models with door handles like bank vaults. Nickelbaum had thinning hair and wire-mesh stubble, his disheveled features only adding to the intimidating effect he had on people. An effect he had discovered as a teenager and enjoyed right up to the day of his last crime. When he broke into the Queens home of one of his garage’s customers, she didn’t stand a chance.
Twenty-four-year-old graphic designer Mary Ash was only five foot one and weighed a mere hundred and ten pounds. Nickelbaum was a mountain in shadow that didn’t belong in the topography of her apartment, his huge palm covering her face and whipping her head into the wall with such force that the plaster broke.
The girl’s roommate Sita was away for a holiday week visiting relatives in Birmingham, England—a fact police were sure saved her life. Nickelbaum kept Mary Ash prisoner for seventy-two hours, during which time he raped her repeatedly and amputated two of her fingers with an electric turkey carver. It was Fourth of July weekend when Nickelbaum was at his most depraved, and no one heard Mary’s scream as the electrician’s tape, wet from her feverish terrified sweat and worn from her mouth straining to cry out, at last peeled away. Please, Mary Ash cried out. Please, and then please again, please until she died.
Nickelbaum didn’t mind at all filling in the details for police when they caught him. He had fantasized about causing Mary Ash pain, and the two police officers were sickened by the fact that under the cheap Formica table holding the Styrofoam coffee cups he had an erection as he described his victim’s last moments. There had been brief controversy when Nickelbaum was selected to participate in a college study (for which his family members would be paid), answering questionnaires from psychologists on what made him tick. The study had been canceled after an embarrassing article in the Times. Then Emmett Nickelbaum turned up as a candidate for a far more unusual research project that didn’t hit the papers and the TV news. Not then. And he would participate whether he liked it or not.
His execution was not formally announced, so there were no placards for or against his demise outside Sullivan Correction Facility in Fallsburg.
The booths. The booths taught Emmett Nickelbaum fear.
For the first time in his life, he understood that his fingers weren’t tweezers designed to pincer shrieking, tiny, helpless things begging for their lives. Beads of sweat polished his bare forehead under the receding hairline, and his mouth opened wide. His limbs were flailing in the shackles, because there were two booths ahead of him, and that suggested something would be done to him that would make him into something else.
“What is this?” he asked. “What the fuck is this?” Again, his bass voice climbed octaves with his terror: “What’s going on? You don’t need that thing for a lethal injection, man! I just lie on a table, and they gimme a fuckin’ needle! Where’s the needle—where’s the fuckin…? What is this?”
Nobody offered him an answer. No one cared particularly about Emmett Nickelbaum’s comfort, certainly not whether he left this world at peace with his personal god or sobbing for his mother. His shackles were locked to the rail inside the booth on the left. A note was made that a minor sedative should make the prisoner more controllable during the final transfer, but the use of shackles wouldn’t affect the procedure at all. Emmett Nickelbaum would not reappear like a magician’s bunny in the second booth on the right.
Some of the witnesses felt an abstract relief that no pain was supposed to be experienced in the final few seconds of life (but no one asked to be sure for the sake of the monster forced into the chamber). As Emmett Nickelbaum stared wide-eyed through the blue tinted window of the booth—a dull anti-climactic chamber with a thick index of specially tinted glass—he did, indeed, feel dread.
Faces with spectacles studied him with an impersonal, clinical detachment—the same kind of detachment Nickelbaum gave Mary Ash as he tortured her, as he watched her face run a gamut of expressions of agony. Then a brilliant white light filled the booth, faintly tinged with a bluish hue. No one could mistake it for a beam from Heaven.
Instead, the light seemed to carve his body, split it open to show a darkness with pinpoints inside. There were whorls, nebulae; yet even this dazzling view was perverted with flashes of gangrenous skin, flesh made necrotic by whatever technical or divine force scooped him from the inside out. And the smell… The smell was horrible, as if rot had been amplified and sped up on a dial and then served up as a dish from a cold meat locker.
But they were told—
They were told it wasn’t supposed to be a painful procedure.
No one said a word, watching from thirty feet away. It was agreed later that the inmate had screamed because of primitive terror, fear of death—not actual physical trauma. There was nothing, of course, to substantiate this assertion. The scientists simply wanted to believe it.
They also thought they would find something. Remains. Granules. Something. They didn’t.
It would be a good day when Emmett Nickelbaum left the Earth, but that wasn’t the only reason.
The light effect started in the second booth as they were busy examining the first. No one had typed on a keyboard, flicked a switch, turned a knob—done anything at all. No one had adjusted or touched the equipment or even considered it. They had been told to expect “a secondary effect” (whatever that meant), and that the booth on the right-hand side existed to contain this… whatever it was.
The whorls and flashes and peculiar reflections, the fading in and out of skin pigments, went on and on for the fascinated audience, and there was a different odor this time, defying description. Not a stench, thank God. Not a waft of destruction. Nobody dared to interrupt the process, even though none of them had no idea how long it would go on. And when it finished at last, they had company.
The researchers stepped forward even as the nude, pitiful figure backed up against the wall of the booth. A woman. Her head turned with feral, desperate sharpness, the eyes as frightened as those of Nickelbaum, but with the haunted blankness of a wandering refugee. Unwashed brown hair hung in her eyes, and when the girl’s hand lifted to touch the glass—
“Sweet Jesus, it’s her!” yelled one of the researchers. “It’s her, it’s her! It’s really her!”
The hand had two small stumps caked with blood. Two missing fingers.
Mary Ash was back among the living.
Doctors rushed forward now, the room filling with rapid conversation addressed to no one specific. Orders and suggestions were all fired at once but only a precious few had the good sense to take action. Get her a gown. Get her a chair. For Christ’s sake, doctor, shouldn’t we get her to the prison infirmary? Noise from almost everyone except the returning victim herself.
Nickelbaum’s execution had involved an experimental method, so it had been thought prudent not to invite members of the Ash family as witnesses. That meant her parents, her older brother who lived in Seattle—all the members of the Ash family—were absent for Mary’s return from the dead. Her eyes darted from face to face of these strangers in front of her as she whimpered in shock. Her hands were up in a fetal prayer with her arms close to her body, too afraid even for the modesty of the gown.
“Bbbbaaabbaaa… Bbbaaa!”
She could manage nothing else for the next fifteen hours. The prison doctor gave her a sedative that put her to sleep, during which time the researchers and physicians and experts all decided Mary Ash should be transported back to New York City. She would be monitored and kept in protective custody, while her parents would be contacted and trusted to help Mary recover.
No one even knew who should make the announcement or how to announce what had happened. How do you announce a miracle anyway?
Three days before:
There was the usual ripple of chatter at the beginning. It was the moment when a lecture hall is no different than a movie house. But as the man at the front took his place near the podium, the students settled down.
The professor would have provoked interest