sorry.â Her lovely green eyes grew misty with suppressed emotion as she touched his hand in a brief gesture of sympathy. âThat must have been very hard for you.â
âI managed.â No way was he going to dump the rest of his sordid life on her. âMarsha and Ben were a godsend. I even got a sister out of the deal. Cindyâs a social worker in Calgary. She and Abby have worked together on several cases at Family Ties.â
Their food arrived. Caleb dug into his soup and sandwich with gusto until he noticed Mia picking at hers.
âIs something wrong with it?â Feeling helpless at the sight of her tears, he said, âMiaââ
âIâm being silly.â She sniffed and forced a smile. âItâs just that I havenât eaten out in such a long time. Harlan said we had to save moneyââ He saw anger flash in those green eyes before she looked down. âAnyway, itâs very nice of you to bring me here.â
Calebâs heart pinched at those words. She was grateful for a meal out? It emphasized the solitary life Mia had led. How could Harlan Granger have treated this sweet woman so shabbily?
âNow Iâve ruined your lunch.â She groaned. âIâm sorry.â
âNothingâs ruined.â He studied her for a moment. âI want to ask you something, Mia, but I donât know if I should.â
Her smile flickered nervously. âWhat is it?â
âSince youâre here in Buffalo Gap anyway, would you like to visit Lily?â Caleb held his breath as he waited for her answer.
âI donât know.â Miaâs fearful look returned.
âWe wouldnât have to tell her exactly who you are,â he reassured her. âItâs just that with her mother gone she gets lonely and...â He let it trail away, knowing he was asking too much when Lily was her husbandâs child with another woman. âNever mind.â
âActually, I think I would like to see her, as long as youâll be there.â Mia played with her teacup. âMaybe seeing her would bring some sense to this strange day.â
âGreat!â Caleb found himself grinning. âLilyâs a sweet girl. This was Rebaâs hometown. She used to come back and visit Lara a lot, so folks in town got to know Lily. In fact, over the years almost everyone in town has taken a turn babysitting her.â
âEven you?â Mia studied him from beneath her lashes.
âEven me,â he agreed quietly, remembering the fun times he and Lara had spent with Lily. âHer aunt and I used to date so Lily calls me her uncle.â
âUsed to date?â Mia stared at him, waiting.
âLara died six months ago.â He met her gaze and saw questions widening her eyes.
âOh. Where does Lily live now?â He thought Mia played with her cup to hide her expressions.
âOfficially Iâm her guardian. Lara and Reba lost their parents years ago, so Lilyâs staying with a woman named Hilda Vermeer, a foster mother.â He grimaced. âShe was a real tartar when I was a kid, but sheâs mellowed a lot since. I think Lily feels safe with her.â
âChildren should feel safe,â Mia murmured almost to herself.
âYour mother said that to me once.â Caleb figured it was unlikely that Harlan would talk about his former partner. He thought Mia must feel starved for details about her mother. Again that desire to protect her bloomed inside him.
âShe protected you from your father,â Mia said thoughtfully. âMaybe thatâs why she arranged for me to marry Harlan, to keep me safe.â
Not Piaâs best decision, Caleb mused, given the jerk Harlan turned out to be.
âItâs past three,â he said after checking his watch. âLily will be home from kindergarten. I could phone Hilda, ask her if we could come over.â He waited, certain that if Lily and Mia could form a bond, chances were that Mia might agree to support Harlanâs child and legal action against the estate wouldnât be necessary.
And you wouldnât feel so guilty for not adopting Lily yourself.
âI donât know.â Hesitation was written all over her face. But something dark and fearful also lurked in her eyes, something Caleb didnât understand.
âIt doesnât have to be a long visit,â he encouraged. âI drop in to see her most days. You can say hello.â She didnât look convinced, so he pushed harder. âDonât you want to see Harlanâs child?â
âYes, butââ A nerve ticked in her cheek âYou donât understand.â She glanced sideways at him, then sighed heavily. âToday has been full of surprises.â
âI know. It hasnât been easy for you and this must have come as quite a shock. But surely meeting a five-year-old girl doesnât scare you.â Caleb immediately regretted those words because it was clear Mia was panicking at meeting Lily. âIâll be right there,â he soothed. âWe can leave whenever you want.â
That seemed to ease her fears. âYouâre sure?â
âItâs just a meeting, thatâs all.â
âAs long as you stay. I canât be alone with her,â Mia said, her voice raspy.
âHilda and I will both be there.â He smiled. âIâm so glad youâre doing this. Youâll love Lily.â Caleb made the call and after a few minutesâ drive they were at Hildaâs.
Caleb saw Miaâs face soften when she caught sight of the little girl sitting in a corner of the porch. She studied Lily intensely, taking in every detail of her stepdaughter.
âWelcome. Iâve made us some iced tea. Itâs so lovely today weâll drink it on the porch,â Hilda said after Caleb had introduced Mia.
He wasnât surprised to see Lily hang back. Since her motherâs death sheâd become unsure and tentative about most things. He hated the way the little girl clung to Hildaâs skirt as if fearing sheâd be abandoned again. Caleb knew he wasnât capable of giving her what she needed, but he had a hunch Mia could, if she would.
âIced tea would be lovely. Thank you.â Mia smiled. The warmth in her words reached Hildaâs heart judging by Hildaâs wide smile.
âHave a seat. It wonât take me a minute.â The older woman bustled inside.
Caleb knew Lily would have preferred to follow Hilda, but that would have meant walking in front of Mia, thereby revealing her damaged leg. He felt his heart squeeze with regret, saddened to see the formerly bubbly child now standing silent in the corner, dark blue eyes riveted on Mia. He struggled to find a conversation opener and came up blank.
âItâs a lot of hair, isnât it?â Mia mused aloud, reaching a hand to her head. Though she didnât actually look at Lily, it was obvious the child was the target of her remark. âSometimes I wish it was shorter like yours. Your hair is so pretty. Those ribbons are perfect.â Mia caught her own hair in her hand and tried to twist it into a ponytail like Lilyâs.
âYou look like a clown.â Lily promptly burst into the giggles.
âI know.â Mia pulled out a small tablet and a pen from her purse and began sketching a clown with