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женщина в моем кабинете. Порой мы не знаем границы своих здоровой и безумной частей, особенно когда мания душит нас одержимостью. Прим. авт.

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      Так размышляла моя восемнадцатилетняя клиентка, открывшая себя для сексуальной близости и романтичной любви, но не спешащая привязываться. А может быть, она просто боялась силы чувств? Боялась потерять контроль и стать уязвимой, а потому обесценивала и рационализировала (умничала, иными словами), защищая себя от возможных душевных ран? Прим. авт.

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