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Love Has No Gender - Pride Month Special Series


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me. A little goes a great way with me, for I can only pick up one thing at a time."

      "What kind of knowledge are you looking for, Joseph?" Lucy gravely asked.

      "Of myself," said he, and his face grew dark.

      "That's a true word!" Elwood involuntarily exclaimed. He then caught Lucy's eye, and awkwardly added: "It's about what we all want, I take it."

      Joseph recovered himself in a moment, and proposed looking over the work. They walked slowly along the embankment, listening to Elwood's account of what had been done and what was yet to do, when the Hopeton carriage came up the highway, near at hand. Mrs. Hopeton sat in it alone.

      "I was looking for you, Lucy," she called. "If you are going towards the cutting, I will join you there."

      She sent the coachman home with the carriage, and walked with them on the track. Joseph felt her presence as a relief, but Elwood confessed to himself that he was a little disturbed by the steady glance of her dark eyes. He had already overcome his regret at the interruption of his rare and welcome chance of talking with Lucy, but then Joseph knew his heart, while this stately lady looked as if she were capable of detecting what she had no right to know. Nevertheless, she was Lucy's friend, and that fact had great weight with Elwood.

      "It's rather a pity to cut into the hills and bank up the meadows in this way, isn't it?" he asked.

      "And to disturb my school with so much hammering," Lucy rejoined; "when the trains come I must retreat."

      "None too soon," said Mrs. Hopeton. "You are not strong, Lucy, and the care of a school is too much for you."

      Elwood thanked her with a look, before he knew what he was about.

      "After all," said Joseph, "why shouldn't nature be cut up? I suppose everything was given up to us to use, and the more profit the better the use, seems to be the rule of the world. 'Beauty grows out of Use,' you know."

      His tone was sharp and cynical, and grated unpleasantly on Lucy's sensitive ear.

      "I believe it is a rule in art," said Mrs. Hopeton, "that mere ornament, for ornament's sake, is not allowed. It must always seem to answer some purpose, to have a necessity for its existence. But, on the other hand, what is necessary should be beautiful, if possible."

      "A loaf of bread, for instance," suggested Elwood.

      They all laughed at this illustration, and the conversation took a lighter turn. By this time they had entered the narrower part of the valley, and on passing around a sharp curve of the track found themselves face to face with Philip and Madeline Held.

      If Mrs. Hopeton's heart beat more rapidly at the unexpected meeting, she preserved her cold, composed bearing. Madeline, bright and joyous, was the unconscious agent of unconstraint, in whose presence each of the others felt immediately free.

      "Two inspecting committees at once!" cried Philip. "It is well for you, Withers, that you didn't locate the line. My sister and I have already found several unnecessary curves and culverts."

      "And we have found a great deal of use and no beauty," Lucy answered.

      "Beauty!" exclaimed Madeline. "What is more beautiful than to see one's groceries delivered at one's very door? Or to have the opera and the picture-gallery brought within two hours' distance? How far are we from a lemon, Philip?"

      "You were a lemon, Mad, in your vegetable, pre-human state; and you are still acid and agreeable."

      "Sweets to the sweet!" she gayly cried. "And what, pray, was Miss Henderson?"

      "Don't spare me, Mr. Held," said Lucy, as he looked at her with a little hesitation.

      "An apple."

      "And Mrs. Hopeton?"

      "A date-palm," said Philip, fixing his eyes upon her face.

      She did not look up, but an expression which he could not interpret just touched her lips and faded.

      "Now, it's your turn, Miss Held," Elwood remarked: "what were we men?"

      "O, Philip a prickly pear, of course; and you, well, some kind of a nut; and Mr. Asten—"

      "A cabbage," said Joseph.

      "What vanity! Do you imagine that you are all head,—or that your heart is in your head? Or that you keep the morning dew longer than the rest of us?"

      "It might well be," Joseph answered; and Madeline felt her arm gently pinched by Philip, from behind. She had tact enough not to lower her pitch of gayety too suddenly, but her manner towards Joseph became grave and gentle. Mrs. Hopeton said but little: she looked upon the circling hills, as if studying their summer beauty, while the one desire in her heart was to be away from the spot,—away from Philip's haunting eyes.

      After a little while, Philip seemed to be conscious of her feeling. He left his place on the opposite side of the track, took Joseph's arm and led him a little aside from the group.

      "Philip, I want you!" Joseph whispered; "but no, not quite yet. There is no need of coming to you in a state of confusion. In a day or two more I shall have settled a little."

      "You are right," said Philip: "there is no opiate like time, be there never so little of it. I felt the fever of your head in your hand. Don't come to me, until you feel that it is the one thing which must be done! I think you know why I say so."

      "I do!" Joseph exclaimed. "I am just now more of an ostrich than anything else; I should like to stick my head in the sand, and imagine myself invisible. But—Philip—here are six of us together. One other, I know, has a secret wound, perhaps two others: is it always so in life? I think I am selfish enough to be glad to know that I am not specially picked out for punishment."

      Philip could not help smiling. "Upon my soul," he said, "I believe Madeline is the only one of the six who is not busy with other thoughts than those we all seem to utter. Specially picked out? There is no such thing as special picking out, in this world! Joseph, it may seem hard and schoolmaster-like in me again to say 'wait!' yet that is the only word I can say."

      "Good evening, all!" cried Elwood. "I must go down to my men; but I'd be glad of such an inspection as this, a good deal oftener."

      "I'll go that far with you," said Joseph.

      Mrs. Hopeton took Lucy's arm with a sudden, nervous movement. "If you are not too tired, let us walk over the hill," she said; "I want to find the right point of view for sketching our house."

      The company dissolved. Philip, as he walked up the track with his sister, said to himself: "Surely she was afraid of me. And what does her fear indicate? What, if not that the love she once bore for me still lives in her heart, in spite of time and separated fates? I should not, dare not think of her; I shall never again speak a word to her which her husband might not hear; but I cannot tear from me the dream of what she might be, the knowledge of what she is, false, hopeless, fatal, as it all may be!"

      "Elwood," said Joseph, when they had walked a little distance in silence, "do you remember the night you spent with me, a year ago?"

      "I'm not likely to forget it."

      "Let me ask you one question, then. Have you come nearer to Lucy Henderson?"

      "If no further off means nearer, and it almost seems so in my case,—yes!"

      "And you see no difference in her,—no new features of character, which you did not guess, at first?"

      "Indeed, I do!" Elwood emphatically answered. "To me she grows less and less like any other woman,—so right, so straightforward, so honest in all her ways and thoughts! If I am ever tempted to do anything—well, not exactly mean, you know, but such as a man might as well leave undone, I have only to say to myself: 'If you're not thoroughly good, my boy, you'll lose her!' and that does the business, right away. Why, Joseph, I'm proud of myself, that I mean to deserve her!"

      "Ah!" A sigh, almost a groan, came from Joseph's lips. "What will you think of me?" he said. "I was about to repeat your own words,—to warn