conversation broke suddenly into the middle of things.
'Lucy, I want to ask you to release me from my engagement to you,' he said.
Her heart gave a great leap against her breast, and she began to tremble. He went on.
'I'm ashamed to have to say it; I find that I don't love you enough to marry you.'
She looked at him silently, and her eyes filled with tears. The brutality with which he spoke was so unnatural that it betrayed the mercifulness of his intention.
'If you think that, there is nothing more to be said,' she answered.
He gave her a look of such bitterness that she felt it impossible to continue a pretence which deceived neither of them.
'I'm unworthy of your love,' she cried. 'I've made you desperately wretched.'
'It doesn't matter about me,' he said. 'But there's no reason for you to be wretched, too.'
'I'm willing to do whatever you wish, Bobbie.'
'I can't marry you simply because you're sorry for me. I thought I could, but--it's asking too much of you. We had better say no more about it.'
'I'm very sorry,' she whispered.
'You see, you're still in love with Alec MacKenzie.'
He said it, vainly longing for a denial; but he knew in his heart that no denial would come.
'I always shall be, notwithstanding everything. I can't help myself.'
'No, it's fate.'
She sprang to her feet with vehement passion.
'Oh, Bobbie, don't you think there's some chance that everything may be explained?'
He hesitated for a moment. It was very difficult to answer.
'It's only fair to tell you that now things have calmed down, there are a great many people who don't believe Macinnery's story. It appears that the man's a thorough blackguard, whom MacKenzie loaded with benefits.'
'Do _you_ still believe that Alec caused George's death?'
'Yes.'
Lucy leaned back in her chair, resting her face on her hand. She seemed to reflect deeply.
'And you?' said Bobbie.
She gave him a long, earnest look. The colour came to her cheeks.
'No,' she said firmly.
'Why not?' he asked.
'I have no reason except that I love him.'
'What are you going to do?'
'I don't know.'
Bobbie got up, kissed her gently, and went out. She did not see him again, and in a day or two she heard that he had gone away.
* * *
Lucy made up her mind that she must see Alec before he went, but a secret bashfulness prevented her from writing to him. She was afraid that he would refuse, and she could not force herself upon him if she knew definitely that he did not want to see her. But with all her heart she wanted to ask his pardon. It would not be so hard to continue with the dreary burden which was her life if she knew that he had a little pity for her. He could not fail to forgive her when he saw how broken she was.
But the days followed one another, and the date which Julia, radiant with her own happiness, had given her as that of his departure, was approaching.
Julia, too, was exercised in mind. After her conversation with Alec she could not ask him to see Lucy, for she knew what his answer would be. No arguments, would move him. He did not want to give either Lucy or himself the pain which he foresaw an interview would cause, and his wounds were too newly-healed for him to run any risks. Julia resolved to take the matter into her own hands. Alec was starting next day, and he had promised to look in towards the evening to bid them good-bye. Julia wrote a note to Lucy, asking her to come also.
When she told Dick, he was aghast.
'But it's a monstrous thing to do,' he cried. 'You can't entrap the man in that way.'
'I know it's monstrous,' she answered. 'But that's the only advantage of being an American in England, that one can do monstrous things. You look upon us as first cousins to the red Indians, and you expect anything from us. In America I have to mind my p's and q's. I mayn't smoke in public, I shouldn't dream of lunching in a restaurant alone with a man, and I'm the most conventional person in the most conventional society in the world; but here, because the English are under the delusion that New York society is free and easy, and that American women have no restraint, I can kick over the traces, and no one will think it even odd.'
'But, my dear, it's a mere matter of common decency.'
'There are times when common decency is out of place,' she replied.
'Alec will never forgive you.'
'I don't care. I think he ought to see Lucy, and since he'd refuse if I asked him, I'm not going to give him the chance.'
'What will you do if he just bows and walks off?'
'I have his assurance that he'll behave like a civilised man,' she answered.
'I wash my hands of it,' said Dick. 'I think it's perfectly indefensible.'
'I never said it wasn't,' she agreed. 'But you see, I'm only a poor, weak woman, and I'm not supposed to have any sense of honour or propriety. You must let me take what advantage I can of the disabilities of the weaker sex.'
Dick smiled and shrugged his shoulders.
'Your blood be upon your own head,' he answered.
'If I perish, I perish.'
And so it came about that when Alec had been ten minutes in Julia's cosy sitting-room, Lucy was announced. Julia went up to her, greeting her effusively to cover the awkwardness of the moment. Alec grew very pale, but made no sign that he was disconcerted. Only Dick was troubled. He was obviously at a loss for words, and it was plain to see that he was out of temper.
'I'm so glad you were able to come,' said Julia, in order to show Alec that she had been expecting Lucy.
Lucy gave him a rapid glance, and the colour flew to her cheeks. He was standing up and came forward with outstretched hand.
'How do you do?' he said. 'How is Lady Kelsey?'
'She's much better, thanks. We've been to Spa, you know, for her health.'
Julia's heart beat quickly. She was much excited at this meeting; and it seemed to her strangely romantic, a sign of the civilisation of the times, that these two people with raging passions afire in their hearts, should exchange the commonplaces of polite society, Alec, having recovered from his momentary confusion was extremely urbane.
'Somebody told me you'd gone abroad,' he said. 'Was it you, Dick? Dick is an admirable person, a sort of gazetteer for the world of fashion.'
Dick fussily brought forward a chair for Lucy to sit in, and offered to disembarrass her of the jacket she was wearing.
'You must make my excuses for not leaving a card on Lady Kelsey before going away,' said Alec. 'I've been excessively busy.'
'It doesn't matter at all,' Lucy answered.
Julia glanced at him. She saw that he was determined to keep the conversation on the indifferent level which it might have occupied if Lucy had been nothing more than an acquaintance. There was a bantering tone in his voice which was an