the job became clearer to me, I became even more motivated to do well in school, so I could go to college to learn to fly and earn my airline wings.
No crowd to fit into
As I moved into my second year of junior high in the autumn of 1985, Betty joined me on our walk to school and the differing lives lead by the different crowds of students in I.S. 27 started to become increasingly apparent. Our little junior high school was literally halfway between two different socio-economic worlds.
Our school was located just to the south of Forest Avenue, which ran from east to west for most of the width of Staten Island and served as the proverbial train tracks that divided the “good” side of town from the “bad” side. To the north of Forest Avenue were numerous low-income housing projects, including the one my family lived in, along with many of the older neighborhoods on the island with names like West Brighton and Mariner’s Harbor. The south side of the avenue was home to the affluent neighborhoods on the island, with names like Todt Hill and Tottenville. I.S. 27 had a mixed student population, with roughly half of the students from the northern part of the island, with the other half from the southern part. As it turned out, most of the kids from the north side were either black or Hispanic, along with a smattering of white kids from relatively low-income families, while most of the kids from the south side were mainly white, along with a few Asian and East Indian kids. Being in the honors classes meant that most of my classmates were white, Asian, or Indian, with only a smattering of blacks and Hispanics.
I had always had an easy time making friends, and soon after starting at I.S. 27, I developed a crowd of friends consisting mainly of my classmates, with whom I would spend the majority of my time. My three best friends were my classmates Frank, Anthony, and Wilson, all of whom coincidently were from the affluent side of town. While Betty and I usually walked the twenty minutes from the projects to get to school, many of the other students would regularly be dropped off by their parents in their BMWs, Lincolns, and Cadillacs (like my friend Frank).
I would often be invited to Frank’s home, a very big house located near Clove Lakes Park, one of the nicer areas of the island, and I was amazed at how beautiful it was both inside and out. Frank’s dad was a computer engineer, and his mom was a housewife. Her only duty, as far as I could determine, was catering to Frank and his little brother. On one of my first visits to Frank’s house after school to play his new Nintendo entertainment system, I followed as he showed me room after room, each one more beautiful than the last and wondered what it must be like to live in such a house. They had cable television (MTV was all the rage at that time) and more videogames than I could count.
I also often visited Anthony’s house on the weekends to play basketball in his back yard and dreamt of having a yard of my own one day. Mom and Dad were working hard to save up enough money to put a down payment on a house of our own during my years in junior high and high school. For me, the day that we would have a home to call our own could not come fast enough.
While I was very thankful for all I had and for what my parents provided for us, I knew that life in the housing projects was not what I wanted. The elevators, hallways, and stairways frequently smelled of urine, and many people left their trash out in the hall near the trash incinerator instead of making the “effort” to put the trash into the incinerator, which often created quite a stench. I had always stood out from the other kids in the projects because it was obvious to them that I was not from around there. On more than one occasion, I was told that I looked foreign, and although my presence was tolerated, I was never fully accepted as one of them. I was frequently ridiculed for my “big head” and dark complexion. I was also often accused of “acting white” because I was in honors classes, spoke proper English (the Sesame Street kind, the only kind I knew) and because I did not stay out getting into trouble with them. Our parents frequently reminded Betty and me that we were not from there and did not have to follow what the kids around us were doing. They told us to remember that we were Haitian Americans. They often said that we had been given an opportunity to live in this great country, and must do well in school to take advantage of it and make something of ourselves. They reminded us that all the hard work they were doing was so that we could have better lives than they had. Therefore, the fact that I stood apart from the crowd in the projects was partly by design and partly by choice; because I realized at an early age that if you want to go somewhere in life, you need to surround yourself with other people who want to go somewhere. It was obvious to me that many of the kids living around me were going nowhere, and with the exception of a couple of friends with whom I would sometimes play baseball near our building, I generally stayed away from the other project kids.
At the same time, although I got along well with my classmates and did as well or better than most of them in school, I often felt a kind of envy for the lives that my friends like Frank and Anthony had. I too wanted to live on a quiet, tree-lined street in a big house with a manicured lawn and our own yard. All this left me with the feeling that I did not fit into any crowd. I could never see myself hanging out with the kids from the projects, who as they got older, seemed to care less and less about school and more and more about hanging out in the streets. At the same time, even though my friends from school welcomed me into their homes, I didn’t belong to their crowd either, because I didn’t live in their nice neighborhoods. At the end of the day, after Nintendo with Frank or basketball with Anthony, I always had to go back to the projects. All of this made me even more determined to become a pilot. I was intensely motivated from the inside; both by a passion for flying itself, and by the kind of lifestyle flying would afford me. I wanted it more than ever.
Paperboy
Certain events in life leave us so taken aback when they occur, that we scarcely know how to handle them and even thinking about them years later brings back some of the same emotions. One such event happened to me in the summer of 1986. While Mom and Dad took care of all my basic needs, a thirteen year old on summer vacation needs spending money for trips to the movies, the arcade, the pizzeria, and the like. There was a free weekly advertising circular distributed in Staten Island at the time called, appropriately, “The Staten Islander”. It contained coupons, discount offers, and assorted classified ads from people selling everything from cars to sewing machines. I, along with a few other boys from my West Brighton neighborhood, managed to be hired as paperboys with a distributor of this circular. We only worked a couple days each week. We would first go to the office to wrap what seemed like thousands of circulars in rubber bands. After that, we would pile into the back of a van and be driven to different parts of the Island where we would deliver them door to door. The job didn’t pay much, but it was enough to cover my aforementioned leisure activities without having to bug my parents for money, so I was glad to have it.
The first few weeks went well, and after receiving my first bi-monthly paycheck, all the rubber band wrapping and endless walking were well worth it. We arrived at each neighborhood, the driver gave all of us little maps that detailed the streets we had to deliver the papers to, and then we would split up and go on our delivery routes. The bags full of papers were heavy, and the sun beat mercilessly down on me as I walked from house to house, throwing the papers on doorsteps. However, as my parents reminded me after I got home worn out, I was doing honest work and earning every cent I received, which made me feel good about myself.
After finishing our appointed route, the driver would come pick us up at a predetermined pick-up point, which was usually a major intersection. I would sit on the curb, exhausted from lugging those heavy papers around while awaiting the pick-up. We would then be driven to the next area for another round of deliveries, and would repeat the process until all of the circulars had been delivered. I enjoyed the job because not only was I getting paid, but also because I also was able to explore parts of the Island I had never seen. I walked along looking at the nice houses, wondering what the people who lived in those houses were doing. Thinking back, I’m not so sure the child labor authorities would have liked the idea of a bunch of boys piled into the back of a sweltering van with no seatbelts, but we didn’t care... we were getting paid.
On one such hot summer day after I had finished a delivery route and was sitting on the curb at a quiet intersection with my bag of papers waiting to be picked up, I heard something that filled me with