like to know which one of you is angry.”
They look at each other.
“Angry?” says my Forever Dad.
I nod my head yes.
“Why would one of us be angry?”
“Because there are tire tracks on the front lawn. Which one of you peeled out?”
“Wait,” he says. “You think that because there are tire tracks on the front lawn, one of us is angry?”
I nod my head yes again.
My Forever Mom makes a little smile and then a long breathing sound. “Well, I guess this is going to be easier than we thought,” she says. “Ginny, neither one of us made those tire tracks.”
I am confused so I stand there thinking.
“Let’s get back to the first question first,” says my Forever Dad. “Did anything interesting happen at school?”
“No,” I say again.
“Did you make a phone call?”
“No.”
“Did anyone come to visit you?”
“No.”
“Did anyone ask for your address?”
“Do you mean today?”
My Forever Dad looks at my Forever Mom quick and then looks back at me. “Yes. Of course we mean today.”
“Then no.”
“Then no?” says my Forever Dad. “What about yesterday, then? Did anyone ask for your address yesterday?”
But that was two questions in a row and I’m not sure which one to answer. Plus it’s a rule that I can answer only one question at a time. Because I have only one mouth and I don’t know which question is more pressing. So I shake my head and keep my mouth shut tight, tight, tight. Just in case.
My Forever Mom looks at my Forever Dad. She puts her hand on her chin. “Well, then, how the hell did she track us down?” she says.
So I say, “How the hell did who track us down?”
“The person who peeled out on the front lawn,” my Forever Dad says. “But don’t worry, she’s gone. The police made her leave.”
“So you’re not still angry at me about the plastic electronic baby doll?”
He looks at me in a funny way again. “Angry isn’t the right word,” my Forever Dad says. “We’re concerned, is all.”
I wonder if they are lying. Gloria lies all the time. Then I start wondering if maybe they found out that Gloria is on her way because angry is what everyone would be if they knew. I pick and pick at my fingers and close my eyes and say, “Will someone please, please, please tell me which one of you is angry?” because you have to be careful around angry people. They get mad and hit.
Then my Forever Mom says, “Ginny, we already told you. No one here is angry. You’re safe. We can talk about the tire tracks some other time. What’s with the frowning face? Now, go wash up and get dressed. You’re going to the apple cider farm next week, and you’ve got a birthday coming up! And you’re going to see Patrice on Wednesday! We already talked with her and made the appointment. Maybe you should mark it on your calendar.”
But that wasn’t a question so I don’t say anything. Plus what she said about the apple cider farm wasn’t true. My class is going there on September 21st, not next week. And now I can’t remember what I was worried about but when I look up I see my Forever Parents looking at me and smiling. I smile back.
“Ginny, would you like a hug?” my Forever Mom says.
I would so I let her give me one. She has to lean forward because her belly is so big.
“Now go change your clothes,” she says.
I go into my room and change into my play clothes. I look out the window at the yard and see the tire tracks again.
And I remember.
It’s hard for me to figure things out sometimes. I get distracted and forget to look at what I’m supposed to look at. Or I go so deep in my brain that I forget what I’m supposed to know. But I know now that no one here at the Blue House is angry. No one yelled and no one hit me. Someone else made the tire tracks but she’s gone now so I can get ready for Gloria. When she comes to school I’ll run out to the Green Car to see if my Baby Doll is with her. If it isn’t then I’m going to have to get in the car and go back to the apartment. Even though I don’t want to. Even though I know what will happen to me. Because I have to see if my Baby Doll is still in the suitcase. If it is and I’m not too late then I need to take it out and take excellent care of it. I can tell that Gloria hasn’t changed a bit. I remember all the drugs and cats and the strange men at night. I remember what she used to do to me when I made too much noise. But the worst part is Donald. He’s going to be really, really mad when he finds out what I did. He’s going to make me dead. Gloria said so.
And I believe her even though she’s the one who lies.
Whenever Gloria left to get more Maine coons or see her dealer I had my Baby Doll to keep me company but now my Baby Doll is there by itself. I don’t know if you can hear anything when you’re zipped up tight inside a suitcase. Waiting.
So I have to go back.
Maybe when I run out to the Green Car, Gloria will be in a good place. Maybe she’ll get out and give me a big hug and say, “Holy shit, Ginny! You have really grown! Your eyes are still green? Even though you got adopted and changed your name, you’ll always have green eyes. Just like us!”
I hope she is right.
6:45 IN THE MORNING, FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 10TH
It is 6:45 which means it is time for school. I have my backpack on and my flute case and I am wearing my watch. I wear my watch everywhere I go except the shower.
My Forever Dad is with me. Usually he stands in the screen porch while I go out to get on the bus but today he wanted to come along. We are walking across the grass to where the bus comes which is at the end of the driveway. We pass the tire tracks. On the ground near one of the tracks I see a white plastic box so I pick it up. It is a Tic Tac box with five white Tic Tacs inside. I hold the box up and count the Tic Tacs two more times. I shake them. They rattle.
“What’s that?” my Forever Dad says.
I don’t answer. Gloria always had Tic Tacs. She always smelled like Tic Tacs and cigarettes. White ones were her favorite.
Then I remember that the curtains in the screen porch smelled like cigarettes too.
I look at my Forever Dad and shake the Tic Tacs. I point to them. “These are from Gloria,” I say.
My Forever Dad makes a breathing sound with his mouth. He nods. “Yes, they probably are,” he says.
Then he takes them because he says they might be dirty even though I promise not to eat any.
“How did they get here?” I say.
“Well...” he says but then he doesn’t say anything else.
What this means is that Gloria came here to the Blue House. Yesterday. That was where the tire tracks came from. She was the angry person. She came when I was at school. Then she peeled out and left. Which means she came to the wrong place. Which means I won’t be able to run out to the parking lot to see if my Baby Doll is in the Green Car with her. I won’t be able to go back to the apartment and check inside the suitcase.
To make sure I say, “Did