Aldivan Teixeira Torres

I Am


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      After the first anniversary, little by little, the little girl conquered her space and being conscientious of her existence. It is at the time, the phase of the why begins and the parents must bend back to satisfy her or at least calm her down. The world was not like an exact subject but an infinity of unknowns that not even the adults understood well. Therefore, there was no answer for everything.

       From this stage to eight years of age, the most difficult was the indefinite parting with a school friend, who had moved to Sao Paulo. Rafaela passed days and nights mourning and became so sad that they had to consult a doctor. Her salvation came from her paternal grandfather, Gracinha, who was very good in explaining the situation. There were several sessions until she would partially recover. She managed to restart her life, but the scars remained. We could say that fact has caused her first depression crisis and the illness remained well manifested. Just as well that it wasn’t the end.”

      The first flash ended. The seer takes the hand away from his friend, stays pensive as if analysing the situation and only some time later he speaks.

      — I understand you Rafaela. You let your pains take control of you, and at times you feel lost, confused and desperate. However, I guarantee you that it is not the end. We must give ourselves to the infinite power of the father and go ahead. As the old saying goes, “There isn’t a single hair that falls without his consent”.

      — Who are you? I never had anyone talking to me so profoundly. (Rafaela)

      — He is the son of God, Rafa. In him the father finds his pleasure. (Renato)

      — Aldivan is one of the few beings in the universe to emit pure light. Not even the angels compare to him. (Rafael)

      — I am his special protector. I was specially created together with him. (Uriel)

      — I am the one who people rejected and humiliated centuries ago. I am also the light of the sun, the cool breeze of the morning, the most profound wish of the dreamer. This one talking to you is known as “I am”, he who frees, heals, guide those who wish to know the father. (The seer)

      — Caramba! I am lost for words! At a certain point, I was in contrition and pain before the Almighty at the cathedral of deliverance. Then I met you and now I am here at the village of Ipojuca with a man who knows my life, my future and who calls himself the son of God, with an intelligent and wise young man and two beings that seem to be from another world. Could it be a dream, a delirium or as last hypothesis a fantastic reality that is hard to believe? (Rafaela)

      — Then touch me and confirm what your faith does not allow— Said the seer stretching his hands.

      Rafaela Ferreira hesitates. Should she do it? Well, it was the only option to take away the doubt that corroded her heart. It was then that armed with the rest of her remaining courage advanced three steps and with her delicate and fine hands touched the son of God’s arm. As retribution for the gesture of kindness, he pinched her what made her shout with pain. Yes! She was completely sure now that he was real and the way he has spoken could lead her to paths she didn’t know yet.

      

      At the end of touch, they separate and then the seer speaks:

      — Let’s go back to the village urban area. The time presses.

      The group agrees in total and they then depart from where they were (the beginning of the woods) and go back by the same way. At the time there was complete communion of feelings among them. May what come, they would face it together in search for the greater objective. The world awaited them.

      In twenty frenetic minutes, facing the heat, the stones, the lacerating thorns, the inner solitude and the unforeseeable they arrive at the village. In a quick get together, they decided to look for a restaurant or snack bar for they were thirsty and hungry. Looking here and there and asking the locals they find a simple snack bar named enchantment bar.

      The establishment comprises a single area, counter and shelves, and area were tables and chairs were laid out. Besides ready to eat food, they sell drinks, food stuff and domestic utensils. At the week end, it offers barbecue and regional dish by order.

      As it was not yet lunch time, they find empty tables and chairs, sit down and choose some of the dishes available on the menu on the table. They choose manioc with dry meat, something cheap, good taste and regional.

      They order and while they wait they chat.

      — Where are you from? (Rafaela Ferreira)

      — I'm from Arcoverde. I am a chap who believes in work, in people and mainly in the benign forces that accompany me. (The son of God)

      — I am from the mountain of Ororubá, in Mimoso region. There, I and my adoptive mother— the guardian of the sacred mountain— live with dignity, kindness and in complete communion with nature. (Renato)

      — I am one of the seven archangels who are always in God’s presence, However, I have got a special mission here on earth together with you and I hope to match the expectations of the creative force. (Rafael)

      — I am also an angel with the sole objective to take care of my master and lord, the son of God. I thank the father for it. (Uriel)

      — I was born and raised in Arcoverde. Despite being strangers, something tells me to trust you. Thank you very much for taking an interest in me. (Rafaela Ferreira)

      — Be at ease, friend. We are here to help you. (The seer)

      — Thank you. (Rafaela)

      — And what do you do in life, Rafaela? (Renato)

      — Now, I am only studying. But, I must admit that now I don’t feel like doing anything. (Rafaela)

      — Must be the illness. (Renato)

      

      — What illness? I am only depressed. (Rafaela)

      — This, that you have got is called depression. If is not treated properly, may lead the person to madness or even to suicide. (Rafael)

      — It was exactly what I was thinking about when you appeared: Jump off at the first bridge. I don’t want to suffer anymore. (Rafaela)

      — God would not allow it, nor I for we love you, Rafaela. The solution to your problems is in my father and in my name. Do you believe it? (The seer)

      — Oh, very well! Make a miracle so I can believe it! (Rafaela)

      — If it was allowed, I would do it, Rafaela, for the love of you. But think well: Just being here is it not a miracle? How long haven’t you talked honestly to a circle of friends? (The son of God)

      — Seen from that angle, you are right. (Rafaela)

      — The time for great miracles has already passed. We are at the apostasy era, where the materialism and selfishness of the human being is preponderant. Be happy for the opportunity that you are having now. (Uriel)

      — Ok. Pardon my lack of manners and the temptation. (Rafaela)

      — Do not worry. I am ready to understand you. (The seer)

      The food arrives. From then on, silence prevails only broken by the locals who start arriving. The group spends about thirty minutes in total harmony, enjoying the lunch and at the end, ask for something to drink. After, they ask they ask for bill, leave the place and phone again the driver who has bought them there. They wait twenty minutes more, and with the arrival of the taxi, they depart destined to the beloved Arcoverde. Destiny awaits them.

      During the short trip between Ipojuca and Arcoverde, nothing abnormal happens. They kept themselves busy most of the time with interactions and visualizations. Didn’t even seem that each one lived a private drama: The seer, who had not established himself as the artist that he deserved to be, Rafael