on the edge of the action, you hear the players breathing heavily. You feel the wind brush your face as they speed by. However, as close as you are to the game, you’re not in the game, and you’re not a part of the team. Unless you put on a jersey and step onto the court, you are a spectator experiencing the game secondhand.
Muted Experience
Experiences become muted when you’re mentally distracted or emotionally drained. You can say your senses feel fuzzy or foggy. Muted experiences are your muddled interpretation of life through the lens of your busy mind.
For example, you don’t notice the sky is blue, because you’re consumed with worry about your son’s test; you walk past a bunch of roses but their aroma doesn’t register, because you’re too busy remembering when your ex-husband gave you roses on your anniversary; or you eat an apple but totally miss its crisp tartness, because you’re thinking about tomorrow’s doctor’s appointment.
Most people walk through life having one muted experience after another simply because they’re too busy thinking. When you are consumed with overthinking and overdoing, life becomes a string of muted experiences, and over time you grow dull to your five senses. Over time, you grow dull to your natural capacity to directly experience life fully.
Direct Experience
There are moments in life when your experience is direct and vivid. What you see is sharper and clearer, what you touch is more real, tastes are more vibrant, smells are stronger, and sounds are more distinct. These are your direct sensory experiences.
Direct, or firsthand, experiences are moments of deep connection, when you’re vividly aware of your sensations, states, and feelings. You experience life beyond the filter of your busy mind in a space where you feel awake and alert. Experience life through the crystal-clear lens of your own direct experience, and your world becomes bright, your senses light up, and you feel fully alive. When you directly experience the moment, you are on the verge.
When you directly experience the moment, you are on the verge.
A direct experience is not something you learn from a book or a teacher. It’s your own encounter with reality — with life as it is happening at this very moment. A direct experience is yours and no one else’s.
Firsthand, direct experiences happen in present time; they’re your full sensory experience of whatever’s happening right now. For example, you smell the ocean, you feel cold, or you see the blue sky. Your direct experiences offer you a real-time encounter with life in this exact moment and in high definition.
Direct experiences come in many packages and arrive at the most ordinary moments, like the smell of dinner cooking or the feel of sand between your toes. They can also take your breath away, like hearing your baby say “Mama” for the first time or watching the sun set over the ocean.
You can have a direct experience in any moment. They are happening 24/7. As long as you’re breathing, you can tune in to your direct experience of life as it’s happening right now.
The only thing holding you back from showing up and directly experiencing your life right now is your busy mind. You’re likely conditioned to do instead of feel, and think instead of be. Pausing to notice what your five senses are saying may happen more rarely than you’d like to admit. Don’t worry, you’re not alone. Experiencing life through the muted and sometimes distorted lens of the busy mind is one of our current human dilemmas, one on which I hope to shed some light for you.
The good news is that when you settle down and get out of your own way, your attention drops down below your head and into your body. You’ll arrive in a space where you become vividly aware of your senses and exactly what you’re seeing, tasting, touching, hearing, and smelling. Connecting with your body through physical sensation is essential to experiencing life fully. Your body always experiences life directly and vividly.
This bears repeating. Your body always experiences life directly and vividly. It cannot do otherwise. You can’t smell or see something secondhand. Your body is always present; the feeling of grass under your feet cannot be muted or dulled. Only your busy mind can mute or dull your experience.
Your body always experiences life directly and vividly.
Since most of us are more identified with what’s happening in our minds than in our bodies, we experience most of our lives through the filter of thoughts and emotions. Although your mind is often busy and distracted, your body is always present. In order to directly experience life more often, you’ll need to shift beyond your busy mind and connect with your body more often. I fully trust you have the potential to do so, and not just once, but all the time.
Pause right now and check in with what’s happening. Notice the sensations in your body. What are you feeling, tasting, touching, hearing, and seeing? Take a moment to pause and shift from doing to feeling, from thinking to being. Notice your senses. Show up and engage with life directly, and you’ll experience what I call high-definition, high-voltage living.
Primer Practices
On the next page is your first Primer Practice. You’ll discover many throughout this book. Each only takes a few minutes to do. These easy-to-do Primer Practices will “prime the pump” — they will prep your mind by settling your thoughts and calming your nervous system. As you steady your mind, you shift beyond it into a clear space where you become aware of your body and directly experience your physical sensations.
The Primer Practices are essential to living on the verge. So when you come upon one of them, do yourself a favor and give it a try. I know how easy it is to skip over stuff. The only way you’ll truly benefit from what I’m sharing is to roll up your sleeves and get curious about how you’re experiencing life. Reading this book may inspire you here and there, but ultimately my words will not help you feel any more awake or any more alive. The Primer Practices are opportunities to do so. Don’t just breeze by them.
All of the Primer Practices are available in audio form on the Verge Mobile App, easily downloaded through my website: www.carabradley.net.
Let’s do this.
This simple exercise couldn’t be easier. It’s a great way to quickly notice where you are and what you’re doing. Practicing this throughout the day can help you become familiar with which experiences of yours are direct, secondhand, or muted. Read the full instructions before starting.
1. Set your timer for two minutes. Close your eyes.
2. Actively pay attention to your breathing, by counting five full breaths. It helps to think, “Inhale, exhale one. Inhale, exhale two, ” and so on. Listening to the sound of your breath will almost immediately relax you and begin to settle your busy mind.
3. After five breaths, open your eyes and sit quietly.
4. Try not to put words to your experience. Look around and actively notice your surroundings. What do you see, smell, hear, taste, or touch? If you hear a bird chirp, just note that. Do you smell coffee? Note that too. If your mind is very busy thinking, that’s okay too. Whatever you notice is perfect. There are actually no correct answers when you practice — you just practice! Pausing to notice the moment and what you’re experiencing is the first step to connecting with your body and waking up to your direct experience more often.
Throughout the day, practice actively paying attention. Stop, take five, experience. You can do it in the chaos of your commute, in a moment in between meetings, or while waiting for the school bus to arrive. It is easier to pause when you minimize distractions, but it’s not essential. The following situations can help you tune in to your body and notice your direct experience: