he wanted to, then she was going to. And it seemed like he did.
He was an amazing kisser. He was hot enough that everyone else was obsessed. He was evidently popular. And she was sixteen already. This needed to happen.
“Do it,” she whispered in his ear when the time seemed right. The second he did, Becca realized she didn’t even know his last name.
That was messed up—even Becca knew that. You should seriously know the full name of the guy you lose your virginity to.
chapter 5 becca
“HEY, BECCA.”
Johnny stopped in front of Becca. He, Cam and Max all had lacrosse bags over their shoulders. Blake smiled at her, her hand in Cam’s. Apparently the last two had taken her advice and had been talking, a lot.
Becca smiled, her eyes slightly narrowed. “Hey,” she said to Cam and Blake. To Max she said, “Mike, was it?”
He had not said anything to her since they’d hooked up. That was weird. And she hadn’t just made out with him. They’d actually done it. He was really going to act like it hadn’t happened?
Max grinned. “Yep, that’s it.”
She looked back to Johnny, wondering if he knew what she and Max had done. “I was just on my way to the courtyard,” she let out.
“Mind if I come with you?” he asked.
No, she didn’t mind. Maybe Max would get jealous and then realize he should really talk to her.
“Sure.” She glanced back to Cam, Blake and Max. “I’m sure I’ll see you all soon.”
Cam said nothing, but smiled and started off with Blake. Max held her gaze a few extra seconds, laughed, and followed them. Something in her plummeted as he did it.
She shook it off, and turned her focus to Johnny. Walking with him to the courtyard felt like walking the red carpet with Brad Pitt for all the stares they were getting. In the tabloids, she’d be a “mystery blonde.”
Not for long.
He held the door open for her. “After you.”
She walked through and sat down on a bench obscured mostly by bushes. “These socks are so ugly,” she remarked, taking a cigarette from the top of one of hers.
“Everyone has to wear them, so it’s not like you’re going to stand out. You’re not going to be the girl with those weird, ugly socks.”
Becca raised her eyebrows. “Well, at least I found a use for them. They’re so freaking bulky you can’t even see my cigarettes—” she reached for her other sock “—or my lighter.”
“You kind of can,” he said, and watched her as she lit it. “I didn’t know you smoked.”
“What, do you not like it or something?”
He made a face. “Not my business.”
True.
“I’d stop if I had to.” She eyed him, and took a drag. “So, why did you want to come out here with me?”
He looked as if this was a subject he’d hoped she wouldn’t broach. “I don’t really know. I kind of … just wanted to talk to you.”
“Oh, really?” She smiled playfully. She was used to this approach. This was much more comfortable for her than what Max was doing. Or wasn’t doing.
People passing by the windows that overlooked the courtyard were noticing them. She blew some smoke out of her lungs and stood in front of him.
“Do you like me, Johnny?”
“I barely know you.” He looked into her eyes. “But I’d like to get to know you.”
“Good. I like you, too.” She focused on the grass beneath her feet. “But I don’t want to get a bad reputation.”
She raised her head, hoping he’d say that Max had told him about what had happened. She envisioned a proud scene in which Max went for high fives and everyone was jealous.
But Johnny just furrowed his brows. “Bad reputation?”
Dammit. “Oh, you know. I don’t want to jump into something with someone too fast.”
“That’s okay, I’m not saying—I just feel like I want to know you. It’s stupid….”
More looks from inside. She smiled winningly at him. “It’s not stupid at all. Let’s go eat lunch.”
They walked down the hallway, Becca telling a story about her old school. He made a joke, and she laughed, laying a hand on his arm. “You are so funny.”
Together they waltzed into the dining hall.
“Let’s sit by ourselves, okay?”
“Sure,” he said.
Becca set her purse down on a table and got a small bowl of soup. As they ate and he talked about whatever it was he was talking about, Becca surreptitiously scanned the hall for Max. Finally she caught him at a crowded table across the room. He wasn’t looking at her. She couldn’t help but glance up every now and then at him. Finally he did look in her direction, then quickly averted his gaze.
It was working, she could tell. He cared if she talked to Johnny. So she didn’t look up again, but directed her attention to Johnny only.
“So how long have you and Max been friends?”
He ignored the change in subject and took a bite of his sandwich. “Since we were kids. We both grew up in D.C.”
“Cool. How come he doesn’t date?”
He looked at her with a small smile. “You like Max, don’t you? See, here I thought you weren’t like every other girl here.”
She laughed, trying to look as though this were preposterous. “I do not! I’m just curious. He’s not even that good-looking, I don’t get the appeal. So many girls like him, and he never dates.” She took a sip of her water. “It’s just weird.”
“Girls are always throwing themselves at him. He doesn’t need to date.” Johnny shrugged. “I guess he’s never gone for the desperate type.”
“Well, who does?”
“True.”
“So,” she said, “tell me something about you.”
Whatever he said, she didn’t listen. She was just trying to look like she thought every word he said was fascinating.
A couple days later, as Becca left her last class of the day, she saw Max going into the gym. She hurried upstairs to put on her “workout clothes” and then walked in, too. She stepped onto a treadmill a few down from his, her headphones on, and acted like she didn’t see Max.
She had to run for fifteen minutes before he came up next to her.
He was in a gray T-shirt, soaked with hard-earned sweat in all of the right places. She lowered the speed and took out her pink headphones.
“Hey,” she said, with a small smile.
He smiled back. “So, you’re hanging out with Johnny now?”
“What do you mean ‘hanging out with’?”
He shrugged. “You tell me.”
“I’m getting to know him, but I’m not hanging out with anyone.”
“Right.”
Not being able to take it anymore, she turned off the treadmill.
“I’m going to get in the sauna. You want to come?”