things, but she’d been raised with them, and the sense of deprivation had been more acute than she’d planned on.
She smoothed at least half the tiny bottle of lotion over herself, both because it felt so good and because, once she was finished, she had to face putting on something wrinkled and musty from her backpack. She was sick to death of wrinkled and musty.
From years of experience with luxurious accommodations, she knew that in the room’s closet a thick terry robe would be hanging ready for just this moment. Technically it was there for the use of the person who’d rented the room. That person would be Nat.
She pictured herself coming out to talk to him in the wrinkled and baggy jumper and turtleneck she had stuffed in her backpack. Then she pictured herself having the same conversation wearing that thick white robe. The discussion would be difficult enough without looking bad while she had it.
Wrapping a towel around her, she went to the door and opened it a crack. “Nat?”
“Yes?” Instantly footsteps hurried in her direction. “Are you feeling okay? Should I call a doctor?”
“I’m feeling better than I have in ages,” she said. “But I have a big favor to ask. Would you mind if I put on the hotel bathrobe that’s hanging in the closet? My clothes are…well, they don’t look very…the thing is, I—”
“Here.” A wad of white terry poked through the crack in the door. “Enjoy.”
“Thanks.” She opened the door enough to pull the robe through. Oh, yes. Egyptian cotton. It felt like heaven as she pulled it on and belted it around her waist. In the steamy mirror she fluffed her still-damp hair. For the first time in months, she looked and felt like herself.
And now she had to face Nat.
She fluffed her hair again. Then she ran a quick comb through it. She wasn’t happy with the last cut, which she’d got done at a beauty school to save money. It took an exceptional stylist to deal with her thick, naturally curly hair. This one had left it too bulky around her shoulders. She tried to tame it with her fingers, but it was no use.
Maybe a little lipstick.
While she’d been on the run, she’d pared down her cosmetics needs to lipstick, mascara and blush. She had the tube of lipstick halfway to her mouth when she stopped to stare at herself in the mirror. What was she doing? Trying to come on to him?
She rolled the lipstick back down, capped it and tucked it into her backpack. She’d take him the herbal supplements she’d brought, though. Fishing them out, she started toward the door. On the way she happened to look down at her feet.
Now, there was a sorry sight. She paused to consider her unpainted toes, clipped with a toenail clipper. Not buffed, not filed, not pampered. Her last pedicure had been before she’d had Elizabeth. Nat had always loved her feet.
Stop it, she lectured herself. He probably didn’t love any part of her anymore. What she looked like didn’t matter. Elizabeth was the only person who mattered in this whole mess.
“Jess?” Nat rapped on the door. “Are you sure you’re okay in there?”
“I’m okay.”
“Then what’s taking so long?”
“I was, um, thinking.”
“Well, could you do that out here? We need to talk.”
“Yes, we do. We most certainly do.” Drawing in a bracing lungful of air, she opened the bathroom door. She found herself staring at his shirtfront. He stood right outside the door, crowding her, invading her space. She would have to walk around him to move any farther into the room.
His masculine scent surrounded her, making her quicken in all sorts of strategic places. She gathered her courage and looked up into his eyes. Her heart stuttered at the fire burning there. “Nat?”
“What’s that?” He glanced down at the two bottles of supplements.
“Herbal stuff for you.”
His gaze lifted. “Why?”
“Because…” Because I love you and worry about you. She didn’t dare say it.
He made an impatient noise deep in his throat. “Jess, I have to ask you something.”
“Okay.” Her heart hammered.
His words were as intense as his gaze. “Is there anyone else?”
Joy rushed through her. Hallelujah. He still wanted her. “No. No one else.”
With a gusty sigh he took the vitamin bottles and tossed them on the floor. Then he pulled her into his arms. “Excuse the beard,” he murmured. Then his lips crushed hers.
Overjoyed as she was to know that he still cared, she was distracted at first by the beard. Kissing him was like smooching a stuffed animal. But then…then he coaxed her mouth open. She forgot all about the beard as she rediscovered why kissing Nat had been one of her all-time thrills. He could pack more sensuality into a kiss than other men could manage in an hour of whole-body sex.
A few moments of kissing Nat beat a day at the spa for making her tingle all over. One kiss from him and she was so awake, from the tips of her curling toes to the tiny hairs at the nape of her neck. His fingers stroked there, and she turned to melted butter in his arms.
Boiling butter might be more like it. She wriggled against him, trying to get closer.
He shifted the angle of his mouth and tugged at the bathrobe’s sash while he muttered something that sounded like have to.
Oh, so did she. Had to. She started on the buttons of his shirt. But wait. She hadn’t planned on this.
“Need you so,” he breathed, backing her toward the bed as he continued to kiss her senseless.
“Wait,” she said, gasping.
“Can’t.” He pushed open the terry cloth and closed his hand over her breast with a groan.
“Nat—” She tried to tell him she wasn’t on the Pill. He kept coming, thrusting his tongue in her mouth, making her crazy with wanting him. The back of her knees hit the edge of the bed. She fell against the quilted spread and he came right with her.
Panting, she tried again. “I’m not—”
His mouth silenced her once more.
Oh, God. How many times had she fantasized about his weight pressing her into the mattress, his hand between her thighs, his mouth at her breast? Both of them going wild. If this was a dream, she’d kill whoever or whatever woke her up.
Even his beard was wonderful, brushing her skin like the pelt of some exotic animal. She’d never realized kissing a bearded man could be so erotic. She pulled him closer, arched into his caress, moaned his name.
“God, I need you,” he groaned.
“I need you, too.” But one unplanned baby was enough. She forced herself to choke out the words. “But I’m not on the Pill anymore. We can’t—”
“Yes, we can.” He nuzzled his way back to her mouth.
At first she thought he meant that he wouldn’t care if she got pregnant. “We can?”
“Yes.” He covered her face with a million kisses. “We can. I want to be inside you, Jess.”
Could he really be telling her that he’d changed his mind about children? Her heart expanded with the possibility. “Why can we?” she asked breathlessly.
“I had room service bring up condoms. Don’t worry.” He kissed her cheeks, her eyelids, her nose. “I won’t get you pregnant.”
She went still. “Would that be so terrible?”
He paused and lifted his head to gaze into her eyes. Although it seemed to take some effort, he gained