Here.
Until he found the courage to explain his plans.
If the farm fell into a non-productive state in the meantime, so be it. Jen needed this place. And someone holding her in the night when the scary dreams invaded. She needed coddling.
Mothering.
Michael opened the door and looked through the archway. The house was empty. She was gone, the woman. Wearily, he stood. Could he blame her if she ran off with his money, never to return? He’d been rude, blunt and downright miserable.
Walking through the house, he snorted softly. He could well imagine her manipulating those “cud-chewers,” and her about as big around as his thumb. A little scrawny, but…pretty, in an artsy, folksy sort of style. Pretty legs, pretty lips.
On the kitchen table he found his check. Damn. She had run out, but not with his money. Sighing, he tucked the paper in a pocket. In the mudroom, he pulled on a pair of fatigued Apaches. Might as well check the barnyard before he headed back into town.
The screen door squawked when he pushed it open. He stepped onto the stoop and stared straight down at her squatted form a few feet away—cleaning his loafers with a tissue. Near her elbow, the garden hose leaked into the grass.
“Don’t get used to this, Doc,” she said without looking up. “I had nothing to do at the moment.”
Michael came down the steps. Her ridiculously long earrings swayed with each stroke of her fine-fingered hands.
“Great footwear,” she said, checking out his boots. “Next time you’re down around the barns I’d suggest you wear them instead. They’re more suited to what’s left behind.”
He combated a grin. He had to admit she was a delightful little thing. “Behind what?”
“Cows. Horses. Any critter on four legs.”
This time he gruffed a chuckle.
“Oops, that’s not a sense of humor I hear, is it?” She gave him a scamplike look, reached for the hose, and washed her hands. Done, she climbed to her feet.
“Now,” she said, shaking wet hands like a cat with dripping paws. “You asked me to wait. Why?”
Her eyes were blue. A remarkable blue. “I wanted to let you know the employee quarters will be vacant after tomorrow.”
“Where are they?”
He inclined his head toward a tiny whitewashed cabin—once the old homestead place—huddled among the trees.
She examined the dwelling. Something akin to guilt moved through him. The place was cramped, run-down. He hadn’t been inside it since college. Who knew what lurked within its walls?
“Well,” she said after what felt like a full minute. “My moving should make my little brother happy.”
“Oh?” Michael couldn’t hide his interest.
She eyed the cabin with a mixture of sadness and longing. “He’s dying to live on his own. This’ll put him in his glory.”
Her lashes were as long as pine needles. And black…like her eyebrows.
He couldn’t describe the color of her cropped hair; it oscillated between brown and blond. At times, the pale gold streaks in it seemed absurd. He wondered if she was a regular at some beauty salon. Unlikely, considering her surprise at his pay.
“What’s your brother do?” he asked, just to keep her within arm’s reach. That shook him. Women were usually a gamble he avoided.
“He works at Video Stop in town, but he’s attending the University of Washington in the fall.” Proud grin. Eyes lighting. Face like a candle in the dark. “He won’t like having to do his own cooking and cleaning, if you know what I mean.”
He knew exactly what she meant. She might have summed up his own solitary existence. It set his stomach on a low-tide roll. Eating another meal alone tonight, he would remember days he might have sat with Leigh and Bob and Jenni, laughing, joking, sharing conversation—sharing family…God, would the guilt for the should haves never stop?
She regarded him for a moment. “You okay, Doctor?”
“I’m fine.” He dug the check from his shirt pocket. “I think you forgot this.”
“Guess I did.” She smiled sheepishly and looked at the cabin. “If it’s okay with you, I’ll move in on Sunday.”
“I’ll make sure it’s ready.” He’d hire a cleaning woman tomorrow. “Well, then.” He shifted his feet, unwilling to let her go. Unsure why he couldn’t. “That’s it.”
“Great.” She smoothed the check. “I’ll see you in a couple days.”
“It’s secluded out here,” he blurted. “You’ll be alone most of the time. Will that be a problem?”
“My brother is—”
“Yes, I know, but what of others in your family?”
She stiffened. “There’s only my brother.”
“No children? Husband?” None of your concern, Rowan. He saw it in her expression, her posture. She stood as rigid as the trees behind them.
“No.” Her tone cooled. “Does that pose a problem?”
“None. I thought maybe…” Your husband got fired and you were forced to take the first thing that came along.
“I got laid off, Doctor. I didn’t quit or get fired, if that’s what you’re wondering.”
“Not at all,” he said, unnerved she’d nailed his suspicions. “I’m surprised this is the only job available.” Terrific. Not just nosy, but a pompous jerk to boot. A genuine winner, Rowan.
“Good jobs are at an all-time low around town,” she replied. The tautness in her words warned him to back off.
He didn’t. “But this—”
“It pays.” She fluttered the check. “That’s what counts.”
He let it go. Here he was, offering a woman of her apparent intelligence and, okay, looks, the tugboat instead of the cruise ship. Yes, he knew three thousand inhabitants populated Blue Springs—with dairies, fruit growers, farms and a couple of small ranches shaping the community at large. He simply didn’t like the way the odds fell out of her favor.
“Sorry,” he said, uneasy because she made him feel…something when he’d rather keep his heart walled up.
Her Pacific-colored eyes staked him. “I can do the job.”
“I’ve no doubt whatsoever that you can.” He estimated that the top of her head barely skimmed his Adam’s apple. A little dip and his chin could rest on her hair. “I simply want to know,” he said, irked by the sudden heated pool in his nether quarters, “who I’ve got wandering around this establishment. It’s an expensive operation and I wouldn’t want anything adverse happening because of incompetence.”
She snatched up her knapsack. “I’m not a liar.”
“I didn’t say you were.”
“You were implying it.”
The fire deserted him. “Ms. McKay—”
“Shanna.”
“Shanna, then. Please, understand. I’m a surgeon. My hours are bizarre most days. That’s why who I hire for this job must be someone I can trust. Implicitly.”
Her expression gentled. Sunshine silvered the danglers in her ears. “Well, Doctor,” she said softly. “You can trust me. Implicitly.”
She turned and walked to her truck, leaving him to vie with his memories—and worries about his future—once