the last minute. Instead of pursuing a nursing degree at Oshkosh, she decided on engineering at the University of Wisconsin–Milwaukee, an hour farther from Appleton than Oshkosh. A daughter going to school in engineering seemed an ocean apart from anything Joyce had known. Never mind, she thought. Chrissy will do more in her life than I’ve done in mine. As with many a mother and daughter, their differences seemed stark, though similarities would arise with time.

      In 1985, when Chris graduated high school, Joyce was close to sixty years old. She’d lived through the Great Depression, a World War, and Vietnam. She’d watched a moon landing, two Green Bay Packer Super Bowl championships, and the rise of the women’s movement. Life had treated Joyce well, and with four grown children off on adventures, she prepared to enjoy their every step.

      Draped in red, white, and blue, the graduating seniors at Appleton East prepared to walk into the gymnasium. For Joyce, it was the end of a life at home with kids. Her days would turn to volunteering and even grandchildren soon.

       Dear Mom,

       All is well at school. Studies tough, but I’m surviving. The classrooms are cold. Really cold. Can you please send a pair of my mittens?

       —Chrissy

      Joyce sent the mittens. She knew her daughter well. Chris hated being cold. When the Wisconsin winters subsided and the school term ended in summer, Chris returned to Appleton. Working at a bakery brought in needed college funds, while spending time with her friend Nadine remained a constant. And not far from Appleton was the home of the Experimental Aircraft Association (EAA), a nonprofit dedicated to aviation enthusiasts that held a fly-in convention every July; Chris caught the flying bug.

      “She jumped into new adventures with everything she had,” Nadine remembered. “She was tenacious that way. If you were with her and you wanted her to stay longer, she’d say that she simply had something to do, without bragging about what it was, even if it was something major like climbing a mountain. That summer in college she took one visit to the EAA convention, thought it was cool, and invested her entire being in it. Not standing from a distance watching others fly. She needed to do it herself. She needed to fly.”

      Learning to fly consumed the rest of Chris’s summer days, and she earned her pilot’s license by college graduation. For Mother’s Day, she took Joyce up in a rented plane so she could show her how it all looked from the air: circling Lake Winnebago, the Fox River, and the family home. Chris Feld was already learning to love the view from the top.

      After graduating from college in 1991 with an electrical engineering degree, Chris made Atlanta home, where she’d gotten a job at Lockheed Aeronautical Systems. Entering this world as one of the few women in the room wasn’t new to her; she’d experienced it at home in Appleton and in her undergraduate classes in Milwaukee. At Lockheed, her talent for leadership was noticed, and she was assigned to guide a team designing