masse do these things, therefore, they are confident that they are not risking anything. And, therefore, their physical nature is somewhat different.
You understand perfectly well what kind of things I’m talking about, so I don’t dwell on them, these events and actions are not interesting to me, and naturally I avoid them, but I’m not going to convince people, especially since there is a possibility that what they do is natural and good for them.
The presence of this phenomenon does not provide great advantages, and in addition I have to check my life path to ensure that I do not harm yourself in a moral or physical sense. And naturally, on not causing harm and undue influence on the people around me.
Otherwise, I am a very ordinary person, an unremarkable, mediocrity, a kind of gray mouse, which suits me quite well.
In mid-summer 2017, an incident occurred. At that time, in the evening after work, I often went to our country house along a path that ran from a bus stop through a small forest. There was a fork in the center of the forest, and if you don’t turn in the right direction, you might end up in the wrong place. Since I almost always returned in complete darkness, when absolutely nothing was visible in the forest, I decided to count the number of steps to the fork. I did this for two days in complete darkness, even walking with my eyes closed. A week later, when I was walking along the same road during the day, I decided to count my steps. There were significantly fewer steps, 30–40. This made a strong impression on me.
The presence of my Infinity has a characteristic feature—the absence of personal attachments and any obligations. It feels like loneliness.
But loneliness is not like emptiness and separation, but more like wholeness, completeness and the bright and stormy activity associated with this. The world is present in perception, but in my consciousness it is becoming more and more limited. The more my awareness increases, the more limited my worldview becomes within certain limits. The more I perceive reality, the less I see and feel it. Worldview becomes a way (and hostage) of self-knowledge.
Any obligation inevitably loses, because it violates the very principle of the existence of Infinity, limiting it, which is impossible. The limitless cannot be limited.
Do the people around me and the events happening in my life influence me? No dependencies does not mean no influence. In my opinion, human life is to a greater extent a matter of socialization, taking into account the interests of other people and the necessary adjustment to their desires and needs. When I studied at the theater studio, adjustment was the main method of acting. To create a complete performance, it was necessary to interact with the partner, considering his emotional and mental impulses.
Perhaps the cycles of my behavior, when I am completely closed or when I once again open up and begin to be interested in the world around me, are also connected with the internal life cycles of the “breath” of my Infinity.
One of the functions of Infinity is the systematic destruction of peripheral objects and events. Naturally, we do not consider real objects, the emphasis is only on illusory, creative, fantasy ones.
What does it mean to “destroy” a fantasy object? Of course, this is different from damaging it or seeing a real object die.
This means “destroying” it in your own creative worldview. As for example in one of the classic films from the 70s of the 20th century, a girl leaves her home and “sees” her parents’ house, where she lived for many years, and which is already far from her and is still visible on the top of the mountain, burns out. Of course, it does not actually burn, but it burns in her imagination, and now her memory includes a virtual fact, which for her soul probably has more meaning than reality. Because she will never return there and will never know whether this house exists now.
Any object or phenomenon contains links and keys that can be used in your own understanding of the world. The resulting key is not directly related to the object, now it is a link that can either point to another object, alien to you, which again will soon have to be destroyed, or, more interestingly, this link may well lead to an object or phenomenon that was previously lost, dissolved in your worldview and ceased to have a separate meaning, even if it never mattered to you before.
(Written from August 14, 2022 8:55 am to August 15, 2022 8:15 pm)
The presence of Infinity seriously influences the worldview, for example, in the fact that the very minimum amount of matter and, accordingly, energy is enough for a person. We can say that he (this person) saves and is “satisfied with little”. But this is not so, he rather really does not need much according to his feelings. It can extract the necessary information and energy from a small volume of matter. He is not content with “what is”, he does not lower his appetites, excess matter and energy will probably be discarded and hopelessly turned into useless garbage in his life.
The situation of those who feel the external influence of Infinity is characteristic. In their life there will be a similar emotional message for minimal influence on the world around them, but in this case it will be a false imperative, clearly someone else’s influence, because they will feel this lie inside themselves and they will be missing something. For example, as in this fragment, a person craves something that I don’t understand:
(link in Russian)
https://nad-suetoi.livejournal.com/163672.html
“At the very bottom of the human being, there lives something that makes us languish and thirst for something more than the simple satisfaction of everyday bodily and mental needs. They cannot give a person real happiness: after all, in the end this always turns out to be not enough. A person, sometimes without realizing it, wants to become truly happy. And this, according to <…> and his hero, is possible only by participating in what came from another world, came from heaven. In the language of theology, the fullness of communion with God is that miracle, that happiness that offers a person <…>”
In my case, on the contrary, everyday events fully satisfy my needs and aspirations, because even the very minimum is enough to obtain the required depth of awareness.
So for a person, may well be enough – one day of his life, communicating with one person, eating one lunch and seeing one sunset, remembering one poem and performing one dance.
So we have the ability to extract the required amount of energy and information from a small amount of matter and, accordingly, making a minimal impact. I.e. Infinity is equal to secrecy, insignificance, inexpressiveness and lack of importance of the person.
In the case of Infinity, one instance of an event or a reference to it is enough to, if necessary receive any (even infinite) flow of information and energy in volume, depth and variety. A sort of “Noah’s Ark” of subjective perception.
The character of Infinity—to arbitrarily maximize or minimize the importance of individual objects of matter and energy, thereby, and possibly as a result of this, objects that fall within the scope of its active Event Horizon will inevitably undergo serious internal shocks and, accordingly, deformations that can lead to their transformation, division into elements, or even destruction.
All these possibilities, in the general, mass case, are speculative and have only limited interest for humans, because without external energy supply, the energy of the human soul will not be enough for these actions.
However, if for some external reasons some outer shell of his soul is destroyed and this person does not die, then something begins to feed his thoughts and feelings, he seems to gain access to some “infinite” source of energy.
There are well-established trends in the awareness of this rare situation.
First, people believe that this flow of energy represents the external Natural world.
The second option is that these are some “bad”, personalized external forces who are planning how to “enslave” him.
Of course, no one will consider the third option – that this is a reflection of the inner nature of a person.
Naturally,