initiatives with relatives and friends so they could also experience the things I would honestly enjoy myself. In order to release from obligation to match diaries, activities were split in time, locations and the interest. A special group had been created for communication on events. The guests were welcome at any of them or could happily join all three in a row. That was a matter of own preference and availability. Thus planned, designed, my celebration started.
For Art we made a visit to the State Art Gallery. At that time the chance was for a famous exhibition of the nationally be-loved and world-wide known painter, Valentin Serov. Four hours of acquaintance with his life and works flew in the stream of eagerness for discovery. Information nourished us fruitfully from various sources: Wikipedia, audioguide, exposition plates beside the pictures, short video reviews from the Tretyakov’s Gallery, collection of family photos, and magazine articles dated those times. The remarkable is that the knowledge tends to come until a certain point of filling. Then you stop learning and begin perceiving works as they are in nature: every piece, every character, every shade of a portrait. I felt the energy it was sending and the story behind. I started my notes to record faces of that age: writers, choreographers, ballet dancers, lawyers, historian, archeologist, Maecenas and industrialists, members of the family, royalties, and peasants. I saw my guests being touched by the beauty. Keeping silence. Thinking it through. The exposition came to its end, and we left the Gallery sharing impressions. It was the moment of esthetic saturation.
For outdoor activity we went, one of the days, skating. The central ice rink was still sparkling in New Year decorations. It was a great fun to skate on fresh air with Christmas music, inspired by the mood of wonders. The famous carols, some nice mulled wine and frosty breath endowed us with atmosphere of a holiday. We enjoyed a lot.
The third and final part of celebrations was a visit to a functioning Observatory. Occasionally read in the news, I learnt about a comet called Catalina that exactly on the day of my birthday was passing on the shortest distance to the Earth. The Space subject had been always my favorite for discovery. I got inspired with the idea to look at the two-tailed green luminary that was announced to be visible on a cloudless sky. It was an exciting occasion to time our event with the astronomy scenery and inflame my friends with the same passion. I made a search on Astronomical centers opened for star gazing at this season and found a “more than a real” scientific institute specialized in sky scanning and computing the data incoming from the space. I called them directly and asked whether we could come and have a look on the sky.
– Do you want to see the comet move? – was the question on the phone
– Oh, yes, we suppose it would be an exciting spectacle – I said in anticipation
– My apologies. Have you ever watched a telescope and have an idea on the principle it operates?
– Actually not, that would be our first experience.
– Then I need to let you know that catching a comet in the eye of the device would be the least realistic challenge for an astronomer. You can see it by human natural sight.
– Oh, really? is it?
– Yes, the scientific equipment is tuned to seize on far further distances that the path of Catalina. It is not even a flash that a telescope can catch at the instant she flies by. The moving objects are observed by different devices which will never be provided with an eye for live transmission. It is caught by highly-sophisticated computers and only then displayed in pictures for further study.
I felt a friendly smile on the line. It was a good customer approach. I listened. The interest grew even bantering. I inquired on the options.
– Why not make an excursion through the whole scientific centre to acknowledge with the field and see how it all happens? – suggested the lady on the phone. She introduced herself as employee of the Institute and organizer of excursions.
– The idea sounds very exciting, even more than the original one.
– My pleasure. Then we will arrange an individual tour for you once the sky gets virgin for the visit.
The plan sounded perfect. We agreed to keep in tough and hunt the days with pure visibility. Regular snow and cloudy, the days arrived just in the end of March. It was the nicest postponement of my birthday I had ever had.
Adam and Eve diaries. Amazing Audio. The Mark Twen’s dream to unite the one of Adam and the other of Eve.
February 2016
A month of discovering
I watch documentation on Scotland, a series of films on Russian Seasons and the Art of Ballet. I remind in memories the best classical composers. We do a lot with my son: studying primers to practice memory and thinking, playing chess and sea battles, enjoying a true winter animation “La guerre des tuques” and once we go spontaneously to the circus. We are lucky to catch the last performance in this season for winter Christmas celebrations and we like it very much.
I continue reading the key points in psychology of a child and note a true and worthwhile message: “Kids are able to help themselves when somebody is ready to listen to them and empathize. They do not need to have their feelings being agreed by the others. They want them to be recognized.” I learn building up the right communication.
A precious moment of life: I saw once my son playing chess with himself. It was one of the regular training games, but this time it performed in such an amazing scenery that I called it “the Waltz of chessmen”. Let him be so inspired also in the future!
This month I discover Kundalini. I found a club called the “Mint” and participated in a workshop dedicated to discovery of seven chakras of a human. By chance, the topic of the visited lesson was chakra number two, that gave me, without any expectation, the answers to many of my questions. It is incredible how you can explore your nature through experience of concentration, through conscious breathing, numbers and communication with the Master. It has such a great effect on your whole day and life ahead.
I started realize my separation.
March 2016
21 days of hugs and visit to Observatory.
It does happen that you face difficulties. You push to self-assure that they will obviously end, but for that particular moment you need to do something to handle. I created my own program “21 days of hugs”. Nice and helpful. Start it at the day when you feel crap, and should not finish until the days expire, even if the crap finishes earlier. For me, it was on March 13th. I took decision to practice hugs, whatever happens in my day, no matter how hard it might seem, despite unbalancing environment and upsetting failures, you hug your relatives at home, no reason or words for explanation, no discharge of bad emotions, just hugs and feeling of release. Initially, you tend still to be drawn by disarray. Indignation would still upset you, there stands temptation to slide towards judgments, anger or worst outcome – a quarrel. This road is bad. No go. Especially when it accumulates all in one pile, and results in becoming a mess. Solution is a hug. All the mess fades away.
At those moments, in support, life sends you incredible examples, multiple on my side: Katerine, the girl of enormous love to kids. We brought our sons for sports group of kudo one lesson and became good friends for the future. She is Director of her own kindergarten, psychologist with high degree from State University and the deepest vocation by nature. Outstanding charm, calmness, mind, she is very nice in communication, and to my great surprise and sorrow, same as me – divorced. Can’t take in mind why this happens now everywhere and so often, with positive intelligent people. I feel a bit ashamed and forceless. Meanwhile happy to know each other.