Beyond the Veil. C. N. Dudek

when the true God arrives, only then do the half-gods remain. Without God who is divine love (agape), the half-gods become devils or vanish. And it is us, you and me, we are God’s greatest achievement in creation—human beings made in His image and likeness—male and female. God’s divine love is what moves us to love others.”1

      “’Batter my heart three-personed God. To break, blow, burn, and make me new.’ So it is the King who transforms the heart from inwardness to becoming like Him, in loving others as Christ loves,” Nicholas said.

      “It is as Paul said marriage ought to be. It is the image of Christ and His church. Loving one another as He loves us—a broken, marred, wounded person. It is not one plus one equals two. It is one times one equals one with the mystery of individuality nonetheless. To love brings suffering, not because it is punishment, but because it cries out ‘something is wrong here.’ Christ makes us aware of our own shortcomings, our sin, and we can only fall at His feet and be restored—admitting our fallenness. Yet, like the King that He is, He welcomes His subjects back, ‘rise and sin no more,’” continued Clerk.

      “How do I love her again—there is nothing left to give or to receive. My selfishness has engulfed myself—my whole being. I have worn her down with insults as the rain erodes a hardened stone over decades. Until it cracks and is split in two,” Nicholas said.

      “You have confessed and must be restored. You are being restored as you journey on toward the city. You have been washed in water—leaving your dross behind as an oil slick. You are made clean, but there is fire and blood yet. As Elijah built the altar of twelve stones and the meat and blood were consumed in the fire on the mountain of Carmel, so your sin, pain, giving insult was burnt on the altar; you are being refined in this land—as small slivers fall from you: hatred, covetousness, self-pity, insult, slander, lust, sloth, acedia, fear, hatred, idolatry. These fall from you as you near the city. But your completion will not occur until fire and blood renew you in the room set aside for you.”

      “What do you mean by all of this?” Nicholas said.

      “I will lead you to the city and to this room. You will understand when we arrive,” Clerk said. “For now let us enjoy what is around us and what we will come upon in only moments.”