she?” Rita asked. “Still single?”
Travis knew that tone and shook his head at his sister.
“What does that mean? She’s not single?”
“It means you can stop those matchmaking thoughts you’re having.”
Rita crossed her arms. “Why? You liked her once upon a time.”
“That was a long time ago. A lot has happened since then. We’re not the same people we were then.”
“Sure you are, just older and with more experiences.”
“Listen, I know you’re just looking out for me, doing the big-sister thing, but I don’t need dating advice.”
“Because you’re not dating.” A tinge of sadness enveloped her words and shadowed her eyes when she looked up at him.
“No, I’m not.” And he had no intention of changing that. Every time he thought about it, his heart got jerked back to the happy days he’d spent with Corinne and how they’d been ripped away in a split second. Going through that once was heart-wrenching. Not just that he’d lost Corinne but how he’d lost her. And the fact he’d lost what might have been—children, a long and happy life together. He wasn’t exactly chomping at the bit to set himself up for that kind of pain again. Taking that chance just wasn’t worth it.
But damned if his gaze didn’t drift across the arena, searching for Savannah anyway.
“You know Corinne wouldn’t want you to spend the rest of your life alone. You were much too young when she passed and you have a lot of years ahead of you.”
Of course, she couldn’t know that. His life could be snuffed out tomorrow, as quickly and unexpectedly as Corinne’s had been. But he wouldn’t say that and hurt her, especially when Hailey was nearby and might hear. Despite the harsh reality of the world, he wanted nothing more than to keep that away from Hailey for as long as he could.
Wanting to change the subject, he glanced at Rita. “Would you like something from the concession stand?”
Rita let her breath out slowly but didn’t pursue the original topic further. “Grab us a couple of burgers and lemonades.”
Thankful for the break from his sister’s scrutiny, he made his way through the crowd. But leaving behind what Rita had said proved more difficult. There was no denying he’d been immediately attracted to Savannah, a pull he hadn’t felt in a long time. Didn’t want to feel. Was it even possible for him to move on? Would it be fair to a woman when a chunk of him still clung to the hope of vengeance against the man who’d killed Corinne? That was an ugliness he just couldn’t shed, and he doubted Savannah or any other woman would find it appealing.
As he stood in the concession line, he shifted his gaze toward the end of the arena. He couldn’t see Savannah, but maybe that was a good thing. What were the chances she was single anyway? She was nice, beautiful, talented and from a well-to-do family. That seemed like a recipe for having guys lined up around the corner.
“What can I get for you?”
Travis jerked his attention back to the woman working the concession stand window. He needed to forget about Savannah Baron now the same way he had when he’d been a hormonal teenager fumbling every attempt to tell her how he felt.
But as he carried the food and drinks back to the grandstand, he began to realize forgetting the second time might not be any easier than it had been the first. Savannah Baron wasn’t the type of woman you forgot easily.
* * *
“SO, I THINK you need to hunt down Travis after your ride and ask him out,” Abby said as she and Savannah prepped Rosie and Bluebell for their rides.
“That will not be happening.”
“Why not? He’s hot.”
That he was. “Be that as it may, I wouldn’t feel right about it.”
“Why the heck not? If you’re too shy to do it, I can ask for you.”
Savannah propped her hand on her hip. “What is this, third grade?”
“Pretty sure those kind of sparks don’t fly in third grade.”
“There were no sparks.”
“Oh, yeah, there were definite sparks. I’m somewhat of an expert on the subject.”
Savannah rolled her eyes. “Just because you date a lot doesn’t make you an expert on everyone else’s love life.”
“Maybe not, but I’ve known you long enough to know that you were interested.”
Savannah laughed. “Earlier you were convinced I was head over heels for Cannon.”
“There’s a difference between appreciation and interest.”
Savannah laid her palm against Bluebell’s neck and stroked the animal. “It wouldn’t feel right. Travis lost his wife a few years ago. She was shot in a convenience store holdup.”
The teasing fell away from Abby’s face. “That’s awful.”
“Yeah, and he wasn’t even here. He was stationed overseas with the army. I can’t imagine how horrible it was for him.”
Abby glanced toward the crowd watching the tie-down roping as if she could spot Travis among them. “So maybe he could use another friend?”
Though Abby wasn’t being callous, Savannah should have known her friend wouldn’t give up so easily.
“I’m sure he has friends.” Before Abby could say anything else, Savannah pulled herself up into the saddle and guided Bluebell away. If she had any hope of making a good ride, Savannah needed a few minutes to clear her head of thoughts of Travis, the tragedy he’d lived through and the unwise attraction she’d felt toward him.
By the time the barrel racing began, she’d managed to partially clear her head. But she couldn’t help a glance at the grandstand, wondering if Travis was sitting among the crowd.
She forced her focus back to the competitors ahead of her. For the next several minutes, she needed nothing else to matter beyond working with Bluebell to make a good, safe ride.
Two spots ahead of her, Abby prepared for her run. Savannah held Bluebell steady as Abby sped into the arena, guiding Rosie expertly around the barrels, shaving precious microseconds off her time. Cheers rang out from the grandstands for Abby, a crowd favorite. As she rounded the last barrel, Abby urged Rosie toward the finish. It struck Savannah that Abby’s and Rosie’s expressions of determination weren’t all that different. They worked as one seamless unit all the way through and beyond the finish line.
Savannah scratched Bluebell between the ears and leaned forward. “Almost time, girl. Let’s show Abby and Rosie we can still give them a run for their money.”
As Tanya Gonzales made her ride, Savannah took several slow, calming breaths. When Tanya cut the last corner too close and knocked over the barrel, Savannah did her best to push that negative image out of her mind.
When Tanya finished her run and the overturned barrel was righted, Savannah took one last, fortifying breath then kicked Bluebell into a gallop. The horse responded immediately, knowing exactly what to do.
They flew around the first two barrels as if Bluebell had wings and her feet weren’t even touching the ground. Sensing a good time, one to rival Abby’s, Savannah urged Bluebell to fly even faster. The dirt of the arena, the white fencing, the crowd beyond—it was all a blur as they raced the clock.
Excitement surged through Savannah’s veins. This had always been when she felt most free, most in control of her life, as if she was astride Pegasus and letting the world fall away below her.
They rounded the final barrel, and the image of Tanya knocking over the barrel shot to the front of Savannah’s thoughts. Before she could prevent it, she stiffened,