house and went in through the back door.
Louisa was in the kitchen, her pretty face screwed up with peevishness.
‘You’re late,’ she began. ‘The twins are being little devils and they’ve both been sick.’
Emily made soothing murmurs; probably Louisa, who was only eighteen and impatient, had given them their morning feeds so fast that they had no choice but to bring the lot up again.
‘I can’t wait,’ went on Louisa loudly, ‘until I can get away from this hole…only another month, thank God!’
Emily unwound the scarf from her neck. ‘Yes, dear.’ She could have voiced her nightmare fears of what was going to happen when Louisa went; Mary, their elder sister, and the twins’ mother, was still in the Middle East, unable to leave until her husband had been cleared of some trumped-up charge about something or other to do with his work. She, and her husband, should have been home months ago; the twins were to have been left with Emily for three months, no longer, an arrangement which seemed sensible at the time; they were too young to take with her, Mary had decided, and besides, she had had no idea if she would be able to get adequate help, even a good doctor. Louisa, waiting to go into a school for modelling, was staying with Emily, and a month or two in a London flat, with both sisters to look after them, was the answer.
Only it hadn’t worked out like that. At the end of the three months, Mary had managed to get a message to Emily, begging her to look after the twins for another few months at least, and she, looking at them, rapidly growing from small babies to energetic large ones, quite overflowing the small flat close to the big London teaching hospital where she worked, decided that the only thing to do was to move to a small town where she might with luck find a house with a garden. Louisa hadn’t liked the idea, of course, but as Emily had pointed out in her sensible way, the babies mattered; she had promised to look after them until Mary and George came home again and until they did there was nothing else to do about it.
‘And after all, darling,’ Emily had explained patiently, ‘you’ll be starting your course in a few months’ time and probably they’ll be back by then—I know Mary said several months, but she couldn’t have meant that.’
She had been lucky, getting a post as staff nurse at the new hospital on the outskirts of London, with the prospect of a Sister’s post in a few months’ time. Of course it wasn’t a patch on Paul’s, where she had trained, but she couldn’t complain; she had found a house at a reasonable rent, and furnished it rather sparsely with the things she had brought from the London flat, odds and ends of furniture she had brought from home after her parents died. But the house had a small garden and the air was fresh, and if one looked out of the kitchen window one could see fields and trees—not real country, of course, it was too near London for that, but at least the twins could be taken out in their pram along the quieter roads around them.
Emily took off her coat and looked round the little kitchen. It looked untidy and not as clean as she would have liked. Louisa, understandably, hated housework, it spoilt her hands with their long fingers and tapering nails—although she tried hard, Emily told herself loyally, coping with the shopping and the babies.
She dismissed as unimportant the fact that Louisa only did what she had to do, and that grudgingly. At Louisa’s age—and with her pretty face and figure, it was understandable that she should want to avoid all the humdrum jobs; if she had been as pretty herself, she would doubtless have felt just the same. But she wasn’t pretty—oh, pleasant enough; at least she didn’t squint or have enormous ears, but her face was unspectacular and she was a little too plump; Louisa was always telling her so. Emily took it in good part. After all, Louisa hadn’t had the happy childhood and girlhood that she had had and she had loved her three years’ training, going home for days off and holidays while her parents were alive, and Mary in a good job at the local library until she had met George and married him. Louisa had been at school then, impatient to leave and make her mark in the world. She had known what she wanted to do; modelling—and as she had a small legacy due to her when she was eighteen and a half, no one could stop her enrolling at one of the London modelling schools; in a month she would be able to start. In the meantime, she cooled her heels with Emily and the twins and Emily used the money Mary had left for the twins’ needs, to house and feed Louisa too. It was a difficult business, making ends meet, and she had had to give up several small luxuries in order to do it, and when Louisa went she didn’t dare to think of the extra expense of getting baby-sitters to look after the twins while she was working. She would have to continue on night duty until Mary came to collect them and it was to be hoped that it would be soon, before Louisa went away.
Emily stifled a sigh and went upstairs to the babies’ room. They were both sitting up in their cots, a bouncing eight-month-old and disarmingly beautiful. William was an hour or so older than Claire but it was almost impossible to tell the difference between them, for each reflected the other one’s face. Emily, forgetting her tiredness, picked them up to cuddle them, and it wasn’t until Louisa called from the kitchen that she popped them back with their toys and went downstairs.
At the table Louisa said with faint defiance: ‘The hairdresser can only do me at half past nine—I’ll have to go.’
Emily, her mouth full of toast, did her best to sound cheerful. ‘Oh well, yes, of course, love— How long will you be?’
‘I’ll be back by eleven o’clock—I can take the twins out then. I’ll bath them this evening…’
Emily poured more tea. ‘I’ll bath them,’ and added without a vestige of truth, ‘I’m not tired.’ She smiled cheerfully in case Louisa felt guilty. ‘I’ll dress them ready to go out when you get back. It’s a beastly day, but they’ll be all right wrapped up.’
Louisa pouted. ‘Oh, Emily, must they go out? Pushing the pram in all this snow…’
‘I cycled back—it wasn’t too bad. It’s not for much longer, dear; think how you’re going to enjoy yourself living in London and meeting all sorts of exciting people. Did you hear about the flat?’
Louisa’s pretty face became animated. ‘Yes, it’s all settled; four of us, so it won’t cost much. The course only lasts two months and I’m bound to get a job.’
Emily, eyeing her pretty sister, thought that she most certainly would. It would be nice, she thought a little wistfully, to be as pretty as Louisa, so that men looked at one twice instead of not at all. She frowned, remembering Professor Jurres-Romeijn’s remarks, and Louisa said in a surprised way: ‘Gosh, you look simply furious—what’s wrong with me sharing a flat, for heaven’s sake?’
Emily blinked. ‘Not you, love, I was thinking about something quite different. Oughtn’t you to be going? I’ll wash up.’
She washed up and tidied the little house as well as seeing to the twins, and as Louisa didn’t get home until twelve o’clock, she wasn’t in bed until an hour later than that and by then too tired to bother her head about the Professor’s opinion of her. The snow was worse when she got up and she had to walk to the hospital after helping to feed the twins and get them to bed and then eating a meal herself, a kind of high tea so that she wouldn’t be too hungry during the night. Food in the canteen was expensive and although she managed very well, she had to be careful. She told herself often enough that it was good for her to eat less, she’d get slim that way.
The wards were full and busy and it took her and her junior nurse quite two hours to settle their occupants. Men in one ward, women in the other and a small ward for children besides. Terry, who had slept soundly all day after his tracheotomy, was wide awake, sitting up against his pillows, declaring that he wouldn’t be able to sleep like that, anyway. Emily soothed him in a reassuring voice and didn’t tell him that she would have to disturb him frequently throughout the night when she changed and cleaned the tube. She made sure that the suction machine was in position with plenty of Toronto catheters and that there was a tracheotomy mask handy in case she should need one, together with dilators, a spare tube and scissors. Her junior nurse was very junior, unfortunately, and it wouldn’t be fair to expect her to undertake any of the treatment; there should