Tony J.D. Carr

Time Bring About a Change


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into the classroom by my fourth-grade teacher, Mrs. Higgins, a very tall white lady with jet-black hair. Mrs. Higgins introduced me to my class and explained that I came from another school. After the introduction there was a dead silence—everyone was staring at me as though I were a zoo animal. Then the whispering started. I tried to block out the whispers and remember what my grandfather had told me: “You put your pants on the same way everyone else does, and there is no one that is any better than you. You get what you came there for, an education.” My grandfather was great at phrasing words that kept me focused and motivated.

      I initially dreaded going to recess and lunch. I just wanted to get through my classes and go home, never to return again. However, I knew that was not going to happen. Like it or not, I would have to mingle and try to assimilate into this new school environment. I also understood that it was just a matter of time before racial names would come to the surface. Well, it didn’t take long enough. I was called names like nigger lips, spear chucker, spook, and a host of other degrading descriptors. My parents had taught me that if someone punched me, I could punch them back—but I should never start a fight over someone’s words. So, I took the name-calling and just let the anger build up inside of me.

      A Challenge

      Three weeks into the school year, things started to change. One day at recess, I was standing by the basketball court when a sixth grader approached me and challenged me to a game of one-on-one. Now, this sixth-grade boy was probably one of the most popular kids in the school. I happily accepted his challenge, for I was fortunate to have been blessed with athleticism and the ability to play basketball at an early age. My mom’s brother, Uncle Everett, had played with the Harlem Globetrotters and Harlem Magicians in the late 1950s and early ’60s, and in the 1970s he had started his own team called the Broadway Clowns. When I was five years old, he began teaching me the fine art of basketball fundamentals and showmanship.

      Uncle Everett was not only a mentor to me athletically, but socially as well. But I probably give my brother, Steve, the most credit for my basketball abilities. I always wanted to beat him, and he would never let me. Steve gave me no special treatment, and he was very hard on me when we played basketball. There were times when I hated him for it, but when I look back now, I realize that all those years of playing with my brother helped make me both mentally and physically tough.

      When I was five, my father and grandfather cut out a backboard made of wood, added a wooden pole, cemented it into the ground, and, after attaching a rim and net to the pre-cut wooden backboard, we had a basketball court. Playing on that makeshift basketball court into the darkness of night were some of the happiest times of my life. The game would consist of Uncle Everett and me against my father and brother and cousin Kim. Uncle Everett and I would always win because he did all the hard work and created wide-open shots for me.

      SWISH

      Three Years Old And Shy As Can Be

      All Confused, But There’s Love In The Family

      My Teddy Bear (Brownie) Is My Only Friend

      Mom Is Always With Me From Beginning To The End

      Started In An Urban School

      Yeah, It’s Mostly Black

      School Board Votes Integration

      White School Says Go Back

      Confusion Is Back Again

      White Children Call Me Names

      Do They Really Hate My Race?

      Or Are Their Parents To Blame?

      I Became A Loner

      Finding Peace Within My Space

      Learning One Thing Daily

      That It’s A Cold, Cold Human Race

      But I Came Across A Basketball

      Not Trusting Anyone

      Uncle, Dad, And My Brother

      Showed Me How It’s Done

      Things Come So Natural

      With The Ball In My Hand

      Swishing Nets And Fancy Dribbles

      This I Understand

      Prejudice And Pain

      Could Not Turn Me For A Loop

      I Found Peace Of Mind

      Whenever I Shot The Hoop

      Acceptance Is Achieved

      By The Talents You Possess

      Keep Believing, Not Deceiving

      And You Will Pass The Test

      Life Is What You Make Of It

      It Can Be A Very Hard Mission

      But To Make The Road A Little Easier

      Hold On To Your Religion.

      I felt I was special at the age of five scoring the winning basket on my Uncle Everett’s team. These games went on for many years. So when this sixth-grade boy challenged me at recess, I was more than ready to accept. For the first time at Royce Elementary, I felt I had an edge over my fellow classmates.

      When the one-on-one game started, I was doing fancy dribbles, trick shots and a lot of smack talking about how I was going to beat my opponent. All of a sudden, I looked up and noticed the crowd. Students of all ages, and even a few teachers, had gathered and were cheering for me as I was taking it to Mr. Sixth Grader. I was excited because people were enjoying watching me play basketball. Heck, I was entertaining the masses.

      After that day on the basketball court, students of all ages and grades started treating me differently. I wasn’t Tony the black kid anymore—I was Tony the basketball player. Students started seeing me as something other than a minority.

      Things Always Happen on Time

      As the school year went on, a few other black students enrolled at Royce. I was excited to see other students of color, but most did not stay very long. Some were suspended for fighting, and others left in discouragement when they found they just could not fit in at a white school. It made me sad when they left.

      I felt really bad for one black student who ended up in a boys’ home because of repeated delinquent activity. This made it clear to me at an early age how important our family’s love, structure, and above all faith in God had been in creating my foundation. My family was very religious, and we felt all things were possible through our faith in the Almighty. My mother always used to tell me, “Things may not happen when you want them to, but through God they always happen on time.”

      My remaining years at Royce Elementary were great. I excelled academically and athletically. My sixth-grade basketball coach, Ms. Tucker, ran an offense called “Give It to Tony.” Wherever I was on the court at that time, I’d get the ball and shoot. Ms. Tucker’s coaching style is probably one of the reasons I became a high scorer through my many years of competitive basketball.

      I would run home after a basketball game and yell, “Mom! Dad! Guess how many points I scored in the game?” My mom would say, “How many?” and I would yell something like, “27 points.” But my parents would only say, “Oh yeah? That’s nice.” I wanted them to say more, but that’s all I would get from them. I really don’t think they believed I had scored that many points. Finally after about five games, my dad came to see me play. During our warmup, as I was pulling up a pair of knee-high, black knit socks, I looked up and was thrilled to see my father entering the gymnasium.

      That game I put on a shooting exhibition, scoring 29 points and 15 rebounds. That game sparked my parents to start attending my sporting events from then on. My parents worked different hours, but one of them was always in attendance when their schedules allowed. That same year, my Royce Elementary basketball team came within one game of the city championship. The school that eliminated us was Burdge Elementary. My old buddies at Burdge beat us by one