how do you do it?” Hope asked. “How do you stay here and let Arvin come to your bed?”
“I’ve been telling myself the dissatisfaction I feel is Satan tempting me away from the truth but—” she tucked her dress around her legs “—you’ve probably already guessed it’s not working. If it was, I wouldn’t be here right now. I’d be protecting myself from your ‘dangerous influence,’ as Daddy told us all to do after we saw you today.”
“That was generous of him,” Hope muttered. “I guess he feels a little differently about prodigals than the father in the Bible did, huh?”
“He said the prodigal in the Bible was humble and repentant.” She turned her face toward the cemetery. “If it makes you feel any better, I don’t think it was easy for him to spurn you today.”
Hope didn’t want to debate the issue. She had almost no feelings left for her father. She’d never had many positive ones to begin with. “What does Mother say about your situation with Arvin?”
“She claims having a baby will help. But she admitted the loneliness will probably never disappear.”
“Don’t you think that’s a tragedy?”
“What?”
“To expect to be lonely your whole life, when you’re beautiful and healthy and only eighteen?”
Faith bit her lip as she seemed to consider Hope’s words. “I think she sees it as a burden we, as women, must band together and carry,” she said at last.
“Why?” Hope asked.
“For a greater reward later on, after this life.”
“You just told me you’re not sure the church’s teachings are correct. That means your sacrifice might be for nothing.”
No response.
“You don’t have to stay here,” Hope said. “There’s a whole world out there, Faith.”
“What about Mother? And my sisters? I have nieces and nephews and friends here.”
Hope noticed she didn’t mention her husband or their father.
“You can’t live your whole life for other people,” Hope said. “You have to let them make their decisions, and you have to make yours.”
“But I’m not as strong as you are, Hope. I’m not sure I can make it on my own. And sometimes what I hear in church really speaks to me, you know? Sometimes I think Daddy has to be right.”
“So did I,” Hope said. “Maybe he’s not wrong about some things. I believe it’s important to live a good life, to be honest, to serve others, to develop your talents. But is this the best place to do that? What about your baby? If it’s a girl, do you want her to have a plural marriage? To endure the emotional starvation of sharing her husband with who-knew-how-many other women. To have no hope of living without so much guilt she can hardly function?”
The moon bathed Faith’s troubled face in silver when she tilted her head to look at Hope. “Were you able to give your baby anything better?”
“I hope so.” Hope leaned her forehead against the cool metal chain above her right hand. “I have no guarantees, but at least I improved the odds.”
“So you’re okay with knowing you’ll never see your own child?”
Faith’s question was certainly blunt, even ruthless in a way, but there was no condemnation in her voice, only a sincere desire to plumb Hope’s regrets, to see how she’d lived and to know if the outside world was truly better.
“There are times I’m not okay with that at all. But I was promised she’d go to a good family, and I still trust the people who told me that.” Hope pictured the arresting face of the young administrator of The Birth Place. Parker Reynolds had been there to encourage her at a pivotal point in her life. And Lydia Kane, so alive with over sixty years of intense, passionate living, had set the supreme example of what a woman could be. Together, they’d inspired Hope to pull her life together, regardless of the obstacles in her path, and become an obstetrics nurse. But she’d had to leave Enchantment behind to do so. She couldn’t live somewhere that would forever remind her of the child she’d given away, forever tease her with the possibility that she might someday bump into her daughter.
“What are you thinking about?” Faith asked.
Hope steered her mind away from that long-ago place of adobe buildings, red sunsets, brisk clean air and pine-scented mountains. “Just that I’m glad my baby won’t have to go through what I went through,” she said. “Adoption provided her with a complete family, one that had the means to take care of her. But things are different for you, Faith. You wouldn’t have to give up your baby. You’d have a place to live, food to eat, a chance to go to school. That’s why I’m here. To help you, if you want my help.”
Uncertainty clouded her sister’s face.
“Don’t you ever dream of leaving?” Hope pressed.
“All the time,” Faith whispered.
Hope’s pulse leaped at the longing in her voice. “Then tell me what you want most out of life.”
“I want…” Her sister scuffed her toe in the dirt again. “Never mind,” she said. “It doesn’t matter.”
Wrapping her arms around the chains of her swing, Hope leaned back to stare at the sky. “It matters, Faith. Dreams always matter. See those stars? You need to pick one and shoot right for it.”
Faith gazed up at the night sky. “The star I want is too far away.”
“Not if you really believe in it.”
“I want to feel good about myself,” her sister said softly. “And…and sometimes I dream of having a man of my own. A young man, who’ll devote his whole heart to me and our children.” She laughed in a self-deprecating manner. “I know it sounds vain and selfish, and Father would say I deserve to lose my salvation if I can’t be happy with a good, God-fearing man, regardless of his age. But I don’t love Arvin, Hope. I want to love the man whose children I’m bearing.”
Her last words were spoken so reverently they sounded almost like a prayer. “Every woman should have that right,” Hope said.
“No, those are evil thoughts, and I’m evil for thinking them.”
“They’re not evil,” Hope argued. “And neither are you.” Standing, she reached out to Faith. “Come with me. I’ll take you home and tomorrow I’ll show you a whole new world.”
Faith’s eyes went wide. “I can’t, Hope. As much as I want to—”
“Faith, you’re miserable. How long can you really expect to last? Don’t wait until you have more children. Then it’ll only be worse. You’ll feel even more trapped.”
Faith twisted the gold band on the finger of her left hand. “But I’ve made promises.”
“What about the unspoken promise of a mother to her child? Your promise to your child?”
She closed her eyes. “I hear what you’re saying, Hope. Part of me believes you’re right. I just—”
“What?”
She looked up again. “I don’t know if I can do it. It goes against everything—”
“Do it for your baby.”
“And if I regret leaving?”
“You won’t,” Hope said.
The confidence of this declaration seemed to be just what Faith needed, because she straightened as though feeling a sense of resolution. “Okay.” She stood up and took Hope’s hand. “Let’s go. Let’s get out of here fast, before—”
“Before