In all honesty, she hadn’t wanted to mention it at New Year anyway, as those particular celebrations always brought back memories of Morgan. They’d always spent New Year together, and an image of them sharing a glass of champagne could still upset her even after all this time.
She sighed, nudging the solitaire diamond ring on her finger with some trepidation. She had to concentrate on Graham, and the life they expected to build together in the coming year. A year which would bring in a new millennium; a new husband. Was this a suitable moment to tell the Rikers the truth?
‘Um—’ Celia seemed to be finding difficulty in going on and, taking the initiative, Fliss swallowed any lingering doubts.
‘I was going to ring you anyway,’ she said, but before she could get any further Celia found her voice.
‘Oh, why?’ she asked. ‘Have—have they been in touch with you?’ The tremor in her voice caused a sympathetic shiver to slide down Fliss’s spine. ‘The Foreign Office, I mean?’
Fliss swallowed again. ‘The Foreign Office?’ she echoed, trying to sound casual and failing, abysmally. She sought the safety of the nearby sofa’s arm. ‘I—why, no.’ She moistened suddenly dry lips. ‘Have they been in touch with you?’
Her thoughts spiralled. What now? she wondered. She’d thought she was through with all the formalities consequent upon Morgan’s death. And it had to be about Morgan. There was no other reason for the Foreign Office to get in touch with her.
The silence at the other end of the line was ominous, and although she quite understood that anything to do with the death of their son was just as painful for her in-laws as it was for her she wished Celia had marshalled her facts before picking up the phone.
‘You haven’t had a letter, then?’ her mother-in-law queried at last, and Fliss knew an uncharacteristic urge to scream that that was what she’d just said. ‘About—about the coup in Nyanda,’ Celia added confusingly. ‘Oh, dear. James said you would have rung us if you had.’
‘The coup in Nyanda?’ Fliss couldn’t imagine why the recent coup in the country where Morgan had met his death should be of any interest to her. Indeed, she preferred not to think about Nyanda at all, and the news that her husband’s killers had overthrown the legal government was too painful to think about.
‘Yes, the coup,’ Celia repeated eagerly, and Fliss wondered if there was to be some kind of official acknowledgement of Morgan’s murder. Surely they were not hypocritical enough to suggest that there should be some lasting memorial? The last thing she wanted was to have all those unhappy memories raked up now.
She tamped down her indignation, and said, ‘Is there a problem?’ in what she hoped was a pleasant tone.
‘You could say that.’ Celia’s response was agitated. ‘Oh, Felicity, it’s such wonderful news!’
Fliss felt guilty suddenly. Here she was considering only her own feelings when it was obvious that Morgan’s mother was delighted by what she’d heard. The trouble was, since she and Graham bad started spending so much time together. she’d been neglecting her in-laws. How long had it been since she’d visited them at Tudor Cross?
‘Celia—’
She didn’t know exactly what she’d been intending to say, but her mother-in-law broke in before she could go on. ‘Morgan’s alive!’ Celia cried, and then collapsed into violent sobbing and Fliss heard Morgan’s father swear as he grabbed the phone from her.
The room swam dizzily around her. She was glad she was sitting down, but even so the feeling of imbalance made her feel slightly sick. Clutching the arm of the chair, she assured herself that Celia must be having some kind of seizure. Whatever communication she had had, it could not have said that Morgan was alive.
‘Felicity!’
She was dimly aware that James Riker was speaking to her now and his voice, so like his son’s, had a sobering effect. She knew he was going to tell her to discount what his wife had said, but Celia’s words—so pathetic in some ways, so cruel in others—were not so easily dismissed.
‘Felicity,’ James said again. And then, more gently, ‘Fliss.’ He heaved a sigh. ‘God. I’m so sorry, my dear. Celia promised me she’d just ask you if you’d had a letter. She wasn’t supposed to blurt out what it said.’
‘What it said?’ Fliss trembled, trying hard to remain calm in the face of enormous provocation. ‘I just don’t know why you thought I’d be interested in some coup they’ve had in Nyanda.’ She drew a breath. ‘Are they planning a memorial to all the innocent victims of the war, or what?’
‘Oh, Fliss.’
James sounded so distressed now that Fliss wished she could say something to reassure him. It seemed there had been a letter and somehow Celia had convinced herself that Morgan was still alive. How awful for her husband to have to deal with that, and handle his own grief as well.
‘It’s all right,’ she said, putting aside her own feelings. ‘It’s obvious Celia’s got the wrong end of the stick. If there’s anything I can do, please feel free to call me. Um—perhaps if there is to be a memorial service we could get together—’
‘Oh, Fliss!’
Her words didn’t seem to have reassured him at all, and she hoped he didn’t think she didn’t care. No one liked the suggestion that a relative might not be wholly rational, but if he’d had any doubts about Celia’s mental capacity he shouldn’t have let her make the call in the first place.
‘Felicity,’ he said again, and she registered the return to a more formal appellation with a relieved smile. ‘You did hear what Celia said, didn’t you?’
Fliss nodded. Then, realising he couldn’t see her, she answered, ‘Yes, of course.’
James groaned. ‘You heard, Fliss. But you weren’t listening,’ he interposed swiftly. ‘God, I knew we should have driven down to see you instead of expecting you to call us. But the weather’s been so abominable, and we’ve both had flu—’
‘Wait!’ Now Fliss broke in. Before he said another word, she had to know what he meant ‘Are—are you saying there’s some truth in what Celia was saying? Is there some doubt about—about Morgan’s death?’
‘Not doubt, no.’ As Fliss gripped the receiver with hands that were now ice-cold and trembling, her father-in-law gave what sounded like a muffled laugh. ‘Oh, my dear. There is no doubt. Morgan is alive. He’s apparently been a prisoner of the rebel forces for the past four years.’
Fliss couldn’t believe it. She had the awful feeling that this was some sort of practical joke. Morgan was dead. The Foreign Office had virtually said so. They’d found the burnt-out remains of the car he’d been travelling in on the airport road, and the chances of Morgan having survived the ambush were minimal.
‘You obviously haven’t watched the reports on television,’ her father-in-law continued, his voice a little unsteady. ‘The rebel leader, a man called Julius Mdola, gave an interview outside the parliament buildings in Kantanga, and he admitted he’d been forced to keep his whereabouts a secret because of the danger of attack.’ He made a choked sound. The authorities believe Morgan must have been with him, and, thank God, they’ve discovered he’s still alive.’
Fliss shook her head as if to clear it. She could hear James’s voice, but the things he was saying made no sense. Whatever lies he’d been told, she didn’t want to hear them. It was all a mistake, and she just wanted to be left alone.
‘Fliss! Fliss, are you still there?’ James sounded anxious now, but still she didn’t speak. ‘Did you hear what I said? They’re calling it the coup of the millennium. Mdola insisted it was the people’s coup. But as long as Morgan’s free I don’t particularly care.’
Fliss’s mind wouldn’t function. Whether she believed it or not, no one could