was mild for January, and the shutters were open to make the most of the light. As Clare helped Nicola to move from her cot to the bench by the table, she was given a warm smile. Clare’s heart lifted—Nicola was weak and ill, and her smiles were precious.
‘I see you had a visitor while I was at market,’ Clare said.
Nicola grunted and eased back against the planked wall. ‘So I did, and it wasn’t just any visitor, it was a nobleman. A nobleman with a gift. It’s of no use to me, but you and Nell might enjoy it. I wanted to tell you before I told Nell. There’s no point in getting her overexcited if you refuse to take her. I know how you fret every time you leave the house.’
‘A gift?’ Clare settled a blanket around Nicola’s knees. Whoever Nicola’s mysterious visitor had been—Count Lucien, perhaps?—he had clearly done her good. Nicola’s eyes were brighter than they had been in months, she almost looked happy. Clare waited, Nicola would soon confirm the identity of her visitor—since Geoffrey’s death, there had been no secrets between them. ‘You are comfortable? If you’re in a draught, I can close that shutter.’
‘Lord, no, leave it open, there’s little enough light at this time of year.’
Clare removed the simple linen veil she invariably wore when going to market, and hung it on the hook, over her cloak. A strand of copper-coloured hair swung forwards. As she hooked it back into its plait, she glanced at the fire. It was burning low. A thin blue haze wound up to a vent in the rafters. ‘Shall I build up the fire?’
‘Clare, I’m fine. Save the wood until evening.’
Nodding, Clare lifted a basket on to the table and began to unload it. Flour. Cheese. A handful of withered pears. Onions. Dried beans. And, thanks to the generosity of Geoffrey’s liege lord, Count Lucien, some salt pork and dried fish.
‘No eggs?’ Nicola asked.
‘The price was madness. I’ll try again tomorrow, although I fear they won’t be cheap until spring.’ She glanced at Nicola. ‘Well? What is this mysterious gift?’
Nicola fumbled in her purse and slapped a coin on the table.
‘Money.’ Despite herself, Clare’s voice was flat. ‘Lord d’Aveyron has been here again.’
Every time Clare thought of Lucien Vernon, Count d’Aveyron, she couldn’t help but remember Geoffrey’s folly. His recklessness. Geoffrey had made some devil’s pact with a gang of thieves. Clare knew he had done it to help his mother—before his death he had confessed the whole. She also knew that Geoffrey had lived to regret it. He had tried to make amends, but the moment he had tried to wriggle out of the arrangement, he had signed his own death warrant. The thieves had killed him.
Clare knew about Geoffrey’s dealings with outlaws, as did Count Lucien. Nicola, on the other hand, did not—she lived in happy ignorance of her son’s fatal lapse of judgement. And as far as Clare was concerned, that was exactly how it should be. Nicola wouldn’t learn of Geoffrey’s shame from her—in her fragile state, it would likely kill her. Thus far, Count Lucien hadn’t breathed a word about Geoffrey’s transgression, but Clare dreaded his visits. Geoffrey had been one of Count Lucien’s household knights, and she was afraid that one day, the Count would let something slip...
‘There’s no need to look like that,’ Nicola said, sliding the coin towards her. ‘The Count is a good man, and he honours Geoffrey’s memory by keeping an eye on his mother. This isn’t money. Look closely.’
Setting the pears in a wooden bowl, Clare reached for the coin and saw that it wasn’t a coin at all. It was larger than a penny and made of lead rather than silver. ‘It’s a token.’
‘Yes.’
A picture of Troyes Castle was stamped solidly on one face; on the other was the image of a knight charging at full tilt. Clare’s stomach tightened and she put the token back on the table with a decisive snap. ‘I hope that’s not what I think it is.’
Some of the light went out of Nicola’s eyes. ‘That token gives entry to the stands at the Twelfth Night Joust—the seated area near the ladies. Clare, I thought...’ Nicola paused ‘...I hoped you’d want to go. Particularly if you had a seat on the ladies’ benches. You’d be safe there.’
Clare stared at the coin and repressed the urge to take a swift step backwards. The Twelfth Night Joust. Ever since the year had turned, the town had been talking of little else. ‘I can’t go.’
‘It would do you good. The only time you leave the house is when you go to market. I thought—’
‘Nicola, I go to market because we would starve if I didn’t, I don’t go because I like it.’
‘You’re afraid to go abroad, even after all this time.’
Clare’s chin went up. ‘Wouldn’t you be, if you were me?’
Nicola shook her head and sighed. ‘Yes. No. I don’t know.’ Her gaze sharpened. ‘I do know that you’re young and you can’t hide for ever. I thought you were happy here.’
‘I am, but—’
‘This is your home—you are safe in Troyes.’
‘Thank you for the thought, but I don’t want to go.’ Clare tapped the token with her fingernail. ‘Nicola, you could get good money for this, people are fighting to get their hands on them.’
Nicola’s eyes filled. ‘Nell would love to see the Twelfth Night Joust—you know she adores watching the knights. They remind her of Geoffrey.’
Clare narrowed her eyes. That was a low blow and Nicola knew it. ‘Nell can go with someone else. Speaking of Nell, where is she?’
‘Taking yarn round to Aimée’s.’
‘Couldn’t Aimée take her to the joust?’
Nicola made a pleading gesture. ‘I would much rather she went with you. Clare, please. Nell’s a child and I’m afraid that when she is grown she will have forgotten Geoffrey. I want her to be able to remember him. If she sees a joust, it will strengthen her memory.’
‘Strengthen her memory?’
‘When you get there you can tell her about him. Explain what’s happening. Let her see she can be proud of her brother—an ordinary boy, who received his spurs. I want her to be able to remember him, the brother who didn’t forget his mother in her hour of need.’
On the table, the lead token gleamed like a baleful eye. Regret and sorrow held Clare’s tongue. This was becoming awkward. Nicola’s pride in her son was almost all she had and Clare wasn’t about to take that away from her. She felt herself weaken.
Geoffrey had made many mistakes in his life, but as far as Clare was concerned he was a Good Samaritan. He’d given her—a complete stranger—a roof over her head. He’d trusted her to look after his mother. For all his flaws, Geoffrey had loved his mother dearly and Clare knew he would want her to honour his mother’s wishes.
Taking Nell to the Twelfth Night Joust was, on the surface, a small favour. On the surface...
‘Nicola, what if the joust distresses her? There might be bloodshed.’ Clare repressed a shudder. True, the Twelfth Night Joust was reputed to be more of a show than a battle. A show put on for the ladies of Champagne. But it was still a joust. There would be fighting and Clare couldn’t stand the sight of blood. It reminded her of...of things best forgotten. Pushing that dark memory to the back of her mind, she had to swallow before she could continue. ‘Nell might remember that her brother lost his life at a tournament.’
‘Geoffrey wasn’t killed in the lists. Count Lucien explained how he was killed preventing an attack on Countess Isobel. That is entirely different, and Nell knows it. Please take her, Clare, she’d love to go with you.’
‘The Twelfth Night Joust,’ Clare murmured, shaking her head. ‘Holy