Jacques Jouet

My Beautiful Bus


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lying below it, a pile of trash, foodmechanical waste, debris, and printed material, which no longer signify by themselves, a sort of illiterate provocation aimed at overly abstract or arbitrary prohibitions.

      For my part, if I’ve announced anything on the cover of my book that won’t actually appear in these pages, it can only be my name—and not just my name, but also the possessive pronoun modifying the bus . . . as if I hadn’t recalled Pascal:

       Certain authors, speaking of their works, say, “My book,” “My commentary,” “My history,” etc.” They resemble middle-class people who have a house of their own, and always have “My house” on their tongue. They would do better to say: “Our book,” “Our commentary,” “Our history,” etc., because there is in them usually more of other people’s than their own. 1

      I supplied the label “novel” reluctantly. Even though writers have only recently been expected to give their books these labels, I’m naïve enough to be proud of my denial of this new practice. The reason is simple: I’m searching for a new form for narrative. In it, fiction will be the object of a conquest, a campaign in which the reader will be enlisted, though first he’ll be asked to endure a few pages of training, explanations of story and strategy.

      Who wouldn’t enjoy slipping into the imaginative tale? One moment you aren’t there yet (just as when, not so long ago, you’d have to wait through newsreels and cartoons at the movie theater), and the next you’re right in the middle of it. Are you there yet?—Well, if I’m not, then please put me there. And if I’m in too deep, please come and join me, to share the experience or pull me out.

      We aren’t looking for fiction, but rather the search for fiction. When fiction is too commandeering, it becomes nothing but mere brutality. Continuous fiction is boring. The chase is better than the catch.

       They do not know that it is the chase, and not the quarry, which they seek. 2

      At this point, the story will follow some paths that may appear whimsical on the surface. It will follow changes in the landscape and the seasons. A closer look will reveal that the narrative is, in fact, rigorously following logical paths that it is unaware of, or that the current page is hiding.

      What do the Republic’s road-maintenance crews dream of while hunched over their tools? They dream of dreams. And what other things do the ticket inspectors and the mechanics dream of? And what about the bus drivers? Bus drivers—and their passengers—dream of buses, or of anything else that their vehicles’ attributes allow. And if they always dream of a more beautiful bus, then at least one example in particular must be the starting point, and more precisely the closest one—their own. Or maybe they dream about who owns the rows of crops they see through its windows.

      The driver of this beautiful bus is sleeping in a nearby hotel room. The Levant hotel has only six rooms, each one of them modest. On the wallpaper, a team of white horses repeats itself. There’s a light bulb on the ceiling, in a glass globe, and a little neon light on the bedside table. The man takes up one half of a double bed. The right half remains empty, reserved for an absent companion. He sleeps in pajamas, with one arm covering his face, his nose wedged in the fold of his arm. He swallows continuously, as if he were dry-mouthed, thirsting for a drink.

      An electronic alarm clock on the bedside table goes off at six o’clock, as it had been set to do. A few seconds later, in turn, the nearby church strikes six long notes. Why doesn’t the town hall sound its bell?

      The driver uses Basile as his only name, and is twenty-five years into his career. He doesn’t live in Châtillon, but in a town eighty kilometers away, somewhere along the national highway. Every time he drives by his own quaint little house, he honks as a sort of hello to his wife, their daughter, the cat, and his garden gnomes.

      Basile has slept in Châtillon on his company’s dime, as he does each time he gets in late and needs to leave again at dawn.

      A trip home would add too many kilometers and drastically diminish the day’s profits to a break-even outcome. When work is scarce, you do what you need to do.

      During these nights, Basile continues to drive in his sleep. In the morning, upon waking, he intently makes his way to the bathroom. He keeps his eyes closed for as long as possible. Basile washes himself from head to toe. He opens his eyes. He shaves and brushes his teeth. Once showered, he rediscovers his face in the mirror. He rediscovers his name, and then his wife’s: Odile. He slips into his overalls. He folds the alarm clock into his pajamas and packs everything in a travel bag.

      Between the hotel and the garage, hardly 200 meters by foot, Basile doesn’t see the least bit of Châtillon, not a soul among its thousand or so inhabitants. He doesn’t notice its 900-meter elevation, its ruins of a Templar stronghold, or the second-rate RV campground . . . He’s thinking through the things he has to take care of before the departure, his routine.

      Basile pampers the beautiful bus before departing. It rained yesterday and the lane-expansion project on the highway made for a muddy trip. There hadn’t been any triangular road signs carrying the inscription MUD, which would have been spelled out of course, since a graphic depicting mud doesn’t exist.

      My beautiful bus is two-and-a-half years old. It’s a hardy vehicle that Basile himself has tamed. It’s a VH 300 with a standard wheelbase, forty-nine non-adjustable seats plus the driver’s (the nine folding seats were taken out), a six-cylinder engine, a passenger door, a lateral exit, and luggage compartments on each side. It’s equipped with hydraulic power steering.

      My beautiful bus is lavender blue with white stripes. Its sunshades are the same faded blue. On winter mornings its exhaust is sometimes blue.

      Relatively speaking, the bus driver is older than his vehicle. He’s only eight years away from retirement, and his increasingly frequent medical checkups yield healthy results: they’ve been checking his heart, reflexes, sight, and hearing.

      The tires—the air pressure and wear—and the brakes are checked regularly . . . Basile takes to his job with the required sense of responsibility. He doesn’t abandon his role as a link between citizens. He doesn’t talk about things he doesn’t know about.

      A driver who doesn’t reach beyond his pedals!

      When I first started dealing with Basile and the beautiful bus, I was discouraged because I wasn’t sure what to make them dream about, as if I hadn’t consulted Perrault: no matter how it looks, we shouldn’t move from the story toward morals, nor should we sneak from morals toward the story, rather, we should progress from openly self-conscious reflection toward the invented story, with provocation as its only end: a story is unique, it generally has nothing to show, nothing to represent, other than what could potentially be real.

      The word, the world . . .

      When you speak of the wolf, you see its tail . . . In this case, language affirms its power to pull the hood off something, and affirms its skill in uncovering what convention has inadvertently stashed