Michael Donkor

Hold: An Observer New Face of Fiction 2018


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       Acknowledgements

       About the Author

       About the Publisher

       Twi terms, phrases and expressions

      Aane – Yes

      Aba! – Exclamation of annoyance, disdain or disbelief

      Aboa! – You beast!

      Abrokyrie – Overseas

      Abrokyriefoɔ – Foreigners

      Abusuafoɔ – Extended family

      Adɛn? – Why?

      Adjei! – Exclamation of surprise or shock

      Agoo? – May I come in?

      Akwaaba – Welcome

      Akwada bone! – Naughty child!

      Amee – Please enter

      Ampa – It’s true

      Ewurade – God

      Ɛfɛ paaa – Very nice

      Fri hɔ! – Go away!

      Gyae – Stop

      Gye nyame – Traditional symbol meaning ‘only God’

      Hwɛ – Look

      Hwɛ w’anim! – Look at your face!

      Kwadwo besia – An ‘effeminate’ man

      Maame – Miss/Mistress

      Me ba – I am coming

      Me boa? – I lie?

      Me da ase – I thank you

      Me nua – My sibling

      Me pa wo kyew/me sroe – Please (I beg you)

      Me yare – I am sick

      Nananom – Elders

      Oburoni – White person

      Oburoni wawu – Second-hand clothes (‘the white man is dead’)

      Paaa – Sign of emphasis

      Sa? – Really?

      Wa bo dam! – You are mad!

      Wa te? – Do you hear?

      Wa ye adeɛ – Well done

      Wo se sɛn? – What did you say?

      Wo wein? – Where are you?

      Wo ye … – You are …

      Won sere? – You won’t laugh?

      Yere – Wife

       December 2002

      The coffin was like a neat slice of wedding cake. Looping curls of silver and pink, fussy like best handwriting, wound around the box. It waited by the gashed earth that the men would rest it in. The mourners admired, clucking. Belinda made herself look at it. Her phone vibrated in her handbag but she let it rumble on. She brought her ankles together, fixed her head-tie and straightened her dress so that it was less bunched around her breasts. She passed her hand over her puffy face and then saw that eyeliner had rubbed onto her palm in streaks.

      Belinda’s inspection of her messy hands was interrupted by the shouting of the young pallbearers on the opposite side of the grave. They stripped off and swirled the cloths that had been draped over their torsos moments before, then called for hammers. Three little boys, perhaps six or seven years old, flitted back with tools heavier than their tiny limbs. The children hurried off with handfuls of sweet chin chins, nearly falling into the hole not meant for them and only laughing light squeals at how narrowly they had avoided an accident. Belinda wondered if she had ever laughed like that when she was their age.

      The men started to thud away the casket’s handles, eager for the shiniest decorations, the ones that would fetch the highest prices in the market. She knew it was what always happened at funerals, and that the bashing and breaking was no worse than anything else she had seen in the last few hours – but as the men’s blows against the handles kept on coming, the sound became a hard hiccupping against Belinda’s skull. Her chin jutted forward like it was being pulled and her whole body tightened. Belinda tapped the heel of her court shoe into the red earth, matching her galloping blood. Soon, wrenched free of its metal, the coffin’s surfaces were all marked with deep black gouges.

      Someone tried to move Belinda with a shove. She remained where she stood. The pallbearers strutted and touched their muscles. Some yelped for the crowd to cheer. There were whines from older mourners about sharing, relatives and fairness.

      ‘Sister!’ an excitable man said, pushing a brassy knob towards Belinda. She let it fall from his grasp and roll at her feet. It was not enough.

SPRING

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      Daban, Kumasi – March 2002

      Belinda fidgeted in the dimness. She sat up, drawing her knees and the skimpy bedsheets close to her chest. Outside, the Imam’s rising warble summoned the town’s Muslims to prayer. The dawn began to take on peaches and golds and those colours spread through the blinds, across the whitewashed walls and over the child snuffling at Belinda’s side.

      All those months ago, on the morning that they had started working in Aunty and Uncle’s house, Belinda and Mary had been shown the servants’ quarters and were told that they would have to share a bed. To begin with, Belinda had found it uncomfortable: sleeping so close to a stranger, sleeping so close to someone who was not Mother. But, as with so many other things about the house, Belinda soon adapted to it and even came to like the whistling snore Mary often made. On that bed, each and every night, Mary slept in exactly the same position; with her small body coiled and her thumb stopping her mouth. Now Belinda watched Mary roll herself up even more tightly and chew on something invisible. She thought about shifting the loosened plait that swept across Mary’s forehead.

      Belinda turned from Mary and moved her palms in slow circles over her temples. The headache came from having to think doubly: once for Mary, once for herself; a daily chore more draining than the plumping of Aunty and Uncle’s tasselly cushions, the washing of their smalls,