sleepless nights worrying about something that you cannot control and has nothing to do with you? Do you want more drugs in the world, more cancer, more war, etc., etc., etc.? Then call attention to them; i.e., the war on drugs, the war on cancer, the WAR!
We are not here to save the world. We just have to improve ourselves and the rest will come. That message came twice last night in the period of an hour — while I was ruminating about drama and activism. Big lesson for me . . . I am not here to save the world? Thank God, that weight has been lifted! All I have to do is “BE” me. And in being me, I am affecting the world. Entrainment — that’s what it is called. I affect 5 people; they affect 25. Those 25 affect 125, and so on. It’s about raising the vibration, one person at a time. It’s about being from love. It’s about being authentic and from integrity.
A friend said yesterday, “Don’t fight negativity with negativity — it only fuels it; feeds it; makes it stronger. And, it makes us negative in the process. Instead, battle darkness with light; fear with love; ignorance with truth. Feed the light, as we are meant to do.”
Love will prevail.
And so, as I said, this is my coming out. It is MY truth. It is MY knowing. It is MOO. (My Opinion Only. Thank you, Jeannine.)
Blessings to all,
Paula
So obviously, this book has a lot to do not only with art, but also my spiritual path. I think they go hand in hand. One opened the door to the other. One could not exist without the other. Because . . . it’s my path. It’s my journey. And it’s my story. And I share my story because I wish for all of you to experience these things . . . these awakenings. . . these gifts that come from seeking. And now . . . on with the show (or the book!)
Mother’s Day — 17 down, 13 to go — 20: (Paintings, that is; not Mothers!)
May 9 2010
Word of the Day: Should. Definition: Must; ought (used to indicate duty, propriety, or expediency).
Tomorrow is Mother’s day. I completely forgot. I have been so wrapped up in painting, painting, painting, that I don’t even remember what day it is. Good thing/Bad thing?
Good thing: I am doing the work that I came here to do — the work of spirit. I’m channeling energy from above. I lose time. I lose all sense of reality. I lose space. Heck, I lose my . . . glasses — only to find two pair on my head when I look in the mirror! I forget to eat, and then I eat two meals within a couple of hours. I go outside into my yard and don’t recognize it. I am happy . . . I don’t worry about what I look like or if my make-up is perfect. Hell, I seldom even take the time to put it on! I wear my pajamas all day. I listen to music. I sing. I laugh. I cry. I’m happy . . . I’m doing what I came here to do. THIS is who I am. I feel good when I am “being” who I am — when I am marching to my own drummer, when I am in my own world. Life is good . . .
Bad thing: I lose all sense of reality. I didn’t get any mother’s day cards sent out. I “should” have remembered. Will I be judged? Probably. I’ll send one tomorrow.
I struggle with questions posed by all that has come up for me because of my current situation: Must we “do” what we “should” do? What society says we “ought to” do? Is “must” a four-letter word? Or is this a time when we are to be authentic and acting from integrity — doing what we know is right for us, coming from our hearts, dropping judgment, and loving all as we love ourselves? Hell bells, isn’t it time we learn how to love ourselves? In completely loving ourselves, we drop judgment against all.
God . . . is. We . . . are. We are all the God within. We are All One. Believe in and Love Yourself, and you will find judgment towards others drop away.
Let go of the “shoulds.” Do what is right for you . . . love yourself . . . forgive yourself. Just learn how to be. Only then do you have yourself to give to others.
Blessings,
Paula
This was and is a big lesson for me. About how to accept that path that we are given. About how to stop beating myself up for being who I came here to be. You may recognize yourself in some of the above statements. It’s part of “being” creative. It’s part of “being” who you are. It’s part of “being.” Period.
True Christianity — what does THAT mean?
May 13 2010
So . . . Spirit has been tapping me on the shoulder for a couple of days about a few topics and — as is usual for me right now — I have been ignoring the messages. Dang . . . well, this morning, it was a shove. This is what came through.
Christianity, Judaism, doing “things” in the name of God — exactly what is it? Is it an excuse to persecute, judge, and control with fear? Is it really a building? Is it really an institution? Or is it within? What exactly did Jesus come here to teach us?
THE Lesson — and really the only one we “need” — is LOVE THY NEIGHBOR AS THYSELF!!! It was pounded into our heads as children. The universal law. The one “commandment” above all others. But, first, we need to love ourselves. Love ourselves. LOVE OURSELVES. As we are . . . today.
Forgive ourselves our shortcomings. Forgiveness of self is the most divine act ever. We don’t come with instruction manuals. We come with intuition — gut-feelings. When we go against these feelings, this is when we do “wrong.” And then later, we beat ourselves up. Chastise ourselves. Tell ourselves how worthless we are.
We are divine beings having a human experience. We are allowed “mistakes.” Look at these as the learning and the growth opportunities that they are.
However, to continue to make these “mistakes” — wow . . . you need to be popped in the head — “I could a had a V-8” sort of pop!
When we learn to love ourselves, judgment will drop . . . completely. And isn’t that why we are all here? To come from love, compassion, honesty, integrity, and to be authentic? To love one another as ourselves. War would end; racism would no longer be an issue; judgment would drop away. We would all just BE.
Listen to the words of John Lennon in the song Imagine.
God . . . is. We . . . are. We are all the God within. We are All One. Believe in, love and forgive Yourself, and you will find judgment towards others drop away.
Let’s all be truly spiritual. Let us all be the God Within.
Peace,
Paula
Oh, Yeah . . . 22 done — only 8 to go!!!
So . . . a common theme here . . . self-love. I’m constantly being reminded that self-love is essential to heal the world. And, that part of loving myself . . . is being authentic to myself. Which means following my passion . . . which . . . of course, is . . . Painting.
Casting stones
May 19 2010
“Paula,
I find it to be ironic that while you are opening yourself to the world of your newfound humility and wisdom, I have not heard of any person having received any acknowledgement of the litany of wrongs you’ve committed against people on your way too enlightenment. No apology = No acceptance of responsibility.
Please remove me from your self-congratulatory blog.”
Wow . . . after reading this . . . it was a trip to the bathroom — just one, but one that emptied my insides. Then I backtracked, and reread. It made me think — Oh, no, . . . so dangerous for Paula to think!
There are millions and billions of us in the world who have gone through challenging times in our lives. Who did I owe apologies to? And for what exactly? No murders — pretty sure. Didn’t steal from anyone — at least as far as I remember. No embezzling. I went to friends and inquired.
“Paula, you