then moved north into Iraq. I spent nearly a year patrolling Southern Iraq, escorting U.S. corporate convoys, and anticipating the day I would return home. While my experience in Iraq was difficult, stressful, and confusing, my unit brought everyone home alive and I consider myself extremely fortunate to be intact. The experience of being an armed occupier in an unknown, foreign country, and the impact that the war and occupation of Iraq had and will continue to have for generations, led me to make a decision to try to become a proactive force in effecting positive change.
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My father is a navy Vietnam-era veteran who joined Veterans for Peace (VFP) in 2003. He hated seeing me deploy to Iraq and even visited the country himself as part of a delegation during the first year of the occupation. Soon after my return home from Iraq, my father invited me to attend the VFP convention that July in Boston. I was excited at the opportunity but had no idea what to expect. To my surprise, I arrived to find out that I’d been scheduled to speak on a panel with several other veterans who’d served in Iraq and the Middle East. I was nervous and had no idea what to say. One of the other vets told me to “speak from the heart.” While I found this advice corny, I think what he was really saying was, “speak from your experience.” As I’ve come to learn, there is nothing more powerful or engaging than one’s own personal story.
Several of the Iraq veterans at the convention had been discussing with VFP their desire to form an organization made up of post–9/11 vets that opposed the Iraq war. They wanted to give a voice to the opposition within the ranks of those serving in the “Global War on Terror.” Our mentors in Veterans for Peace were very supportive and on July 24, 2004, Michael Hoffman, Alex Ryabov, Tim Goodrich, Jimmy Massey, Diana Morrison, and I stood on stage at historic Faneuil Hall alongside military family members, and announced the formation of Iraq Veterans Against the War (IVAW).
Those of us in Boston, as well as other early members of IVAW, were all on our own paths toward understanding and finding meaning in our military and wartime experiences. We implicitly understood the value of veterans’ and servicemembers’ voices in the discussion about Iraq and foreign policy, and knew that we had a very important role to play. From the beginning, the goals of Iraq Veterans Against the War were clear:
An immediate, unconditional withdrawal of all occupying forces from Iraq;
Health care and other benefits for all veterans and servicemembers;
Reparations to the Iraqi people.
Our members consist of women and men who’ve served in the U.S. military since September 11, 2001, and are united by our goals or three points of unity. We are strategically organizing within the military and veteran communities to build and support opposition to the ongoing occupation, as well as educate the public about the true human costs of war. We believe that those who have taken part in death, destruction, and trauma can transform their experiences to build a more just, peaceful world.
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As our membership began to grow, and chapters began to form, IVAW entered a new level of organizing and strategizing on how to be an effective force to be reckoned with. We organized Winter Soldier Iraq and Afghanistan in part because our members see the history and day-to-day narration of the Iraq occupation being told and remembered by politicians, generals, pundits, and corporate media. The voices, experiences, and opinions of those most affected, the Iraqis, the servicemembers, and military families, are often marginalized or ignored. IVAW members seek to challenge the assumption that only those with wealth or power can write history or lend crucial insight to the life-and-death issues that affect us all. The members of IVAW show courage, conviction, and integrity as they continue to raise their voices in support of human dignity and freedom, and in opposition to the degrading forces of war and occupation that dehumanize and destroy their fellow human beings.
The current volume, Winter Soldier Iraq and Afghanistan: Eyewitness Accounts of the Occupations, is based on the biggest event that IVAW has organized to date. The hearings, held at the National Labor College, in Silver Spring, Maryland between March 13 and 16, 2008, gathered more than two hundred veterans of the two conflicts and featured testimony from veterans, Iraqi civilians, military families, and others. The event helped to build the leadership of our members, strengthening the relationships among them across the country, while providing a painful glimpse into the brutality of the occupation. One of the most poignant findings of the hearings is that the abuses committed in the occupations, far from being the result of a “few bad apples” misbehaving, are the result of our government’s Middle East policy, which is crafted in the highest spheres of U.S. power. The behavior of the troops on the ground is an inseparable part of our military occupation, and the toll that is taken on the civilians and soldiers who suffer through this sort of institutionalized mass violence is nearly impossible to comprehend.
Our members’ testimony helped set the record straight and created an important tool for the American people to challenge the official government line. While at Winter Soldier, I had members tell me that they finally felt part of a national movement. One member told me that he felt more proud of his work with IVAW than of his entire service in the Marine Corps. IVAW means more to its members than making a political statement. Our organization represents healing, reclaiming pieces of ourselves that we thought were lost, atoning for our role in the suffering of others, and continuing to help each other and stand up for our country. Once we began the collection of testimony for Winter Soldier, more and more members wanted to submit their first-hand accounts. We plan to make the collection of Winter Soldier testimony an ongoing part of IVAW’s work in order to document our own history as an organization and as a group of people who are intimately aware of the impacts of war.
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When I was in Iraq, I often thought of the saying, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” Although it is a cliché, it helped me and I think there is truth in it. We’ve survived bullets, IEDs, scorching heat, bitter cold, intimidation, harassment, and attacks, and yet we continue with renewed determination and focus. We know the value and impact that our personal stories carry and that is what Winter Soldier Iraq and Afghanistan is all about: opening up a space for veterans and servicemembers to share their stories firsthand.
Speaking openly and candidly about our experiences at war, in the military, and as returning vets, however, is not a simple task. When we relive traumatic moments we open ourselves up for criticism, we remember things we’d rather forget, we take a risk. But when we speak up, when we share our stories, we also open up the possibility of healing, bit by bit, from our trauma. When we find and exercise our voices, we start to realize the power that we have inside us, the power that, when organized and solidified, can do amazing things, like end occupations. We never fully know the impact that we have when we find the strength to speak out. Our voices resonate to unexpected places and give hope, solace, inspiration, and motivation to people we will never meet.
When we return home from combat, many people would rather not hear our stories, would rather not be made to feel uncomfortable by being confronted with the grim reality of warfare and occupation, where morality becomes obscured and the lines between good and bad are fluid and hazy. By acknowledging our experiences, it pressures people to recognize their own responsibility for the actions being taken by a military that is ultimately meant to defend them. It is often much easier for people to call us heroes and forget about us, forget about the sacrifices we’ve made and horrors we’ve endured. We must remind people that the occupations in Iraq and Afghanistan are being waged by the United States as a country, not simply by our military or our political administration. By speaking out, we pressure our fellow Americans to acknowledge their own responsibility for these occupations, which is a necessary part in bringing them to an end.
IVAW continues to move forward, carrying the message of Winter Soldier, more powerful and united than ever before. We’ve asserted IVAW as an effective, focused group that has a strategy to end the occupation of Iraq. We are leading the GI and veteran movement to bring our brothers and sisters home now, and we’re to be taken seriously and treated with respect. We are writing history from the point of view of those who’ve lived through these occupations and experienced the on-the-ground reality. We are proud, we are committed, we are 1,300 strong and growing, and we will keep fighting for each