Jean Valentine

Door in the Mountain


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saints, more rollicking sunbeams, more birds about your heads!

      Catherine, more Catherine-wheels!

      Sic transit gloria mundi, The quick flax, the swollen globe of water. Sic transit John's coronation, mortal in celluloid. Underground roots and wires burn under us. John outlives the Journal's 4-color outsize portrait Suitable for Framing, flapping, no color, No love, in the rain on the side of the paper-shed. Into Thy hands, O Lord, I commit my soul. All Venice is sinking.

      Let us dance on the head of a pin

      And praise principalities!

      Life is a joke and all things show it! Let us praise the night sounds in Connecticut, The Czechoslovak's parakeet, Whistling Idiot, Idiot!

      The moon's disk singes a bucketing cloud

      Lit by the sun lit by a burning sword

      Pointing us out of the Garden.

      Turn your back on the dark reflecting glass

      Fogged up with the breath of old words:

      You will not be forgiven if you ignore

      The pillar of slow insistent snow

      Framing the angel at the door,

      Who will not speak and will not go,

      Numbering our hairs, our bright blue feathers.

       Sasha and the Poet

      Sasha: I dreamed you and he

      Sat under a tree being interviewed

      By some invisible personage. You were saying

      'They sound strange because they were lonely,

      The seventeenth century,

      That's why the poets sound strange today:

      In the hope of some strange answer.'

      Then you sang ‘hey nonny, nonny, no' and cried, And asked him to finish. ‘Quoth the potato-bug,' He said, and stood up slowly. ‘By Shakespeare.' And walked away.

       The Second Dream

      We all heard the alarm. The planes were out

      And coming, from a friendly country. You, I thought,

      Would know what to do. But you said,

      ‘There is nothing to do. Last time

      The bodies were like charred trees.'

      We had so many minutes. The leaves

      Over the street left the light silver as dimes.

      The children hung around in slow motion, loud,

      Liquid as butterflies, with nothing to do.

       A Bride's Hours

      I. DAWN

      I try to hold your face in my mind's million eyes

      But nothing hangs together. My spirit lies

      Around my will like an extra skin

      I cannot fill or shake.

      My eyes in Bachrach's rectangle look in.

      I, who was once at the core of the world,

      Whose childish outline held like a written word,

      Am frozen in blur: my body, waiting, pours

      Over its centaur dreams, and drowns, and wakes

      To terror of man and horse.

      2. THE BATH

      My sisters walk around touching things, or loll

      On the bed with last month's New Yorkers. My skin, Beaded with bath-oil, gleams like a hot-house fake: My body holds me like an empty bowl. It is three, it is four, it is time to come in From thinking about the cake to eat the cake. My sisters' voices whir like cardboard birds On sticks: married, they flutter and wheel to find In this misted looking-glass their own lost words, In the exhaled smoke.

      There isn't a sound,

      Even the shadows compose like waiting wings.

      I am the hollow circle closed by the ring.

      3. NIGHT

      I am thrown open like a child's damp hand

      In sleep. You turn your back in sleep, unmanned.

      How can I be so light, at the core of things?

      My way was long and crooked to your hand!

      What could your jeweled glove command

      But flight of my stone wings?

      Our honeymoon lake, ignoring the lit-up land,

      Shows blank Orion where to dip his hand.

       Afterbirth

      I loiter in the eye of the Slough,

      Every joint aching for sleep;

      The sky, inhumanly deep,

      Sarcastically casts back the Slough.

      Did my child take breath to cry

      At the slick hand that hooked her out,

      Or cry to breathe? or did she lie

      Still in her private dark, curled taut

      Under her sleep's hobgoblin shout?

      Anesthesia blew me out:

      I gardened shadows in my lost crib

      While they took her from me like a rib.

      Swaddled and barred, she curls in sleep

      At the dry edge of mortality.

      If the sky's side proves too steep

      Who will take up the little old lady,

      Who will call her by her name

      When she's a crumble of bones?

      What logos lights the filament of time,

      Carbon arc fusing birth-stone to head-stone?

      The mud pulls harder: the stepping stones

      Shake in front of my swimming eyes.

      There dear, there dear, here's a pill:

      Sleep, sleep, all will be well:

      Lull-lullaby.

       Sarah's Christening Day

      Our Lord, today is Sarah's christening day.

      I wouldn't build the child a house of straw,

      Teach her to wait and welcome the holy face

      With candles of prayer, or pray, if the wager were all.

      But I have never seen or loved the holy face.

      I don't believe the half of what I pray.

      This world is straw: straw mother, father, friend,

      Per omnia saecula saeculorum, amen. But Lord! it shines, it shines, like light, today.

       Tired of London

      When you came to town,

      Warm bubbling rains came, the teething leaves,

      Steaming spring earth, and the tough, small-footed birds;

      Reckless colors sifted the closed, dense sky

      As we went hand in hand through our larky maze

      In