Relaxation. Andrzej Stanislaw Budzinski

we hide them and pretend nothing happened.

      Unfortunately, so many of us choose the second or third possibility. Try to imagine: an unresolved problem, a second, a third and so on.

      What are you thinking?

      What is happening inside you?

      We are allowing the “vampires” to grow in us. Still further, we are offering them food to eat and allowing them to consume our very precious energy, which allows us to live. But in this case, our energy is lacking, because we have inside us many, very hungry parasites. They eat and grow, instead we are ever weaker.

      Excuse me, do you like vampires?

      Aren’t you afraid of them?

      I personally don’t like them!

      For this reason, I have decided to sort out my memory!

      As I have written before, it is not enough to re-order your mind once - it should be a constant effort, every day at the end of the day. It is not enough to forget or hide our past, pretending that everything is OK.

      It’s not OK!

      The things not sorted out, sooner or later return.

      We can make this effort during our relaxation, when we learn the technique. Take a walk in the archive of your memories, starting from today, from the present, and little by little return back to the start of your life, and still deeper, until you meet God our Creator.

      The aim?

      To put our lives in order!

      To confront the past to heal it.

      Let’s make ourselves comfortable. The show is starting, a “film” I would say very interesting, very intimate and personal, where we, at the same moment, are protagonists and spectators.

      What does that mean?

      That we are fully and emotionally involved!

      Every scene can arouse in us different emotions and feelings: of joy, peace, security, sadness, pain, fear, shame, hate, vendetta, love - it depends on what the scenes represent for us. The painful scenes arouse in us negative emotions and the pleasant scenes arouse in us positive emotions.

      Certainly!

      You’re right.

      We can run away, but flight does not resolve our problems, because the “demons” of the past will follow us. They will not leave us in peace, we cannot run away from them because they are inside us, in our memories. They go where I go. I cannot run away from myself. I want peace, I must confront them without fear. In reality, they cannot do us any harm. The harm has already been done. Inside us, the pain really exists, but it is not only a bad memory, it is a real wound that “bleeds” and does not stop doing it until it is healed.

      Remember!

      We are here for this!

      To be healed!

      What does being healed mean?

      Forgetting? Being cleaned of the painful moments and leaving the pleasant ones? Eliminating them? Doing a “reset”?

      If only!

      No! We cannot do that!

      Because we cannot change our past. What we have done, or what others have done to us, it is done and that’s it! It can be that we remember it up until the end of our days.

      However! However! However!

      Without pain and without negative emotions!

      Make peace again with our past!

      Looking it in the face without fear!

      Do you hear?

      What a relief!

      What joy!

      What peace!

      WE ARE WELL HEALED!

      I am sure that it will happen just like that and we can already enjoy our triumph. Do you remember?

      Let’s look at the end!

      Let’s enjoy the elation of the prize!

      Let’s enjoy the elation of winning!

      The glorious end gives us the strength to follow the road to healing and convalescence. It doesn’t matter to us the time and difficulties we have to confront.

      You’re right! You’re right.

      Enough chattering!

      We must act!

      Good, good - I like your interest!

      You know! A good sign!

      The third step to heal the past!

      As I have already written, we are the protagonists and spectators of the “films of our lives”, fully involved, that is: emotionally. All that has passed before our eyes arouses emotions in us. This is inevitable – it’s right that way - we must be aware that feeling like that in front of the scenes of our lives is a most normal thing. Don’t worry, be calm!

      Well then, what shall we do?

      I would say, it is better to defuse the tension. Remember that this is a journey in healing, that means that we will feel better – ever better. During relaxation, we look at our life. Certainly, at the start we will have a bit of chaos. The scenes will pass disorderly; don’t worry, stay calm, without getting agitated. Let them pass as they will and try to stay outside as much as possible. Remember that what you see is water under the bridge - ugly or beautiful. We cannot change it, so we must accept it as it is.