What Happens to Men When They Move to Manhattan?. Jill Knapp

was crying, hard. Harder than I had ever cried before. I expected him to listen to me, to consider my words and realize he was being foolish and impulsive. I expected him to grab me and say I was right, that he made a mistake and to forget he had even brought any of this nonsense up, but all he said was, “Yes.”

      I let out a whimper. As angry as I was, I couldn’t express it. My anger felt caged and controlled, by my overwhelming confusion and sadness.

      “We belong together, we can fix this. We can fix anything,” I uttered with the last drop of fight in me.

      But I knew it was useless, that it was over.

      “No, Amalia. We can’t.”

      Still sitting on the floor, I watched as he walked over to the front door and held it open for me to leave. I peeled myself off the floor and grabbed the box of my belongings. Without any hope of changing his mind, I looked him in the eyes and said, “I love you, and I will never get over this.”

      With no emotion or remorse, he looked at the front door and then glanced back at me.

      “That’s too bad.”

       Chapter 8

       Liz

      “Amalia?” someone whispered sweetly. “Wake up, please.”

      I opened my eyes and found Olivia standing over my bed, holding a mug of what appeared to be coffee in one hand, and a stack of papers in the other.

      “Please go away,” I mumbled through sobs, pulling the plush covers back over my face.

      The cheap, worn-out mattress was the only comfort I had felt in days, and I certainly wasn’t going to give it up.

      “You have to get up,” she said, “You haven’t left this apartment in five days and I’m really worried about you.”

      Besides Olivia’s daily check-ins and running into Christina in the kitchen, I hadn’t had contact with anyone in almost a week. Christina had continued to buzz Olivia up, most likely relieved she didn’t have to deal with my melancholy herself. Every grueling moment spent awake was occupied by an influx of thoughts about Nicholas. I had been crying from the minute I woke up, until the minute I went to sleep every day since he left. I had finally found it easier to just stay asleep than deal with the all-consuming pain.

      “Listen,” Olivia said, tenderly. “I brought you all of the work you missed during the past few lectures. I also put some hot tea on your nightstand; it’s my mother’s recipe and it always makes me feel better.

      “Thank you,” I said, still crying.

      Olivia let out a soft sigh. “I have to meet Alex, we are going to study for the exam on Monday. You should really come with us, you’ve missed a lot of work.”

      “No,” was the only word I could muster up.

      “Alright,” Olivia said as she rubbed my head through the blanket. “If you need anything at all, call me.”

      The next thing I knew, it was Monday. I had spent an entire week crying in bed, I felt pathetic and more than a little nauseous. I pushed the comforter off my face, revealing a well-earned pillow crease, and rubbed my stinging eyes.

      Through a blur, I looked over at the clock, 9a.m. I couldn’t stay in bed today; today I had a midterm. A midterm covering every minute detail of material we had covered in class starting from the first day. A midterm that I had not spent one minute studying for. Not taking a shower for three days really makes you appreciate one, even with my apartment’s insufficient water pressure. I walked out of the bathroom and almost collided with not Christina but Liz, my other roommate. Liz and Christina “shared” the master bedroom together, but Christina essentially had the entire room to herself, because since we all moved in at the end of August, Liz had spent exactly three nights sleeping here. She spent most of her time in Queens with her much older boyfriend Tim, who was an aspiring musician. Or maybe he was a painter.