stared into the older woman’s eyes. He admired their sharpness. He had a feeling you couldn’t hide much from those eyes. “No, I wasn’t dead, although the government thought I was. I was missing in action for almost a year before being recused.”
For some reason he felt he should provide her an explanation. She nodded and her lips creased into a smile. “I’m glad you came back alive. You’re going to love that little boy up there. He’s a sweetheart.”
Bristol groaned. “You shouldn’t say things that aren’t true, Ms. Charlotte. You and I both know he’s just gotten the hang of the terrible twos.”
“Like I’ve always said, boys will be boys. I should know after raising four of my own.” She then glanced at her watch. “Time for me to leave. I’m sure the two of you have a lot to talk about,” she said, heading for the door.
She glanced back at them, specifically at Laramie, and said, “I’m glad you’re here.” The older woman then opened the door and closed it behind her.
Laramie saw Bristol was focused on the painting that hung over her fireplace. He’d seen it before. In Paris. In her bedroom. It had hung directly over her bed. She’d told him it was one she’d painted with someone. He’d been amazed how the beauty of the Point Arena Lighthouse had been captured so magnificently on canvas. The painting was so vivid it seemed that the waves from the Pacific were hitting the shoreline. He recalled visiting the actual lighthouse years ago with his parents.
“Bristol?”
She switched her gaze to him. “Yes?”
“Are you okay?”
She stood beside a lamp and the light illuminated her. He was thinking then what he’d thought when he’d first seen her. She was beautiful. In the bright light, he could study her. See more. Her dark hair was swept up and away from her face in a way that seemed to make her features even more striking. Especially with those earrings in her ears...
It was then that he remembered. He’d given her the earrings as a gift. It seemed the Christmas ornaments weren’t the only thing she’d kept.
“You’re ready to see him?”
“Yes.”
She nodded. “He’s asleep, so whatever you do, try not to wake him. Laramie can be a handful when awakened from his sleep. He doesn’t like that very much.”
“I won’t wake him.”
“Okay. Then follow me please.”
She headed up the stairs and he followed, feeling his stomach knot with every step. This was crazy. He’d faced bitter enemies without flinching. Yet knowing that at the end of these steps was a child he’d helped to create had nervous tension flowing through him.
The moment they reached the landing she turned to him. “This way. His bedroom is next to mine so I can hear him at night.”
He nodded, inhaling her scent. It was soft, subtle—jasmine. He recalled that was her favorite fragrance and for those three days they’d spent together it had become his.
He hung back when she opened the door and entered the bedroom. She turned on a small lamp. His gaze raked the room. It had bright yellow walls and a mural of zoo animals gathered around an image of someone reading a book.
Then there was the toy box in the corner. He smiled, remembering how he would pull all his toys out of the box at the beginning of the day as a boy, only to have to put them back at the end. His parents always had a full-time housekeeper and undoubtedly, she’d figured the more she taught him to do in his playroom, the less she would have to do.
He watched Bristol move toward the bed. From the doorway he could see the small sleeping form beneath the blanket. A mop of dark curly hair peeped out and he instantly recalled the pictures he’d seen of himself as a child with the same mass of curly hair. His parents hadn’t given him his first haircut until he was about four.
When Bristol stopped by the bed, he moved to where she stood as blood pounded in his temples. He looked down and his heart stopped. Suddenly, he was bombarded with emotions he couldn’t keep in check. He was looking down at his child. His son.
His son.
A son he and Bristol had made together during their three days of heated passion. Three days he hadn’t been able to forget. Three days, the memory of which had helped him maintain his sanity when any normal person would have lost it.
He had expected to feel something. But not this. Not this overflowing of emotions filling him to capacity, taking hold of his mind and heart. He might not have been interested in fathering a child before, but the thought that he’d fathered this one had intense pride tightening his shoulders then spreading all the way down to his gut.
Since his child was lying on his stomach, he could only see one side of his face. That was enough. His mind rang out with the words... He’s mine. All mine.
Um, not quite, he thought, glancing at the woman by his side. His son was hers, too. That was a fact he couldn’t forget.
She met his gaze. At that moment, something passed between them and this time it wasn’t sexual in nature. It was an unspoken understanding that no matter what, this child—their child—would always come first. He understood and accepted the pledge.
“Does he sleep through the night?” he whispered. He had to say something. He wanted to know so much. He wanted to know everything.
A smile touched her lips. “If you’re hoping he’d awake anytime soon, no such luck,” she whispered back. “He usually fights sleep tooth and nail, but when he’s out, he’s out until the next day.”
“May I come back tomorrow to see him? Spend time with him?”
She didn’t answer. Why? All he needed was a yes or no, preferably yes. Instead, she whispered, “Let’s go back downstairs and talk about it.”
Talk about it? Did she think her answer would make him yell and risk waking up his son? What was there to talk about? This was his son. She’d said so. He’d believed her even without seeing all of him. Drawing in a deep breath, he hoped like hell there was not about to be any drama. The only true drama he enjoyed was of the SEALs kind.
He followed her out the door and back down the stairs. “Would you like a cup of coffee or a beer, Laramie?”
“A beer will be fine.”
“I’ll be right back.”
In a way, he was glad she’d left him alone for a few moments to deal with all these emotions. Was she deliberately stalling? Would she try to deny him rights to his son? She’d said the reason she’d tried writing to him three years ago was because she’d wanted him to know she was pregnant. He’d just seen his child. Now what? Did she expect him to walk away? Should he consider obtaining an attorney so he could know his rights as a father? All he knew was that his son had his name. Bristol even had his name, although they weren’t legally married.
He rubbed a hand down his face. The hour was late. Was he overthinking things? If he was, it wouldn’t be the first time. He was a suspicious bastard by nature. He rarely took anything at face value.
She returned with a beer for him and a cup of tea for herself. He remembered how she would drink a cup of tea every morning and every night before bedtime. He would get all turned on just watching how she sipped her tea.
“Let’s sit in there,” she said, indicating the living room. “Although I loved my studio apartment in Paris, it’s nice to have more room here, especially with Laramie.”
She sat down but he remained standing. Her calmness kicked up the uncertainty inside him even more. Was this when she would tell him he could have no part in his child’s life or that he would only get whatever part she chose to give him?
He opened his beer and took a huge swig. The cool liquid felt refreshing going down his throat. He glanced over at her and saw