Julie Hanson

The Audible and the Evident


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But now,

      at next day noon,

      a bump’s developed

      at the center of the cap.

      And the surface has

      more experience

      —with oxygen, I guess.

      It’s flecking brown.

      If we are reminded of

      our own hands

      and our own arms,

      we might detect

      decline in this.

      And notice, too,

      the veil has dropped.

      The cap is drying from

      the edges in.

      Furthermore,

      one side has tipped,

      giving us a glimpse

      of gills without our close

      approach or

      stooping much,

      visceral

      without our touch.

       Qu’est-ce qu’il y a?

      Each morning my eye goes straight to the high bare branches of the ash

      where a plastic Hy-Vee bag tugs and puffs

      but has no choice.

      Well I won’t see that in France,

      I say to myself, but the consolation is as temporary

      as the trip will have been

      once I’m standing here again,

      staring at that bag

      and thinking, Now that’s the kind of thing I never saw in France.

      It looks so orphaned and waif-like

      against the shiny gray bark of the ash and the muted gray of the sky,

      so white, so insubstantial, so wanting,

      and, even with its one red word,

      so caught there in the tree.

      I’m certain it can hang on to the branch that has pierced it

      for another six weeks.

      There may be another bag in the maple by then,

      recently freed from a thatch of wet leaves

      or come tumbling

      lightly from the garbage truck

      that will have taken on that day no offering from us.

      On the day we come back, it will still be

      bare as scattered bones out there,

      not yet the middle of March.

      the ground will be hard. The grass will be tan.

      This is so like me,

      imagining,

      not the cottage roofs of flat stones

      pictured in the Green Guide to the Dordogne,

      the massive ramparts for the great gone door of Domme,

      but the day after—these littered horizons, and winter

      still trying to get out of the yard.

      On the day we come back

      the ground will be hard. The grass will be tan.

      But there will come a day much deeper into spring,

      a day shady and humid

      in the unfurled foliage of June,

      when I realize I haven’t thought about that bag in weeks

      because I can’t see it at all,

      I can’t see its branch.

      The massive ramparts for the great gone door of Domme

      will have lost a lot of bulk by then,

      resembling more and more the sketch

      on page twenty-one

      in the Green Guide to the Dordogne.

       They Are Widening the Road

      The pipes have been revealed, enormous,

      that lurked all along underground.

      The clay-colored dirt is piled. Barriers

      are fortified by barrels, hurdles, stakes.

      Here’s the backhoe making three-point

      turns, the traffic at a halt. The heat.

      The sun that bakes the dust. The sun

      through glass that magnifies the heat.

      Too near to every business here, and house,

      a mile of road has moved from plan

      to controversy to regret. Several

      of the orange cones, disturbed,

      have tumbled into rolling hazards.

      Here is the church, the hardware store,

      the auto supply, the bank, the gallery,

      the pharmacy, the school. Here is the other

      auto supply. Here is the world

      with its six billion people, with its

      how many random cancellations

      of the single will, hopeful, defeated,

      locked once to another—rhythm, scent

      and curvature—in the ancient act

      of increase, not thought of in these terms,

      but felt: a direction that was sure.

      Detained, detoured, deferred.

      The personal is different than the whole.

      We are directed into other lanes.

      Does anybody out there feel

      that the issue of fairness has been given,

      all too often, a disproportionate attention?

      It takes but gentle mention and the matter’s

      tabled yet again. With us

      or without us, an agenda slips along

      like mercury through tubes of glass.

      The line is longer and the great big sound

      from close behind is right inside our car.

      There is no moving up in line

      and the pavement of the lane ahead is ripped.

       Pilot car

       Follow me

       Buttons

      The sons of friends have learned to fold and snap paper

      into abruptly-coming noise at my head. Oh, let them

      in their red-faced rowdiness have a bit of fun at my expense,

      I said to myself, what have I done so worthy of respect?

      I’ve worked soil through a sieve, let it cover seeds I couldn’t see.

      I’ve taken pleasure in rolling up loaves of once-risen dough.

      Yesterday