heavy and solid as she sank into her shoes.
No! This was not going to be like last year. Those days had been too long and the house too quiet. She’d become a total stranger. She was officially over it. This was spring, a new beginning in a brand-new year. This year, things were going to change.
Joy checked her posture and her attitude as she spun on the shifting floor. She shuffled toward Monica, who had lightly rebuffed some blond boy and was now glancing over her shoulder at the guy on her left. Joy wasn’t surprised. Monica liked jocks. Or, as she liked to put it, “big strapping jocks,” and Mr. Wide Shouldered Crew Cut in Tight Pants definitely fit her type.
Joy pushed away some stray hand. The floor chugged with the beat.
“Chocolate-vanilla swirl?” Joy shouted.
Monica raised her hands and whooped, “Oh, yeah!”
Monica was more the color of classic grand pianos than chocolate ice cream, but she was always game for showing off. Linking fingers, the two of them slowly undulated their hips, bending lower and lower as they sank to their knees, hanging on to one another for support and inching back up the same way, laughing. They got some applause and even a few appreciative hollers. Joy grinned. Eleven years of gymnastics came in handy once in a while. It’d been over eight months since she’d quit, but she missed it. She missed it like laughing. She missed it like this.
They slapped high-fives before going solo. Monica made her play for Mr. Wide, his large hands sliding down onto her hips. She nodded to Joy and laughed, the black lights on the undercarriage making her eyes and teeth glow an unappetizing purple. It made Joy secretly want a breath mint.
Joy turned away, gazing out at the crowd. Flashes of color and jerky movements made everybody look strangely the same—no one was boy or girl, black or white, freshman or senior. They were all one big glom. Joy usually avoided the Carousel’s Under 18 scene, but Monica had said that there was a new DJ and Joy had to admit that he was really good. The guy was backlit in the gutted central pillar filled with concert notices and band stickers, the giant headphones over his ears making it look like he wore a Viking helmet. Her eyes skipped over faces, trying not to linger too long. She didn’t want company—she just wanted to dance and forget about Mom and Dad and her brother, Stef, away at U Penn.
She turned a one-eighty, swishing her fingers as the music switched over. Joy lifted her face to the ceiling and watched the colored bands of pink and green spin. She turned counterclockwise, making herself dizzy. Searing neon afterimages blinked in her brain. That’s when she saw the all-black eyes.
At first, she thought it was a trick of the light, but everyone else’s eyes had that purplish glow while these stayed flat-shadow. Joy stopped, confused.
A lean guy with spiky hair stared into the crowd with his strange, dark eyes. Shaggy bangs fell forward into his face, the back cut close behind his ears and neck. The girl next to him could have been his twin—shorter, with a heart-shaped face, matching hair and whiteless eyes. They stood on the edge of the dance floor, looking like black thistles against a field of psychedelic blooms.
Goths, Joy figured, with freaky contacts.
He stared, unblinking. His eyes swallowed everything. And when they found her, it felt like falling.
The Carousel turned, but those eyes stayed with her.
Joy adjusted her feet and tried to put the boy out of her mind. The music tracks dovetailed and the view slowly changed. Lightbox signs hawked caramel apples and funnel cakes. Crayon-colored chair swings spun in and out of sight. Monica had disappeared somewhere with Mr. Wide. The music dipped and surfaced, vocals skating up and down scales. Joy’s eyes flicked to the mirrors, the black lights, the brass ring, but an itch kept pulling her gaze over her shoulder. The platform circled, and she saw him again through a sea of indigo limbs.
He stared at her. Joy glanced away, pretending not to notice. She rotated in place, rolling her hips slowly as the floor crept clockwise, not realizing that she was flirting until she’d circled beyond his sight.
Joy considered him from the safe zone behind the DJ booth. The guy’s shirt looked expensive and his vibe was lurkish, intense. He had a sort of animal grace, even standing still, and his serious expression was a sharp contrast to his pretty, boyish face. On the next pass, she wondered if he’d still be there, staring at her.
He was. But it wasn’t a nice stare.
Joy’s stomach dropped as he headed straight toward her. She looked down at her shoes, a hot, awkward prickle crawling over her cheeks. He wasn’t dancing his way closer or being in any way subtle—he was marching right at her, stepping smoothly onto the rotating platform and pushing gently but firmly through the crowd. His attention was relentless. Joy backed farther into the throng.
She scanned the club for Monica, feeling those eyes on the back of her neck. She was afraid to turn around. Didn’t this break some sort of dance floor etiquette? If Joy ignored him, maybe he’d get the hint. But she really wanted backup.
“You.”
Joy was surprised that his soft voice cut so cleanly through the noise. It didn’t sound as if he’d shouted, and she was too surprised to pretend she hadn’t heard him.
He was within arm’s reach—dancing distance—but he wasn’t dancing. His thistle sister stood as close to him as static cling.
Joy closed her eyes, feigning boredom. She’d gotten more details in that second brief glimpse: smoky shirt, dark pants, heavy chain dangling to his back pocket—so Goth! Joy projected a pointedly obvious no.
“Hey, you,” he said again in the simple way that sliced through sound. Joy glared at him. She didn’t like to be rude, but she would if she had to. She didn’t need this. She kept her arms moving, trying to keep things casual. Colored lights flashed off tent tops, stuffed animals and sweaty faces, making it impossible to see where he was looking with those blacked-out eyes.
He took a step closer. Joy smelled rain on the breeze.
“You can see me?” he asked.
Joy stopped dancing at the patently stupid question.
“Yeah. Why?”
A strange look passed over his face, determination that looked like regret. His arm rose at the shoulder, snaking out in a short burst of speed. Bright lights licked the edge of something sharp in his hand. Joy flinched and fell down hard. She skidded on the floor and banged against knees.
Cupping a hand to her eye, she inhaled a scream, but it stuck in her chest. What had just happened? There’d been a flash. It was bright. Had he cut her? Was she bleeding? People backed away. The floor kept turning. Joy could feel it shudder.
Monica appeared beside her. “You okay?” she gasped, voicing the panic Joy was just starting to feel. “What happened? Joy?”
Her eye hurt. A lot. Every time she tried to look up, she blinked rapidly over a pinprick of pain. It felt like a splinter.
Through the blur, Joy saw the Goth girl’s hand bright against her brother’s shirt, shoving him back into the crowd. Her voice had that same slicing clarity.
“Well, now you’ve done it.”
Joy wanted to get up and grab them, but the twinge in her eye and an icy fear pinned her to the floor. Slippery tears wet her palm.
“He cut me!” Joy said in accusation and disbelief. Her words caught fire to those nearby, passing quickly from person to person in the breathy excitement of a night on the Green gone bad. Staffers descended. Rent-a-cops were called. There were shouts to remain calm, shut off the music, man the gates, but by the time any of it happened, the two Goth kids were gone.
* * *
Dad drove her home from the E.R. with a neat patch over one eye and a bottle of numbing drops in her hand. The scratch on her cornea was clean, but kept flipping open, so the nurse had taped her eyelid shut. Joy’s pleas to stay home for the next three to five days had not met