Mark B. Borg

IRRELATIONSHIP: How we use Dysfunctional Relationships to Hide from Intimacy


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needs, prompting the child to unconsciously attempt to stabilize the care environment, usually by trying to make the caregiver feel better, so that the child felt more secure. Therefore, irrelationship is a relational maladaptation. It’s not an illness, syndrome, or pathology but rather a dynamic that the child and parent construct together to circumvent the vulnerability associated with intimacy.

      The recovery tools found in this book illuminate the origins and pattern of irrelationship and provide a technique for disempowering it and transforming the individual’s isolation into the ability to form genuine, open, and intimate relationships. In addition, the book provides insight into physiological mechanisms in the brain related to the irrelationship pattern and how those patterns can be altered, creating space and grounding for healthy patterns of relating.

      The Birth of Irrelationship

      We quickly learn our parents’ relational rules; they are so much a part of our environment that unless the rules are called to our attention, we seldom become aware of them. Some rules—like never asking for anything or always having to feel grateful—may leave us feeling isolated or empty, but we follow them for the sake of emotional safety and to ensure the fulfillment of basic needs. Unwittingly, we shape ourselves to the roles parents assign us and continue acting in these roles in future adult relationships. We call these patterns our song-and-dance routines. Very early in life, we silently agreed to take care of our parents by following their rules so they would take care of us. If our caregiver was depressed, anxious, or unhappy we did what we could to make him or her feel better. This enmeshed caretaking pattern (i.e., irrelationship) quietly became the defining dynamic of how we related to others, ultimately preventing true connection and intimacy.

      A Little Attachment Theory Goes a Long Way

      According to attachment theory, we learn how to relate to the world based on the contact we had with our closest caregivers—usually our parents—when we were very small. We bring how we related with them into future relationships so that our manner of relating becomes a product of how our caregivers related with us, i.e., their own attachment style, which developed when they were young in relation to their caregivers. The greater the demand for intimacy in adult relationships, the more crucial the operation of our attachment style becomes, depending on how intensely and in what ways our early attachments resonate with adult situations.

      Attachment styles are generally classified as either secure or insecure (i.e., avoidant or anxious), depending on the quality of caregiving that occurred between child and caregiver; the innate factors with which the child is born; and the fit between the child and the caregiver’s attachment styles.3 People with a secure attachment style develop an inner base early in life that allows them to remain essentially grounded during emotional disruptions or even during severe life crises. They’re able to allow themselves to feel emotions and upsets without becoming deeply disturbed and resume equilibrium relatively quickly.

      We can easily see how attachments can snowball rapidly. For example, if a person with an avoidant way of dealing with intimacy gets involved with someone who is anxious and preoccupied, the avoidant person will retreat from the other’s advances, evoking a worried pursuit from the anxious person. This makes the avoidant person withdraw even more, setting in motion a cycle that continues until a dramatic resolution—usually unpleasant—occurs. Similarly, a deadening of relationship can develop if two avoidant people meet but leave long-standing dissatisfactions unresolved for extended intervals. In such situations, disappointment and resentment give way to chronic deprivation and suppressed contempt. If communication fails to improve, deep feelings of sadness and grief are added to the mix.

      Since one can’t necessarily pick and choose the parts of the emotional spectrum to be kept at a distance, the blocking of distressing emotions frequently results in an inability to tolerate any type of spontaneous emotional experience, positive or negative. This includes the ability to experience empathy, live compassionately, and fall in love.

      Is our experience with early caregivers the last word? Are people living in irrelationship doomed to a life of keeping others at a safe distance and never sharing an intimate relationship?

      That’s not what attachment theory and the authors’ clinical practice seem to indicate. An earned secure attachment is entirely attainable if we’re willing to look at our history and do the work of clearing away our confusion about others and ourselves, which allows us to learn how to think more deeply about our emotions and others’ feelings and needs. Handling so many moving parts at once is difficult at first and can be an anxiety-triggering deterrent, making irrelationship seem like a more attractive option. But people who make the ongoing choice to address relationship difficulties do make progress that they find gratifying on multiple levels.

      Why is irrelationship so difficult to identify, let alone repair? Why can’t being kinder, more generous, or more forgiving eliminate the distress? The answer is that irrelationship reinforces childhood patterns, our original song-and-dance routines, in which we innocently tried to defuse perceived crises by making our caregiver feel better by being good—showing appreciation, being funny or entertaining, showing how smart we were, being as helpful as we could, or simply vanishing from our caregiver’s sightline—in short, by applying whatever behavior we could to the crisis to make our caregiver feel better and ourselves feel safer. And it seemed to work; it resulted in a greater sense of peace, or at least less anxiety, allowing us to feel more secure.

      Performing jokes for the caregiver may have made things feel lighter, but that isn’t the whole story: the child’s performance behavior released brain chemicals that gave the child profound feelings of safety and