The Wolf of Gambling. M.Trojan

a gambler. However, every gambler fails in life for as long as he gambles. In the gambling scene as such, losers are not accepted, everything is hummed, all crimes are ignored and it is unthinkable in the scene to admit that you were losing or losing most of the time. This is due to the fact that this culture must not be associated with loss. You would be seen as a loser which is precisely what a gambler never wants to be. For this reason, even gamblers who are friends will lie to each other and like a type of competition, alleged winnings are shouted out loud. You try to be better than the other and that is exactly the life-style which will result in the failure of the gambler. In his own view, he considers himself to be special if he wins high amounts of money. These are amounts he is really losing in order to possibly win them back bit by bit at a much later time. This fact is often seen as being pathetic by non-gamblers and people who do not want to think about it. However it isn’t that at all – it is an illness and therefore it can only be regarded to be pathological. The day you realize that it is an illness which only you and you alone can overcome, you will be starting to get healthier again.

      Sometimes the truth isn’t good enough and you, the gambler, truly deserve more than I can express in words. However, reality can be a cruel companion in life. It can be so cruel that people stoop rather than walk upright on the straight road. You deserve to lead a life without worries; but no matter what you have been told, with gambling in general and a life at the slot-machines you will be pursuing your happiness blindly and at the end of the day you will fail. How deeply rooted the gambling addiction is in everyday life will not be evident the first time you gamble, but rather the last time. Usually it is the case that the decision that you gambled for the last time, is only a short-term announcement; after another day, most of them are gambling again as if they had never even considered giving it up.

      You must not start bargaining or possibly taking withdrawal into consideration. Withdrawal is not a short-term reaction; it is the realization which manifests the withdrawal. Only the realization will achieve what you desire. If you proclaim after 5 or 6 beers that you will stop gambling, then this is a knee-jerk reaction. However, you will only successfully stop gambling if you have come to the realization that the last dollar has dropped.

      The kiss of Judas can be seen every day. We can observe it every day and experience it. We watch TV and there is always someone who tells us what is cool and in, what appears to be healthy or unhealthy. We eat what the TV recommends and we dress the way the media tell us. We hate what the media present to be the enemies of peace. Americans are trimmed to present themselves as the country of boundless possibilities and that does not astonish the rest of the world in any way. But the economy needs this delusion. There is only one thing which fascinates Germany and the rest of the world about America – the love of their own country, patriotism, love of neighbour, and the fact that one for all and all for one is still alive in America.

      Don’t let the media take control of you – racism and prejudice develop through TV. The media want to keep up this image of humanity; the world is supposed to remain racist, we are not to become brothers because who would want to wage a bloody war against his brother. No, conflicts are fuelled, extended and manifested by the media. We become ill in this world. We notice that the world around us is becoming smaller and suddenly we only wish that at least within our own four walls we can experience freedom, peace and harmony. The media only tell us what we want to hear. They do not bring truth or salvation; they deal with illusions and sell us those as being the truth. People start believing that the fictitious representation corresponds to reality and that it appears relevant for our life.

      We watch how Columbo always catches the murderer and how Charlie Harper manages to get women even when he is drunk. However, all of that is the fictitious representation of a world which will never exist in such a way. TV will always show that which will for a short time put an idea of freedom into people’s minds for as long as they want to continue enslaving themselves voluntarily. TV will always have an explanation of why you are not feeling happy. TV will always find or invent a guilty person, just so as to distract from the actual danger. If you are unhappy, you will not find the answer on TV, nor with other people or cultures, but only in your own conception of reality. If you want to know who or what is able to change your life or influence it positively then look at yourself in the mirror. I am quite sure that the media have never suggested this to you even though it seems so obvious.

      I’m quite aware that – as a gambler – you do not want to be confronted with particular dangers. At the end of the day, you will have to do the right thing and face the dangers. The love of a casino employee will not get you away from the slot-machines.

      You will need an iron will and determination. The media will neither make withdrawal possible, nor will they make it accessible for you. And money can definitely not buy everything. Anyone who believes this, is closer to Judas than they may be aware of. You can buy a watch; but you can’t buy time. You can buy medicine; but you can’t buy health.

      Become aware that the addiction to slot-machines is connected to everything. Make sure, you understand that the starting point is not money, but rather your emotions. Addiction is also in a way associated with yearning. That means that through gambling you are hoping for something and in conclusion then you believe that you can fulfil your hopes through high winnings of money. I would like to ask you one last question in this chapter: Why do you believe that you can achieve high winnings by gambling away your money?