‘Lorna has a life here,’ said Dee. ‘She has exams coming up. And she’s still recovering. Did she tell you she had cancer?’
‘She told me all about it,’ said Michael. ‘The full story. I will take care of her.’
‘Lorna, don’t do this,’ said Dee. ‘This is running away from your life. Not towards it. This is escape. Distraction.’ She turned on Michael. ‘Don’t you care that she’s studying? That you’re taking her away from her education?’
‘Sometimes real life is the best education,’ said Michael, stroking my arm and looking at me like I was something precious.
‘And what’s in it for you?’ Dee asked, arms still crossed. She knew the answer, of course. Sex on tap with a pliable, stupid teenager. But I have to hand it to Michael. Looking back, he never promised me anything. He was always upfront about who he was and what he was offering. It was me who filled in the blanks.
‘I want to go with him,’ I told Dee, nodding and nodding.
‘Lorna, I do not approve of this. It is not okay with me. This isn’t about rent or anything like that. It’s about your education and me caring about you. I swear to god, Lorna, if you go with him now, don’t come back when it all goes wrong.’
‘Fine,’ I said. ‘Rent my room out.’
Michael turned to me with soft eyes. ‘The tour bus is parked right up outside. Shall we get going?’
I laughed in happy shock. ‘Your tour bus is outside right now?’
Michael put hands on my shoulders. ‘We took a detour to come get you. To steal you away in the dead of night.’
‘What if she’d said no?’ Dee asked.
‘Soul mates don’t say no,’ said Michael with a flicker of a wink. ‘Go pack a suitcase, princess. Let’s get going.’
As I flung things into a bag – some clothes, books I was reading for school and all my make-up – Dee stood behind me. ‘Please. Please don’t do this.’
But when her words had no effect, Dee swung the other way again.
‘Fine. Be that way. Leave me all alone. Just don’t come crawling back to me when it all goes wrong.’
‘It’s not going to go wrong,’ I promised her. ‘This is destiny, Dee. Last night was the most amazing night. I’ve never felt this way about anyone. It’ll be fine. Better than fine. Don’t you think after everything I’ve been through I deserve my happily ever after?’
Dee let me go with a face that told me I’d broken her heart.
As far as I know, she never took Michael’s money.
I pace the kitchen, phone hot against my ear.
I’m calling the only other mother I know – Helen. And I don’t know her that well. She used to bring her daughter, Julianne, here for playdates when Liberty was younger, but Liberty hasn’t talked about Julianne in years. I know I’m clutching at straws. I need a Coke for all the straws I’m clutching at.
Liberty’s breakfast fruit plate sits on the breakfast table. I’ve left it there because clearing it away is like admitting Liberty’s gone. And that’s too painful.
Nick is on his way home. He was on his way to a personal training client when I rang him. Good guy that he is, he turned his car right around and came home, promising his client a month of free sessions.
The police have come and gone. They told me that Liberty is legally allowed to visit her father. There is no reason to suspect that Michael Reyji Ray would hurt anyone. There’s nothing on record. It’s all fine. Leave her to it.
‘Michael Reyji Ray is not a good person,’ I said over and over again. I got the familiar looks of disbelief.
Michael Reyji Ray. Environmentalist. Music legend. Happily married to his childhood sweetheart. And what a dancer. A bad guy? You’ve got to be kidding – I have three of his albums. And I had the biggest crush on him when I was a teenager …
I pace by the gate as the phone rings and rings. Eventually a voice clicks on the line.
‘Hello?’
‘Hello?’ I start gabbling like a maniac. ‘Helen? Liberty’s gone. Might Julianne know where she is?’
‘Miss Miller?’
I hesitate. ‘Julianne? Is that you? When did you grow up? You sound just like your mother.’
‘Yes, it’s me, Miss Miller. Mum left for work already.’
‘Do you know where Liberty is, Julianne? She … she wasn’t in her bed when I woke up this morning.’
‘I’m very sorry to hear that,’ says Julianne.
‘You … I mean, you girls were friends once. Has she told you anything?’
‘We were friends about a hundred years ago,’ says Julianne, sounding suddenly prim. ‘Liberty changed. She doesn’t play chess or scrabble anymore … and now she’s into all that punk rock music stuff.’
‘She talked about someone called Abi. Do you know who that is?’
‘Oh, her. Yes, they hang out all the time, singing. Everyone thinks they’re going to be famous.’
‘Do you have a number for her?’
‘No. I don’t even have Liberty’s number anymore. Have you tried calling Liberty? She has a phone, doesn’t she?’
‘She doesn’t have her phone with her. I took it last night.’
‘Have you looked on her phone? For friends’ phone numbers?’
‘Her phone is locked. I don’t have the passcode. Where could she be?’
‘I have no idea, Miss Miller. We don’t really hang out anymore. I don’t appreciate Liberty’s attitude at school, to be honest. She thinks she’s better than everyone, just because she’s in a band. We don’t have an awful lot in common.’
‘A band? Liberty’s in a band?’ Panic. Utter panic.
‘Well … yeah. Didn’t you know? They think they’re going to be like the Beatles or something. Well, not the Beatles. I don’t know what sort of music they play.’
‘I didn’t know she was in a band.’ Nausea rises again. And then I start rambling: ‘Julianne. I think … maybe Liberty’s gone to see her father.’
Julianne hesitates. ‘There’s someone I could call. One of Liberty’s bandmates. Freddy. He’s okay. He’s in chess club with me. He might know where she is.’ I can almost hear her nodding at the phone. ‘I’ll text you his number.’
Julianne hangs up and I grab an ancient packet of cigarettes from the kitchen drawer and do something I haven’t done for years – smoke.
When the text finally comes through, I’ve smoked a cigarette right down to the butt, coughing after every inhale.
God bless Julianne’s reliability. I call the number and a young guy with a cracking, adolescent voice answers.
‘Hello?’
‘Hi … Freddy? This is Lorna. Liberty’s mother.’
‘Oh.’ A long pause. ‘Liberty told me about you.’
He means ‘warned’ of course. I take the bullet.
‘Listen, Freddy. Liberty has gone. She ran away this morning.’
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