A Real Goon's Bible. Derrick MD Johnson

little because he never brought anything home from the streets and that included conversations about his street dealings.

      Heading to the door, Say No turned to She She and said, “I’ll see you tonight.”

      “Hell naw! I know you are not about to walk out this house without a hug and a kiss! I just slaved my ass off in this hot ass kitchen and you come pick over my food, and then just walk out? You better come correct baby.” Knowing she wasn’t about to hear anything he had to say, he walked over and gave her a kiss and held her as if it was his last time.

      Out of respect, Sheila always tried not to show weakness in front of her husband, the last thing he needs before going to the streets is something negative in his mind about home, so immediately after he walked out the door tears formed in her eyes and her stomach cringed. It was almost like she had a sixth sense for her family’s safety; she had a terrible feeling deep inside that something just wasn’t right. Looking over at Jewell made the tears that were already forming finally fall down her face. Not wanting to upset her baby she quickly wiped them away before he looked up at her smiling. Seeing his father’s face in his temporarily soothed her pain. He was the spitting image of his dad.

      “Well I guess dinner wasn’t a complete waste, at least one of my men got to enjoy it. Looks like you’ve eaten enough for all of us,” she playfully said to her son. “I’ll get you a bowl of ice cream for being such a good boy.” She She loved catering to her family and as she got up to fix his bowl she reached over to her blackberry and texted “We love you Daddy” to Say No’s blackberry and sent a picture of his favorite lips puckered in a kiss along with it.

      Putting down her phone she knew all she could do now was play her position but wished to herself that he would tell her more about his doings. She also knew that he always has their family’s best interest in mind and decided to shake it off and hold down their home until his return. Seeing that Jewell was finishing the last scoop of ice cream she started to clean up dinner to distract her thoughts. Afterwards she poured herself a much bigger glass of Merlot than normal and carried the glass, along with the bottle, upstairs with Jewell following close behind.

      Needing time to herself she herded her son into his room and plugged in his favorite movie, Toy Story, to keep him occupied. Heading into her bedroom, like usual, she saw articles of Say No’s clothing scattered around the room and instinctively started to pick them up; without thinking she deeply inhaled, smelling his shirt as she walked toward their closet. In a daze from the smell of her man she almost didn’t notice that the safe Say No had installed in the back of the closet was wide open. The tears that she thought she was able to distract earlier instantly formed back in her saddened eyes as panic paralyzed her body when she realized her suspicions were confirmed - something wasn’t right at all. Never had she seen the inside of that safe and knowing Say No was a very methodical man he would have never accidentally left it open. She dropped the clothes to the floor and slammed her Merlot down in one gulp. Not being able to get herself to look inside the safe, a safe she had for years speculated what the contents held, she poured herself another glass as she silently cried to herself in the privacy of their bedroom.