him, was quite moving.”
“Thank you.”
She asked him a couple of questions about his research and he answered her. When she held the paper out to him, her hand was shaking.
“There’s a quarterly newsletter, The Edifice, for students of English to publish their work. I’d like to see you submit this to the editor for publication.”
Ben met her eyes. And looked away. “You think it’s good enough?”
“I do.” She nodded. “I’ve got the submission requirements and the address in my office, if you’d like to come with me now.”
No. He had another class to get to, all the way across campus. A finance class. Part of his business major. Although it didn’t start for another hour…The main thing was, he couldn’t afford to see any more of Christine Evans than the three hours a week he was required to sit in her class.
“That’d be great, if you’re sure it’s not too much trouble,” he heard himself say.
His orders didn’t seem to have any more effect on him than they did on Buddy.
SHE WAS A FOOL. Not that this was news to Tory. What in hell was she doing inviting Ben Sanders to her office? In the first place, she didn’t belong there. The office really wasn’t hers. She’d barely moved in.
In the second, teachers shouldn’t have favorites. Especially not students who had a look of knowing about them, a maturity. Students who were so capable. So reliable.
“It’s obvious you do all your reading,” she said as she walked with him across campus. The heat was almost tangible, caressing her skin, and she reveled in its gentleness. Phyllis was having a hard time acclimatizing to Arizona’s weather. Tory loved it.
“I thought we were supposed to,” he said, shortening his stride to stay beside her. She moved over just slightly, automatically, leaving space between them.
She was still wearing Christine’s ill-fitting shoes, too busy studying every night to get into Phoenix for that shopping spree.
“You are!” She grinned, forgetting for a moment that she wasn’t a teacher walking with a student.
“But I’d guess some of my students haven’t even bought the text.”
“Then they’re idiots, wasting this opportunity.”
Tory wondered if he meant that.
“Do you like the Emerson years, Ben?” He’d certainly challenged her thinking a time or two during class with his insightful interpretations. She’d rather enjoyed debating with him. In the safety of the classroom.
“Not particularly.”
“Oh!” With heat flooding her face, Tory felt once again like the untutored young woman she was. “Well—”
“Don’t get me wrong,” he interrupted, moving far enough ahead to turn and walk backward, facing her. “It’s not that I don’t think your class is great. I do. I’m just not particularly fond of the Emerson era.” He shrugged. “Too stuffy for me.”
“So what authors are you fond of?” Passing a couple of girls from one of her other classes, she waved to them, feeling almost like one of them, accompanied as she was by the man they were all drooling over.
Except that she wasn’t drooling. Tory had given up drooling. She could relax a bit, though, as long as Ben was in front of her like that.
He shrugged again, fell back into step beside her. “Nathaniel Hawthorne. James Fenimore Cooper.”
“You go for the witches and wars, huh?” She moved sideways, leaving a little more space between them.
“What I admire most about The Last of the Mohicans is not the battles.”
“What is it?”
“Hawkeye.”
“Of course. The hero who conquers all and gets his woman.” Tory had a problem with that story. She’d wanted to believe there really were heroic men like Cooper’s Hawkeye, had held steadfast to that hope even in high school, despite the damage her stepfather had done. She’d held it until she’d met Bruce, married him and found out that no matter what their station, all men were alike.
“No. Hawkeye’s a man who has such a sense of honor and decency that he’ll risk everything he has, everything he is, to see justice done.”
Tory stopped in her tracks, her heart beating heavily in her chest. And then started walking again.
There was no point in arguing with him, in telling him that it was just such viewpoints, beliefs, that hurt people like her so badly. People who still believed that the sort of people they read about in books actually existed. There was no point in getting into it with him because she couldn’t support her argument with the facts.
“So who’s your favorite nineteenth-century American author?” he asked as they neared her office building.
“Louisa May Alcott.”
“Hmm. Kind of a minor player, isn’t she?”
“I guess,” Tory said, standing back as he opened the door for her. “But I like her, anyway.”
“Why?”
He was still holding the door, standing there looking at her, and she could feel his glance all the way to her bones.
There was something special about this man. Something compelling. And frightening.
“Because in a time when those guys—your Hawthorne and Melville and Emerson and so on—were writing about witches and wars and big issues, she wrote about ordinary everyday life. Her own life and that of her sisters. She was practical, the way women often are because they have to be. And she was able to take reality and make it palatable. Her writing engaged me as a child and, equally, as an adult.”
“I think I prefer books that transform reality,” he said, letting go of the door as she started down the hall. “Instead of stories that just present it the way it is.”
“Like any good writer, she did both. Her books were based on aspects of her own life, but they weren’t autobiographical.” Tory shook her head.
“I’ve been to the house where she grew up,” she told him. Christine had taken her there—as well as many other places important to American literature. In New England, they’d been right there for the visiting. “It was so…so touching to see things I’d read about. In Little Women, one of the heroine’s sisters draws all the time, and upstairs in Alcott’s home, in this little attic bedroom, there were these incredible pencil sketches along the wall. Louisa’s sister had done them.”
Tory had treasured that tour. And all the others. For those brief moments history and fantasy had come together.
“You really love this stuff,” Ben said, waiting while she unlocked her office door.
Standing there with him right behind her, she wondered why she wasn’t feeling the need to run. Usually she couldn’t tolerate being so close to a man.
Probably because she was still playing the part of Christine.
“Yeah,” she answered. “I really do.”
BEN WAS WITH ZACK FOSTER the following evening, driving home from Phoenix. The bed of his truck was filled with Zack’s new living-room furniture. As he drove down Main, he saw Christine Evans coming out of Weber’s department store. He watched her climb into a brand-new white Ford Mustang. The car seemed to suit her better than the clothes she wore. She never seemed comfortable in them.
But then, she didn’t seem comfortable, period.
“Someone you know?” the vet asked, responding to his interest.
“Not exactly,” Ben said, pulling his gaze away,