Never have been.”
“Engaged?”
“Nope.”
“Gay?”
“Not so far as I can tell.” He grinned.
“Wait a minute. Are you saying you’re attainable?”
He laughed softly. “I’d like to think I am.”
“Hmm. So then, about that sex stuff. Can we get down to it now?”
The grin widened. “I thought you’d never ask.”
For my part, I’d ventured into this with one thing in mind—well, almost one thing—to get information out of Dan Rucker. But we didn’t talk at all, aside from some rather wild and passionate utterances that would have embarrassed me if I’d had neighbors on the other side of the wall.
He was a pretty good lover, quite skilled in the ways of pleasing a woman. But he still wasn’t my type. And his beard scratched. He turned out to be cleaner, though, than I’d expected—and he still smelled like oranges warming in a noonday sun.
I never did get any information out of him, but never in my life had I felt anything like the way I’d felt with him. It seemed we matched in all ways physical, as if we’d rehearsed a thousand years ago for this moment—corny as that sounds.
When it was over, we both leaned back on the pillows and stared at the ceiling. He was the first to speak. “That was really…different,” he said.
I was lying in a pool of sweat, and only half of it was from the hot Santa Ana winds. I cringed. “Different good? Or different bad?”
He leaned on an elbow and kissed my lips, rubbing his lightly back and forth over mine, and ending at the tip of my nose. “Different like…well, like your Poor Man’s Lasagna.”
I struggled to remember what he’d said about that. Thick? Fatty? Greasy?
No. Absolutely wonderful was what he’d said. I smiled.
“Do you have any orange juice?” he asked.
“Second shelf. Fridge.” I turned on my side and snuggled under the down comforter.
“Well, don’t get up,” he said pointedly. “Let me get it.”
“You’re a prince,” I murmured, yawning.
He swatted me on the ass.
While he rummaged in the kitchen, I thought about what had just happened. Truthfully, waking up in my bed beside Dan Rucker at five after midnight made me feel like the Whore of Babylon. I hadn’t had sex in four years, and the lack of it hadn’t bothered me much. Most of the men I’d been with didn’t know an orgasm from a mild spasm, so the minute I’d get excited they’d let go and then quit on me. Eventually I found my work more thrilling, and it lasted longer, so I focused on that.
Except, of course, for my fixation on Tony. I don’t know what I’d have done if we’d ever made love and it hadn’t turned out well. With no more fantasies in that department, I might have had to settle down in a rocking chair and knit afghans.
The good detective came back with juice for both of us, so I sat up, pulled the sheets up to my neck with one hand and took the drink with the other. He stretched out beside me, leaning back against the headboard. For a few minutes we sipped our juice without talking. It felt really weird, this man in my bed, a man I hardly knew and yet had shared something rather spectacular with.
Staring out at the now-dark ocean—anywhere but into those dreamy liquid eyes that were so much like Paul Newman’s—I sipped my juice and said, “It’s cooling off out there.”
“The Santa Anas are still blowing, though,” he said. “They make me crazy. Always have.”
“Me, too. In fact, I wonder if that’s what happened with Tony, Arnold and Craig. Some random killer crazed by the winds.”
“Who just happens to hit people you’re close to?” he said skeptically.
I sighed. “No, I guess not. But, look, you don’t really think I killed them, do you?”
“You mean, have I changed my mind because we had sex?”
“No, I mean because you wouldn’t have slept with me if you thought I was a killer.”
“What makes you think that?”
“Oh, how the hell do I know!” I said irritably, grabbing my robe and getting out of bed. I crossed over to the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror over the sink.
God, I looked awful. Between circles under my eyes from lack of sleep and the matted hair, I looked like an escapee from a Colombian prison.
I started to brush my teeth. “Let’s forget about you for a minute,” I said, spitting. “Does anyone in the LAPD think they could be gay crimes?”
“I’m not sure. Were all three of them gay?”
“Actually, none were, that I knew of. But those dildos…”
“I’m no expert,” he said, coming up behind me and pulling the collar of my robe aside to plant a kiss on my bare shoulder, “but I’ve been told that women use ‘help’ of that sort as much as men. In fact, more.”
I knew that, but hadn’t thought about it in this case. “I just wondered…I guess because I’ve heard that the gay crowd in West Hollywood is into those and Tony used to hang out a lot in West Hollywood. But Arnold? And Craig?” I shook my head. “You must have talked to a few people by now. Neighbors in Tony’s building, friends, maybe even enemies. Are there any you suspect?”
He looked at me in the mirror and raised his eyebrows.
“Other than me,” I said.
He stood beside me and studied his beard, combing it with his fingers. “As for Craig Dinsmore, the LAPD doesn’t have jurisdiction in El Segundo. We may know more about a connection between them when we get the DNA tests and evidence back from Price’s apartment. If there is a connection, we may also be asked to assist with the El Segundo PD’s investigation.”
“There is evidence, then? Something you may be able to arrest someone with?”
He grinned and went back into the bedroom, pulling on his pants and shirt. “I think I’ve said enough. And with very little payoff.”
“Sex with me wasn’t a good payoff?” I called out.
He laughed. “I was actually hoping for more information from you about the three murder victims. But since you ask…” He turned at the door. “I didn’t see sex with you as a payoff. I thought it was more like fun.”
I smiled and pondered that after he left, slipping into a pair of flannel pajama trousers and a sleeveless tee. Then I lay on my bed and listened to the waves crash for a while, until I fell asleep.
It was not to be an easy night, however, and there was more than sweetness and light to come.
I was dreaming about Craig and Arnold and crushed foreheads, Tony and my lost income, when my doorbell rang. I woke with a start and looked at my bedside clock: 1:25 a.m. Not very many people knew where I lived, and none of them would come here at this hour without calling first.
Had the scruffy detective come back for more? Or had he come to arrest me this time?
I drew my silk Chinese robe around me and walked to the front door, turning on a couple of lights along the way. Looking through the peephole I saw a woman blinking in the bright glare of the motion-sensitive light above my front door.
She seemed disheveled and badly dressed, like women I’ve seen on the streets, sleeping in cardboard boxes. I shivered in the cold dampness that blew in from the ocean through a crack I’d left open in a window. I couldn’t imagine what this woman wanted with me, but was