friendlier. Their means of interaction with the opposite sex have not atrophied.
There were another 10% – these were “outspoken feminists” who were looking for the possibility of biting me at some point, but this was a completely uninteresting type. They were even worse than the bulk of man-haters. The tone was set by the silent 70% who carried hidden negativity, they despised the 10% who openly mocked men, and did not understand the 20% who treated us kindly.
I started taking ballet in September 2018 when I was 45 years and 4 months old. Before that, I practically did not do anything related to physical activity or art. Physical activity ended with karate and wushu in 1989. Art – flashed in a short period from 1992 to 1996.
At the beginning of September 2018, I came with East to St. Petersburg with the goal of studying for 1–2 weeks and stayed there for 4.5 months. It was very expensive in terms of money, it cost me a third of a million rubles [$5000], but a year later I returned and spent another 4.5 months from mid-September 2019.
I studied every day for 2–4 hours. I had unlimited passes to two ballet studios, and there were days when I was running from one studio to another to make it to my next class.
The day off was only on Saturday, then I went into the city. Despite the fact that I rented a room almost in the fine historical center of the city, I only had enough strength to eat and sleep. Although it’s more like this: after class I got home, went to bed, and then, after resting, I could eat something. Naturally, after several months of training, I lost about 15 kg of weight.
Then I had a break from visiting St. Petersburg due to the coronavirus epidemic. I lived in my city, where there were only two ballet studios that were “women only”, I managed to study in one of them for 4 months, from October 1, 2020 to March 11, 2021, but they still kicked me out, because the women's band was against it. I studied in the second studio from August 2021 to the end of 2021, but I was asked to leave because they had problems with having a men's locker room.
Sure, I could have found fitness or stretching classes, but I wasn't particularly interested in that.
In St. Petersburg, I studied in two ballet schools twice for 4 – 4.5 months at a daily rhythm, several hours a day, with 4 different groups. I had 3 main teachers. How many joint dances do you think have been learned with women? That's right, not at all.
The teachers tried to start somewhere, but even the simplest touching hands of a man and a woman clearly looked like harassment, because any woman was almost certainly married – and, therefore, caused such a violent flow of negative emotions, which was even expressed in a complete refusal to work, and was accompanied by obscenities. The initiative ended there.
I think the main reason was that most of the time I was the only male in the group. Almost certainly, if there was another permanent man, then the teachers could come up with a joint dance of two men, because in the modern world, a man dancing with a woman is something immoral and impossible.
It may seem that I had a negative attitude towards the ladies and what was happening. Rather, I distanced myself as much as possible from what could develop into a negative reaction. I switched my attention and went about my business. And I felt the negativity from others very well and this, of course, worsened my physical health.
But if I had a choice, I would still choose these women over a friendly male group, because men in my life did not interest me at all, and women carry something within themselves that has always attracted my attention. And my way of thinking is closer to women’s, I understand and feel them better.
All the teachers were obsessed with the correct execution of individual movements, they constantly drilled us on this topic, and it was wonderful.
There was only one teacher who tried to teach something more than a combination of 2–3 movements, but, like all the other teachers, she did not make sure that we did it well, because even what we did today was already the next lesson was falling apart.
Moreover, the teachers were, I believe, some of the best in the amateur field, they just didn’t really believe in us. This is about sad things.
I trained so intensively for only two seasons, and if I had extended my classes to 8–10 seasons, then everything would probably have been different, the attitude of women gradually, imperceptibly changed, and I believe that in 5 years they would have already treated I think it’s rather positive, and maybe even some joint work has appeared.
About the good. I really learned a lot. Of course, it was very expensive, but most of the things I can do cannot be learned from books or videos. I have come to terms with the situation that ballet school is a rare pleasure for me, and the path to art in my case will lie through my own inner work.
What I like. Of course, these are pirouettes and high jumps. This is amazing. I’m also starting to independently learn various combinations of movements, work with coordination and a sense of rhythm. By the way, these are necessary stages on the path to realizing even the simplest stage image.
During classes, I usually hid in the very corner of the hall, because I have an overdeveloped SPI (sense of personal insignificance), which I had to fight. I suppose it looked comical when a charming man, two meters tall, with good posture and long beautiful legs, constantly hides behind the backs of thin girls, trying not to catch the teacher's eye.
Taking ballet is pure narcissism, which is a direct conflict with my worldview.
Ballet is also physics and mathematics. When I started studying classical dance, I was surprised to discover that the human body can move in two modes. The first is the everyday mode, this is how most people move in life and this is how people move in common dances, and there is a second mode when a person moves using his body in a completely different way, this applies to ballet (classical dance). It is for this reason that ballet can be practiced at any age, you just need to use those capabilities of the human body that we have by nature, but are not used at all in everyday life.
May 1, 2020, Friday, in the evening I participated in my first Online class in ballet (classical dance) from 8:00 pm to 9:22 pm, in the middle of the lesson I paid 699 rubles [$10] for access to site materials for the period of May 2020, at the end of the lesson I took a screenshot, since the number of viewers was 666. In the next two months, I watched over 40 classes in a row and the number of viewers on this channel did not exceed 270.
Eduardo Battaner Lopez “Kepler. Movement of Planets. Dancing with the Stars”
“Galileo noted that ‘The universe is written in the language of mathematics’. Perhaps this idea was first written down in the Book of Wisdom of Solomon: ‘You have ordered everything by measure, number and weight’. Is also known the saying of Saint Isidore: ‘The highest of all things is number’. Kepler’s words will also take a worthy place in this series of quotes: ‘Geometry was before the world, and it was Divine. God gave the world geometric beauty, and it was His creation, and this beauty was in human hands’.
Kepler wrote in his book: ‘Most of the things that exist in the world were created due to God’s love for people’.
Although the book was very popular and thanks to it Kepler was able to devote his life to the search for the harmony of the world, it also caused criticism. The scientist personally made sure that the most outstanding minds of the time, and, in particular, Tycho Brahe, received a copy of his work. From the point of view of observers from the 21st century, it is very easy to find grounds for criticism of this treatise. There were not six planets, but six planets that were known to Kepler. And the scientist had to assume that in fact there could be more planets, but they are difficult to detect due to their small size, remoteness and imperfection of observation instruments.”
Gurdjieff and Ouspensky
Although I am not close to it, I still saved the text about these characters for further study. I am far from a mystical or religious view of the world. Yes, in my internal/external world matter/energy is felt in a very specific way, but these are only nuances of my subjective relationship with the world, while there is practically no mysticism/mystery in my existence. Everything in my life is measured,