would have blinked, but she seemed to have forgotten how to do that, and her body wasn’t responding to any commands save the ratcheting up of her heartbeat and breathing. “Are you going to kiss me now, Jack?” she asked him because, obviously, all her usual good common sense had taken French leave so that all she was left with was a curiosity that she was powerless to deny.
Jack smiled. “Would you like that, Eleanor? Would you like me to kiss you?”
“As purely an experiment, you mean?” Would she just shut up and say yes? What was wrong with her? The man wanted to kiss her, for goodness sakes.
“An experiment in precisely what, Eleanor?”
“I…well, I was thinking about what you said that first night we were standing here. Precisely here, as a matter of fact, although why you are always in my bedchamber rather than calling me down to the drawing room I’ve yet to fully fathom. You said that you couldn’t have me flinching, drawing back, when you showed the most mundane of husbandly attentions. I’ve begun to realize that you may be right, especially as we’ll have guests right here, at your own—our own—dinner table.”
As she spoke, Jack watched that expressive little face. “You know what it is? You’ve never been kissed, have you, Eleanor Becket? One and twenty and living isolated at Becket Hall—you’ve never been kissed.”
“I don’t see where that has to enter into the—please let me go.”
Jack lifted his hands, that had been only lightly resting on her shoulders. “I haven’t actually been holding you, Eleanor.”
“Oh.”
“But I could be,” he suggested, replacing his hands, this time curling his fingers around her upper arms. “It’s not often a man has the opportunity to taste a woman’s first kiss. I’d be honored. As an experiment.”
“Now you’re making fun of me.” Eleanor was mortified. But she wasn’t moving. She’d noticed that, that she wasn’t moving away from him.
Jack was suddenly ashamed of himself. She was probably right. At least partially right. He slid his hands down her arms and took hold of her left hand, leading her over to the chairs flanking the fireplace. “We should talk.”
Eleanor was more than happy to sit down, as her knees were shaking. She watched as Jack took up the facing chair on the other side of a low table, lounging in the chair with an ease she couldn’t muster for herself as she sat perched on the edge of her own seat. She must look like a hopeful applicant wishing for employment; back ramrod straight, feet close together, hands folded in her lap. And, if not the applicant, then the prissy old maid about to ask to see any letters of recommendation.
But if she sat back in the large chair her feet would no longer touch the floor, and that would be just too embarrassing. Did people really think she liked sitting in the small, straight-backed chairs she always gravitated to, for pity’s sake? Tall people, and everyone in her world seemed to be tall, didn’t have to consider such things the way people who barely topped five feet in height did.
She remained silent as Jack sort of slouched sideways in his seat, his elbow on one arm of the chair, his chin in his hand. Looking at her.
She waited for him to speak, fill the silence.
And waited.
Inside Jack’s head, he was counting: …twelve…thirteen…fourteen…I’m not going to do it…fifteen…sixteen…come on, sweetheart, your turn…seventeen…
“You…um, you mentioned that you have visited Becket Hall a few times. After your first stay while you were recovering from…well, you know that part. But I doubt you paid much attention to the general running of the household. After all, men don’t, do they? So perhaps I should explain more about how we…how we go on.” She stopped, sighed as she realized what had just happened, how he had tricked her into filling the silence. “You really are the most annoying man.”
“Yes, so I’ve heard. But you’re both right and wrong, Eleanor. I have been to Becket Hall, and I’m not so dense or unobservant that I haven’t noticed that it’s a rather unique establishment. That you’re a rather unique family.”
“I find us to be quite natural, but that’s probably because I really can’t remember anything else.”
“I thought you said you’d arrived at Becket Hall at the age of six. That’s when Ainsley…found you?” Jack didn’t know if there was another term for what Ainsley had done. Found? Adopted? Accumulated? A man with eight children, seven of them not of his own blood, could be said to have accumulated them, couldn’t he?
Eleanor was silent for a moment. “I said that? Yes, I suppose I did, in passing. You have a very good memory, Jack.”
“And more questions than I’d imagined,” he answered truthfully. “Beginning, I suppose with one—how much are you willing to tell me?”
Eleanor looked at him from beneath her lashes. “There really isn’t much to tell. Papa and the rest, including the crews of both his ships, decided to move themselves to England after Cassandra’s mother died. Papa had no heart to remain on the island home he’d made for everyone, you understand, and it seemed that most everyone felt as he did, that it was time to come home.”
“Home? I’ve met many of the people who live in Becket Village and work at Becket Hall, Eleanor. Not half of them are English.”
Eleanor lifted her chin slightly, proud of Ainsley Becket. “Anywhere my father is becomes home to those loyal to him.”
“I stand corrected. If everyone else at Becket Hall is as loyal as you, Eleanor, I imagine they’d follow Ainsley into hell if that’s where he was headed.”
No, they’d all already been there, their hell had been where they’d died on that island, then come to England with the hope of living again, Eleanor thought, lowering her gaze. “I believe I told you that I never saw the island. I remember none of it, but I’ve been told there was a storm at sea as they were making their way here to England, and the ship I was traveling on capsized. Fortunately, that ship was within sight of Papa’s ships. Jacko himself saved me. Jacko, and then Chance.”
Jack frowned. “And that’s it? That’s what happened? Your ship went down but you were saved? Only you?”
“Only me,” Eleanor said, keeping her gaze steady on Jack as he believed her lies…most particularly the lie of timing. “Eleanor is the name Papa chose for me, as I was ill for a long time and, as I said, remember nothing, not even my given name. In truth, I don’t even know how old I am. Odette decided I was six.”
She was lying to him. Lying through those straight white teeth. Jack knew it. The gaps in her story were huge, as if an elephant had just been tossed into the middle of the room. But Jack knew if he pressed for details, made mention of that great, hulking elephant, if he pushed Eleanor, he’d lose any trust he may have gained.
Still, he felt he’d be expected to ask some questions. “Was it an English ship? Do you at least believe you’re English?”
“Yes, I’m English.”
Jack was learning more about Eleanor. For one thing, he was learning that she answered parts of questions, not the whole of them. She was English, that she acknowledged. She did not say that the ship she’d been sailing on had been an English ship.
“Did Ainsley ever try to find your family here?”
Eleanor looked at him, head-on as it were, when she answered. “There were attempts, yes. But time passed, and I was content. I had a new family, and since I didn’t remember anything of my life before the shipwreck I didn’t wish to leave that family. And…and I’m very content at Becket Hall.”
Jack looked at her closely. More lies. But what sort of lies? And for what reason? “So content, in fact, that you volunteered to come to London.”
“I haven’t