both wisely and frugally, with an eye to their futures, while Merideth had squandered hers selfishly and foolishly.
They’d chosen the men in their lives with the same wisdom, the same care as they’d chosen their investments, men with integrity, men who loved and lived with a passion as wide as the Texas sky. Mandy had Jesse. Sam, Nash. But who did Merideth have?
No one...at least not now.
She’d chosen the men in her life in much the same way she’d spent her inheritance—foolishly, basing her selections on image, on power, not on the person within. Her last and biggest mistake had been Marcus. Her producer, her lover, the father of her child. A man with wealth and connections, a powerful and handsome man. A man without a conscience or scruples, a man without a heart or soul.
Angry with herself for even thinking of him, she shoved the thought away and focused again on her most pressing problem.
Money. Or the lack thereof.
She needed a job. But where? What? She didn’t want to go back to New York. She couldn’t. But she had no other skills to offer. What else could an actress do but act?
A sigh shuddered through her and she rolled to her stomach, blocking out the depressing thoughts. How could she contemplate the future when she hadn’t successfully dealt with the past, when at the moment, even the present seemed too much for her to deal with?
John Lee Carter reined his horse to a stop high on the cliff above the spring-fed pond, looked down...and almost fell out of his saddle. Expecting to find stray calves, instead he found a woman—a gorgeous, naked woman—stretched out, sunbathing, on one of the smooth limestone boulders that concealed the natural spring feeding the small pond. Blond hair haloed a stunning face with features so perfect they seemed unreal, as if shaped by a sculptor’s clever hand.
Perspiration pearled on her skin and pooled in the valley between her breasts, drawing his gaze there. He let his eyes drift along the graceful lines of her body, taking in the swell of breasts, the smooth stomach, the deep curve of waist. She lay with one knee raised, shadowing a nest of blond curls at the juncture of her thighs. An arm draped carelessly across her forehead shaded her eyes further from the bright sunlight.
Merideth McCloud.
Even at this distance, John Lee recognized her. He’d heard she was back in town. He’d also heard the reason why she was there. He shook his head, bracing his hands against his saddle horn, his gaze lingering on the woman below. Seemed even the rich and famous couldn’t escape the tragedies in life. As a man who’d served his own time in the limelight, John Lee knew that all too well.
Talk was that she’d suffered a nervous breakdown after losing a baby. But John Lee knew better than that. Oh, he didn’t doubt she’d lost a baby, but he did question the part about her having a nervous breakdown. Not Merideth McCloud. She was way too strong for that.
Always ripe with the juiciest news, the local grapevine had it that Merideth had come home alone to bury her baby. Though the lack of a husband shocked some, it didn’t faze John Lee. This was the nineties, after all, and more and more women were opting for single motherhood.
As he watched her, he thought he saw a shudder pass through her. Then she turned, shifting onto her stomach, blocking his view of her face. But her backside was almost as interesting as her front. Dimples winked at him from above a nicely rounded butt.
John Lee chuckled as he turned his horse for the well-worn path.
Merideth always was a flirt.
“Don’t you know that it’s a crime to sunbathe nude in Austin?”
Startled by the male voice, Merideth jerked up her head. Though a cowboy hat shaded the face of the man sitting on the tall bay standing opposite her, she recognized him immediately. That cocksure grin. Those broad shoulders, thick thighs. Sun-bleached, sandy-blond hair that brushed his collar. Eyes as blue as a summer Texas sky, that always seemed to tease. Features carved into a breathtakingly handsome face.
John Lee Carter.
His grin deepened. “They’ve even outlawed skinny-dipping at Hippie Hollow on Lake Travis. A crying shame, too, if you ask me. Personally, I’ve always thought of the human body as kinda like art, something meant to be appreciated.”
Another time, Merideth might have agreed with him, even flirted with him and invited him to join her on the warm rock.
But not today.
Today she felt nothing but resentment that he’d invaded her privacy and disrupted her solitude, something she so rarely found on the Double-Cross.
Planting her elbows on the rock, she tipped her sunglasses to the end of her nose. From the devilish gleam in his eye, she could tell that he was enjoying the fact that he had caught her at a disadvantage—him being fully dressed, and she wearing nothing but her birthday suit. She narrowed an eye at him. “Well, it’s good to know that some things never change,” she offered dryly. “John Lee Carter is still seeking cheap thrills.”
He tossed back his head and laughed. “And you’re still as sassy as you always were.”
He continued to grin at her, and Merideth knew that he was just being ornery. He’d love nothing better than to watch her squirm in embarrassment at being caught sunbathing nude, but Merideth refused to give him the pleasure. She met his gaze squarely, evenly. “Are you going to sit there all day gawking, or are you going to turn your back so that I can get dressed?”
He squinted up at the sun as if pondering the question, then dropped his gaze to hers, a slow smile crooking one corner of his mouth. “I don’t know, the view’s pretty good from up here. But, then again, I wouldn’t want you to burn. How much sunscreen are you wearing?”
The look Merideth shot him was glacial. “Not enough.” She stabbed a finger at the bridge of her sunglasses, shooting them back into place on her nose, then grabbed for the towel beneath her. Quickly, she sat up, wrapping it around her...but not before John Lee caught one last glimpse of those luscious breasts.
He let out a low whistle that turned Merideth’s frown into a scowl. With a huff, she tucked one comer of the towel between her breasts to hold it in place, then tipped her face up to his. “What are you doing here, anyway? This is private property, you know.”
“Just picking up a few strays that wandered onto Double-Cross land.” He plucked a toothpick from his hatband and stuck it between his teeth, then lazily rolled it to one corner of his mouth. “What are you doing here? You decide to give up acting and take up ranching?”
She quickly glanced away. “Maybe,” she replied, fixing her gaze on something in the distance.
John Lee blinked hard to make sure it was Merideth he was talking to. Maybe? His comment had been meant as a joke, one he figured would get a rise out of Merideth. Hell, she hated the Double-Cross, always had, and had hightailed it for New York right after her old man died. He was sure her stay on the Double-Cross was a temporary one, that once she’d fully recovered from the accident he’d heard she was involved in, she’d haul ass right back to the Big Apple and her career there as an actress.
“You’re giving up acting?”
“Maybe. I haven’t decided yet.”
Maybe, again. What in the hell is going on with her? he wondered as he stared at her profile. Though her chin was tipped in that I’m-the-queen-of-the-manor look she wore so well, he sensed more than saw the quiver in it.
She’s still grieving, he realized, then wanted to kick himself for his own insensitivity. “I was sorry to hear about your baby,” he offered gently.
She dropped her chin to her chest and with trembling fingers began to pluck at the towel that draped her thigh. Her murmured “Thank you” was so low it was almost lost on the soft breeze that carried it to John Lee.
She looked so pitiful sitting there that