night after that.
Mother told Daddy in the half hour or so before sleep overtook them that she ought to take Gramma’s “damned skirt” out and burn it—just toss it on the trash heap and incinerate it. Lucy wondered why Mother didn’t suggest giving the skirt to the woman who came around every week, but every time Mother mentioned it, all she seemed to think of was destroying it.
Lucy was careful not to make the treads squeak as she went down the stairs, even though she could hear the loose flutter and harsh blap-blap-blap of her parents snoring above. She held onto the big thick railing that was almost level with her shoulders, her slightly damp palm sticking in places to somewhat gummy old varnish of the oak rail. Down below, moonlight came through the shaded and curtained windows in hazy patches, just the way the light had been filtered through Gramma’s night skirt, only different, too. It was hard for Lucy to put into words, but the mind-picture came easily enough along with other pictures, from other times with Gramma. Like last winter.
Reaching the cool first floor, her bare toes feeling cautiously for any sharp things like gravel or splinters on the varnished wood surface, Lucy slowly made her way, hands outstretched, toward Gramma’s room. As she did so, the memory of another walk, this time over snow and cold cement, came back to her.
Gramma said she didn’t like going outside in the snow—she might slip and fall and break her brittle bones—but Lucy’s birthday was coming up next week, and Daddy had forgotten to mail the invitations for her party when he had left the house that morning. Mother was busy ironing clothes, making puffs of whitish steam come up with a hot fabric smell off the ironing board set up in the kitchen, so Lucy begged and begged until Gramma said she’d walk down the street with Lucy to the mailbox, and drop the tiny stamped envelopes into the slot that Lucy couldn’t reach herself.
But Lucy could tell that Gramma wasn’t too keen on the idea, even though she said nothing to Lucy as she held her hand, which poked out of the fur trim on her winter coat. Lucy was so happy to have her invitations mailed that at first she thought Gramma would get over being upset.
And maybe Gramma would have been just fine, but Lucy shook her hand loose from Gramma’s kid-gloved grip and began walking backwards, like Vernilla Nemmitz in school did at recess time. Gramma began to cluck and scold softly, telling Lucy, “Oh, Pumpkin, little ladies don’t walk like that!” But Lucy was thinking that come Monday she’d show old “I’m in-the-second-grade” Vernilla what she could do, and then she looked down at her faint footprints in the sugary dusting of snow, and her grandmother’s, and stopped in her tracks, one tiny gloved hand pointing, just pointing down at what she saw.
That was when Gramma reached out and took her hand and steered Lucy back to the house, leaning down every once in a while to whisper something fast and quiet to the little girl, until Lucy began to nod in awareness. Near the front porch, Lucy solemnly crossed her heart and hoped to die rather than tell anyone, even Vernilla Nemmitz at school, what she’d seen in the fast-melting snow.
Other grandchildren might have been scared after seeing what Lucy had seen, but she loved her Gramma, and the deep, pitch-black secrets of the night skirt, and in return for promising never, never to tell, Gramma had made a promise to Lucy, too.
Her breath billowing out in small, semitransparent white clouds before her gently sagging face, Gramma had whispered with soft popping clicks of her false teeth, “Someday, my little Pumpkin, you’ll get to wear the night skirt, too—not your mother, but you. Your mother doesn’t understand—not like you, my girl.”
And even though Lucy really didn’t understand everything just yet, she’d nodded in agreement. A few weeks later, she’d tried making her own night skirt out of her coat, making Gramma laugh. That was when she’d said the night skirt wasn’t for little girls-at least, not yet.
But as Lucy made her way toward the doorway of Gramma’s room, now keeping her arms at her sides so she wouldn’t knock over Mother’s bric-a-brac stand with a thump and a crunch and a delicate shatter, she told herself that now she could wear the night skirt, that Gramma surely understood, even if she wasn’t alive anymore.
Lucy had been what the neighbors called a “brave little girl” when the doctor came out of Gramma’s bedroom-cum-sewing room that afternoon, closing his black leather bag with a snapping-fingernails click that made almost everyone in the parlor jump in place and twitch their closed mouths before they cast their eyes to the floor and began to pat Mother on the back with gentle hands. Even without being told, Lucy knew what had happened, and without needing to ask, she’d known that the night skirt was now hers.
Gramma had said so, hadn’t she?
For on that day, Lucy had seen footprints that weren’t always footprints trailing out behind Gramma, even though she had been careful not to step on the snow if she could help it, instead searching out the bare spots on the cold cement...but in some places there was nothing but snow, and in others, Lucy had seen the rounded arches of hooves, the four-toed round pads of cat paws, only really big, and the thin skitterings of bird claws, and here and there a regular shoe print, but only here and there.
All the funny tracks in the snow trailed out behind Gramma’s wonderful, terrible, oh-so-thick-and-dark night skirt, dusted here and there by the sweep of the trailing skirt, but not obliterated.
And Lucy had been a good girl, keeping the secret she’d exed into her breast with trembling fingers. And without being told she’d kept secret what she’d seen through the night skirt—that angular place that wasn’t Gramma’s room anymore, with that homed, strange thing that was but wasn’t her mother.
When Gramma had nudged her out from under there, Lucy had felt sharp claws at her back, poking through the wool jersey of her dress, and the lashing curl of a tail whip around her arm, but she hadn’t told about that, either. For even if she hadn’t liked her Gramma, and had run screaming for her mother, begging her to look, Gramma would have had normal feet tucked in normal dark stockings and sensible leather shoes, for that was part of the mystery of the night skirt, that keeper of the dark, and all that crept or crawled or prowled under cover of darkness.
The mystery and magic of the wonderful night skirt, and of the secrets that Gramma promised to tell Lucy, “later, when you’re a big girl and can wear the real night skirt,” only “later” was now, and Lucy was a big girl, almost seven, so she figured that that was big enough to wear the night skirt. To use it, like Gramma had used it.
For hadn’t the men from the county who took away Gramma’s house gotten all tumbled and broken when their Ford went into that ditch last fall? True, Gramma’s big fancy house was sold by then, to those nasty Parks people, but hadn’t Gramma had a big smile on her weathered face while she rocked after hearing the news about the car accident from Daddy?
Even though Mother and some of the ladies from the neighborhood had come into Gramma’s room and washed her, before setting the damp cloths on her now slack face and folded hands, they hadn’t taken away the night skirt. They hadn’t thrown it on the trash heap and burned it to a cinder, like Mother kept saying she wanted to do, even though the skirt was Lucy’s now.
Maybe Mother didn’t want the other ladies to see her do a mean thing like that, Lucy said to herself as she paused at the closed door of Gramma’s room. That her Gramma was dead didn’t bother Lucy much, at least not in the way it might have bothered other little girls who loved their grandmothers. Because her Gramma had told her things—oh, lots of good stuff—when Mother wasn’t listening. And even though Gramma had been caught by surprise when the mean men from the county took away her house, and hadn’t been able to make the night skirt work for her then, she’d still gotten something called revenge on them all. And she had chuckled and hugged Lucy tight when she had said that, and all Lucy could think was, When I get the night skirt. first I’m gonna show old Vernilla some really fancy walking, and then I’ll....
But up until yesterday, when Gramma’s lower tummy got to feeling had, and Mother all but tore the night skirt off her, saying it was so she could get a nightgown on Gramma (but Lucy knew what her mother was really thinking when she pulled the skirt off the protesting old woman), Lucy had always thought